It's all fated.

OMG!!! GREAT NEWS!!!!...

KAK YAYA CAME TO MY HOUSE JUST NOW!!! ^^

I know it's not such a big deal for you readers out there... Haha! Ok just the sight of her totally cheered me up! Wheee~! I didn't even care about what happened just now which made me cry! Huhu! OMG! I so miss you Kak Yaya! YOU READ MY BLOG BUT NEVER TAG!! YOU NAUGHTY LA SEYH! Haha! But just now didn't get to meet her for long la... I had to go out when she just came...And when I returned home, she wants to go off already... Ish... We get to talk for a while! GIRL TALKS! Hahas! More about how to look Goood!! Hahas! And about my recent post... Yay! I'm seeing her again this Saturday!! We're going Wild Wild Wet!! Yay yay! Haha! SAAYYYYAAANNNGGG KAK YAYAKU!! Haha!

I'm going out at 9++... Going to watch Superhero Movie with my bro! I am SO asking him for Nachos! [Ok he just returned home and ask ME to pay for the drinks! DREAM ON!!! XD] I also told him about my result! Haha! He was surprised since I wasn't really prepared for the test... He thought I got 8/15...Haha! He's proud of me too! It feels great to be the last one in your family! Haha! Ok2 I wanna complete my homework...Won't be blogging about the movie...But I'm sure it's hilarious! Huhu! Ok I have nothing else to talk about... Stay happy!! hahas...[what the hell...?] BYE2!!

P.S. Don't find excuses to cry... Find some ways to make you smile! ^^ Like LISTENING TO ROCK SONGS!! WHOOOOEEEE~!!! Hahas! TEARS DON'T FALL.... THEY CRASH AROUND ME...!!! LoL! Ok I'm crazy... Enjoy the song! Bullet For My Valentine ROCKSS!!! Keep on rockin' peepz! ^^

And I just have this feeling... We are not meant to be... I'm sick and tired of these stories I heard about you... I don't even believe if it's true... And I know... It's gonna hurt more if I continue to like you...When one day I found out...It's all just a lie... So I've decided... To let it go... If we are meant for each other... I guess time will determine it all... I won't be putting anymore efforts to get to know you better... Coz you're not even trying... I feel so rejected... To my friend who started our friendship... You're saying I'll regret if I throw all these feelings away? Tell me why should I? My day and nights are haunted with thoughts... And I hate all those thoughts... It's not that I'm a coward... It's not that I'm not ready... It's not that I'm still stuck in my terrible past with that heartbreaker... It's just that I won't force people to befriend me if they don't want to... And today... Will be the last day I shed my tears because I feel so desperate for a person to befriend me... I have better things in life to cry about... So I just found out that thinking negative is a sin...Better than I keep on thinking that he'll never accept me ever in his life...And all those negative thoughts... Isn't it better if I forget him? Though it feels impossible... Life has to move on...

P.S. I will never force you to be my friend...What more to love me... I've never ever have that thought... You can just tell me to get out of your life if you want to...I'll respect your decisions... Don't be like that ass who only act to love me all the while... It's hurts even more... Hmms... I guess I rather be alone... I'm just meant to be lonely... I'll just let time determine everything... And I know Allah will give me happiness some day... And only Allah knows how I really feel now...

Hmms... That heartbreaker has moved on and seems so happy with his gal...Me...I have moved on...But I'm sad about OTHER stuffs... Argh! This is SO not supposed to be happening! This is why I only want to befriend him later this year! Not EARLY this year! And my plan is all SPOILED! And my heart is partially broken! Damn it...-.-... He's not supposed to know... Why must he know now?? Haiz... I guess I can never be happy like that guy... How does he move on so easily...?? Hahas! Don't get wrong ideas uh! I have NO feelings for him anymore! He broke my heart n i healed it myself ok? So why should I still like him? Hahas! Yay! I'm smiling again! Hehe... I get happy again so easily... Oh maybe I should think positive... I'm being selfish if I think negative... Maybe he's just shy...And not couldn't be bothered... And maybe just now he left without replying my hello coz he really has to rush off! It feels good to think positive! Hehes... I know... Kirin... YOU ARE SOOOO WEIRD! LoL!

