May the soul rest in peace and blessed by Allah...Today...It's a very sad day for me...My hamster which is also my bestfriend, Amy, passed away... When I'm sad...She was always there for me...I always tell her my sad feelings...Coz I know...She is sad too coz her family has been eaten by a cat in front of her bare eyes but she survived...She must have lived in misery...Just like me...But I have a family...But it's like I don't have one...They never listen to my problems before...I treat her as a big part of my life...But now she's gone... I went out for dinner...And when I went back home..I was the first witness to see my Hamster dead..One half of her body is on the ground and the other half is stuck at the cage...As I'm typing...Tears can't stop rolling down my cheeks and make my vision blur...I love her so much...It's just so difficult for me to accept this fate...It's like losing a family member....And to make things worst...My dad was he second to saw the blood on the floor...He laughed and clapped his hands that Amy is Dead...I just wanted to go out to cry my heart out...He stopped me and said if I went out he's gonna slap my face! WHAT!!?? And if I don't stop crying he's gonna slap my face too! I just hate him!
HATE HIM!!!! The hate I feel in me is unbearable! I feel like running away from home as long as I live in the same house as my dad! When will I grow up and leave my house...!!??? I'm happy for my sister that she's leaving...Now it's my turn to face what she has faced in her teenage years...I just have to let go of Amy...And let her soul rest in peace...Even though my mother's gonna buy me 2 more hamsters...I don't think they can replace Amy...And my dad...Can never change...Only a bite mark on my finger is left in the memory of Amy...That was the last bite I got from her on 19 of June 2007...I'll miss her SOO much...I just bought her a new cage and she's dead...I would hqve bought her anything just to make her happy...But now....She's gone...Maybe this is fate that I have to accept...Maybe her time has come...I have to let her go...I HATE MEHK EHK AND MY FATHER!! Mehk Ehk for now...My father...Will last long...Until then my fair readers...