Eh 'O' Levels coming what... Maybe he doesn't want me to think too much about him and wants me to concentrate more on my studies! Yea! That's the way! Haha! And that's what I'll do... I'll ignore him too! Haha! Crazy girl... But to study mah... Damn! 2 more weeks Mock exam! I want study leh! Only started revision on A-maths! Ok la... I'm wasting my time crying n blogging! And I think I know perfectly well why i am SOOOOO EMOTIONAL and negative thinking this week... The time is coming! Hahas... I guess it'll be over soon... I hate this period of time... I'm such an emokid! I hate emokids! Hahas! Too bad I was one last year... Ugh... Makes me sick...XD
Emokids=Losers=Sinners coz they slit and hurt themselves[like what the fuck?]...And they ALWAYS tink negative thoughts! ALWAYS I TELL YOU! I've met someone like that before! One thing for sure these people are great at influencing you to be one of these emoarses... Don't be an EMOKID!!! Haha!

Oh sheesh...Just now was my Physics SPA... Ok I blew up one part...a=b=focal length... I GO AND FIND (b) FOR WHAT!!??!! Argh... I suck... The rest was okay uh... I felt like crying when the thing just started... Coz I couldn't find the image! Total mess up! Just told myself to remain calm... Hahas! Kinda difficult...Oh well... It's over now... I rather not talk about it... I don't usually cry over school stuffs... Except last year when I got to know I was third last in class AGAIN... Hahas! I cry not coz of that actually...Coz I have failed my parents... Shattered their high hopes for me... Oh well hopefully I won't do it again this year... Insya'Allah...

But thinking of what I got for the chemistry test I took yesterday...Totally brings a smile back to my face! My parents are gonna be sooo proud of me! Hehe! I scored 15/15! Yay!! Hehe! Never scored full marks for a chem test before... Coz I'm VERY VERY weak in chemistry! Hahas! Alhamdulillah....All my hardwork has paid off... I guess I shall continue striving and maybe I can score well for all of my subjects for this coming Mock Exam... [I just told my parents about it... And they were so proud of me! ^^]

I've been such a negative thinker lately...And it's BOTHERING ME! After I found out it's a sin to think negative... I don't think this should carry on! I MUST think positive 24/7! Yea! I CAN pass my Physics 'O' Level SPA! I CAN go to JC! I CAN get 5 As for my 'O' Level! I CAN be the cleverest among my family member! I AM the best! Hahas! Yay! ^^ I actually have doubts about going JC just coz of the bloody SPA.. Tch...! If my practical not good...means I MUST go Jc...since there's more theory...! Hehes! Ok la! I guess I'll stop here! I need to pray! BYE! ^^

Ooh! I'm back from praying... And here to continue blogging! Hehe... Just now before the Physics SPA I quarelled with Ain... I was just stressed right... I mean... C'mon uh... I know you are clever and all that's why you can chill... I can't ok? I FAILED my Physics ok? And she said she was sick and tired of me being so panic for no reason and involving the people around me... I was like already mad...she just made me MORE angry... And guess what? I was actually talking to Maizurah and she scold me???! -.-... And I'm in no mood to say sorry to her for scolding her back just now... I mean...SHE STARTED IT...-.-... OK whatever... I know tomorrow everything will be back to normal... Ok2... I gtg now! Bye2!! ^^

And here I am blogging on a weekday... Why am I even ONLINE!?? My brain is abit tensed today... So I rather chill than study... Or I'll mess up my Physics SPA tomorrow... Sheesh... I'm not as nervous...Hahas! Maybe coz it's the second time and I have prayed to be strong in my heart to face these challenges in life... Chey..! Haha! I'm stressed and I know that VERY WELL! I have been acting weird lately [can go and ask Maizurah...]...I totally freaked her out today... After eating MARS...I'm even MORE crazy! Hahas! Laughing for no reason? Weird... Hahas! And everytie I see that 'pain in the ass' face, I feel like KILLING HIM! Hahaha! And that's one more thing I need to change about myself... Forgive and forget... BUT HE'S A HEARTBREAKER!! I DESPISE HEARTBREAKERS!! They don't deserve a second chance! And after recess... After receiving my Chem test paper...Which I got a B4... Well that's good enough for someone who barely puts in effort for the test! Haha! ME! I kept on saying..AH DON'T CARE AH! Haha! And I got a B4?? Cool! Haha! Anyways, after receiving the damn paper... I was happy for a sec... And I don't know why my mood suddenly changed... Like wha..? Haha! Oh there was no PE today... Whatever...

At home... I chill and chill and chill... Haha! I used my whitening mask... It's great! My face became smoother, my complexion was fairer and the size of the bloody pimple on my face shrinked! WHEEEE~!!! Haha! So when my mum wants to go to Geylang I will ask her to buy that mask again! Haha! Oh oh! Kak Yaya!! I really wanna thank you!! It's so thoughtful of you seyh want to buy me the white eyeliner! haha! I'm so touched! LOL! Eh I love you la seyh! AND MISS YOU!!! >.<

Ate my dinner just now...Mee Tom Yam... SHEESH! DAMN SPICY!! Oh well... I have nothing else to say...Haha! Battery running low!! BYE2! Oh ya just now got Chem test, and I have a feeling can score full marks...Hahas! Macam pahamness... LOL! Ok2 that's all! BYE!

P.S...You Are Always In My Prayers...Even though I know I'm not needed in your life... Hmms...

Lets make this one a quick post since I have to pray in a sec... Today is quite a boring day...Have you guys watched Anger Management? It's so funny! Oh how I love Adam Sandlers! Hahas! Favourite comedian! Ah! Physics 'O' Level SPA in 2 days time! Shit! I am so scared!! AGAIN!! Haha! Oh well just pray that I'll do my very best and can remain calm during the exam... And I'll do that in a sec... Alamak homework haven't finish leh... Haiz... Ok2 got nothing much to say! My mum's calling me to go and pray!!! BYE2!! Oh by the way... Good luck my 4e3 classmates for this upcoming SPA exam..! You guys can do it!! All the best! ^^

YOOOO~!!! Hahas! Me again! I know it's late but I'm just here to blog... Eyh I received $10 more from my ANOTHER brother! Whee~! $40 in juz one day! YAY! I love my siblings! Haha! Not coz of their money la...-.-... SO yea just now went to Geylang...But didn't go to Haagen Dasz... Coz the voucher needs to be signed before used... ALERMAKZ... My sis didn't sign it... So yea... Some other days I guess...

And to my friend Aiha..I don't change my personality everyday... I'm still the happy-go-lucky girl... Hahas! Well I suddenly feel like this love is one sided and all... So I couldn't be bothered to even think about it already... So that I won't get a bloody heartbreak again one day...^^ [And come on...After what his FRIEND did to me... Gives me doubts about people who are close to that idiot who thought he has successfully broke my heart...-.-] And Tom... Stop it about that asshole... I hate him! And that ass is also close to that idiot COINCIDENCELY...-.-...

SOOOO.... What did I do in Geylang... Didn't spend much time looking at fabrics... They just sell the most gorgeous fabrics in Geylang! Whee~! Hahas! Went to the traditional medication shops...Mum wanted to buy some stuffs there...So I asked her for my Fair & Lovely lotion for my face and also a whitening mask! In another shop I asked her for ANOTHER whitening mask! Haha! Ish just now when I was rehearsing the song Air Mata Ibu...I felt like crying! Haha! Seriously, if my mum cries when she hears that song...I'LL JOIN HER!!! Hahas! Ate Kway Teow and my mum ate Hor Fun... Drank Blueberry drink...ISH! So much and not nice leh... Haha! To me la... I didn't spend a cent at Geylang! Haha! Oh ya! Told my mum to buy this insect repellent lotion too! OMG! I love the smell! And it makes my skin so smooth! Yay! haha! Mum bought 2 scarfs for $29.90 each! What an outrageous price! DAMN EXPENSIVE! Oh well at least the salesperson said I looked like Siti Nurhaliza...Works for me! Hahaha! Kidding... Still too expensive la... Then we went back to Tampines!

At Tampines...Went to Century Square straight away... Coz I know what I want to buy coz I've been babbling about it the whole day with my mum! Haha! I bought my new pair of shoes!! Yay! I LOVE IT!!!! And it only costs me $19.90! The actual price was $26.90!! I SAVED ALOT!! It's black...Like flats uh...Forgot what it's called...Got hole at the front part..Quite small...Can only see 3 toes...Damn my laptop uh bluetooth always cannot be found one! Grrr...! -.-... Argh I'm tired! Hahas! Ok my feets are VERY tired...Thanks to my pair of SUPER FLAT, NO CUSHION SLIPPERS! And I went out at 5 and returned home at 10... I told ya... 5 hours of shopping! Huhu! ^^ I love shopping! Hahas! Then my mother also bought this pair of shoes under the Odd Sizes section... costs her $10 only... Not fair!! Haha! I also bought 2 pais of heel support to prevent myself from getting blisters! Finally can wear my ANOTHER pair of flats! ^^ Now I have 2 pairs of shoes!

At home, watched APM... CONGRATS SITI NURHALIZA FOR WINNING THE MOST POPULAR FEMALE ARTIST!!! I LOVE YOU SITI!!! FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!! Hahas! My idol for life! ^^ Sayyyaaaaannnng my Kak Siti! Hehe! She's not ANY Siti...She's THE Siti...! ^^ And she sang such a great song just now! She sang Fantasia Bulan Madu...Originally sang by Amy Search...I love that song! But I love Siti more! Haha! Then just now ate alot of tea leaves... Not the one to make teas... In malay they say 'daun teh' same thing la... But for cooking... NICE la! Then I used my whitening mask....It kinda stink! Who cares!? It makes my skin feels smoothr after that! I also put that on my mum's face! Haha! And first I dripped it very near her eyes, then the next time, almos go inside her mouth! Haha! Cannot work in a spa la... Haha! Ooops! My back is aching already! Tick tock tick tock [ala that 4 minutes song by Justin, Timbaland and Madonna...XD]...I gotta go! BUBBYES!!! TAKE CARE FRIENDS!!! ^^

And I thought my day would be incomplete if I don't say hello to him every friday...! Hahas! Hello peepz! Looks like I've achieved one of my goals alread...Which is to be happy no matter what! Huhu! I used to say to myself I must say hello to hat person once a week...To think again...Why is it always me? Haha! Sooooo.... Now I don't seem to care much already... He doesn't care... Why should I? ^^ And WHY should I be sad about it? Such an unimportant issue to cry upon... I've wasted ENOUGH tears on ONE bloody ass... Now whenever I see that face... No tears, no memories flashbacks! Just VENGENCE! Grrr...! Haha! Oh the other one? Hahs! Just a loser who thinks he broke my heart... NOT! Come on la...A pathetic 13-day crush? Tell me who falls in love within 13 days and never even speak with each other before?? Hah! I'm surprised you're even IN my past...-.-...

And another thing that made me happy...Come on...As long as there's MALLS.... NO POINT CRYING! Just go shopping! Haha! It simply cheers me up in a jiffy! Haha! And I received this Hagen Daz [is det hw u spell it? oh wadevs....] voucher and $10 from my sis... I don't know what came up to her... But I LOVE IT! Haha! So I'm going Geylang and Hagen Daz later... And then just now my bro gave me $20!! JUST LIKE THAT! Haha! Coz I didn't receive any money from the government...He decided to be MY government? Haha! That's what he said... Where else did I get my lameness if not from him? Haha! This means what? Plan a shopping list! Now I have more than $30 in just a week! WOOO~! Hahas! Alhamdulillah....! That's Thank God in Muslim... Hmm...So now what I WANT to buy...?
~>White liquid eyeliner!!
~>Flats! [MUST! I have no shoe!! >.<]
~>'May' Bag? Hahah! See first... Too much bag already! Haha!
~>Dress template from SPOTLIGHT...[But when to sew?]
~>Some fabrics for the dress I'm making...[Maybe yes...Maybe no...Maybe I don't know...XD]
Or simply just continue saving! Err...That'll just make me MORE stress! Argh! I have money but I'm not spending it! Haha!

Do you shoppers out there realise that The Great Singapore Sale is not really a big deal? These shops raise the prices of their stuffs now, and reduce it later by like only 10-20%...And i goes back to the original price...And people go 'WOW-WHEE!' over those stuffs...-.-... Like I'm PISSED with Wallet Shop...I bought my handbag for $34 during GSS... But NOW it is selling at $28!!! Or is it $29? Who cares!? The price has been reduced! Whaaaattt??!!!! Haha! I bought it last year and that design also not for sale already! Hahas! Oh well...Always look on the bright side of life! Haha! I think today I'll buy the flats... My plastic flats are not helping when it comes to shopping for 5 hours! -.-... My feets would be damn tired by then! See? I get so excited when I talk about shopping! Haha! Shopaholic! That's me alright! Haha!

Watched step up 2 on my sis laptop just now...OOOOHHH!! LOVE IT! LOVE IT! LOVE IT! Everytime watch step up sure like I wanna dance also! Hahas! Well I did...Just before I went online... I don't show people that I dance...NO WAY! NEVER! Hahas! The main guy in that show is so HOT! His name is Robert Hoffman who played as Chase Collins in the movie! He has this hot body + hot moves! I love the part where he danced with Andie! When he placed his hands above her body and her body followed his hand like got magnetic effect like that! SO COOL~!!! Haha! NO WAY I will allow a guy to place his hand so close to my body like that! No no NO! Haha! OH! I ate Hotcakes for breakfast today! Yummy yum yum! Hahas! Ok la...I want to pray! Bye2! ^^ And GO SHOPPING LA IF YOU ARE FREE! XD

Heys...Life is beautiful isn't it? Hahas Especially when you love yourself! Here's a tip..."LOVE YOURSELF MORE THAN YOU LOVE ANYONE ELSE"... In other words... You can't insult a person if he/she is vain... YOU are actually in the wrong... You see...That person is actually LOVING and PAMPERING him/herself... SO why tease? Shouldn't YOU love yourself too? So who's the loser now huh? The person who teases these vain people of course! I'm saying this on the behalf of all vainity queens and kings! Haha! Yar I'm one of them!

I'm so freakin' vain that I just can't resist admiring myself in a mirror whenever I see one! Haha! Since there's no mirror in class... I bring my OWN mirror...! Hahas! And I always have to adjust my hair, and I can get hysterical by just ONE pimple! Hahas! IF I have pimples... I will wash my face 4 times a day sometimes... And if it's a bad hair day...I will spend 10 minutes shampooing my hair, comb my hair like ALOT of times in one day and after that I will use my leave on conditioner! And OH! Everywhere I go...I must look GOOD! Hahas! That means...Dress well, make my hair well and use make up well! Hahas! Overall...Look gorgeous! OH OH!! TAKE ALOT OF PICTURES OF YOURSELF AND KEEP ON ADMIRING THEM! Hahas! And one more thing... Before leaving the house... Look in the mirror and say..."Hey! I look GOOOOODDDD!"... Hahas! Seriously, you will feel good and this will boost your confidence about your looks...And also you'll go out smiling which makes you even more beautiful/handsome! Huahaha! ^^ Trust me...I ALWAYS do that...And my mum ALWAYS giggles at me coz I praise myself...! Haha! What I care? XD I'm not ashamed that I love myself...

Anyway...That's the tip of the day my friends! Especially for those with low self-esteem! Haha! I don't like performing not coz I have no confidence in myself...I'm scared when alot of EYES ARE STARING AT ME!!! Eeeek! Freaky! Haha! If no confidence how come that day at the old folks home my tone abit off for one part when I sang, I can still continue singing? I LOVE my voice that's why I dared to sing! Haha! VAIN! LOL! Confidence peepz...CONFIDENCE! Haha! [Whatever Rin...LoL!] Today...Nothing much happened...The day...IS DEAD! Hahas! In school uh... Boredz-a-lot! I thought just now the A-maths remedial don't have...The teacher late... -.-... Riiighhttt.... Lucky I never go home...I got a little pissed off for a sec there...OH! [Note to self...Don't use 'pissed off' in composition...IT'S VULGAR!! O.o] Then use fucked up? Hahas! Joking2 la.... Sorry2 I know it's very vulgar...JUST A JOKE! Hahas! Overall the thing was boring... Thanks Shikin and Khairin for the help! My A-maths chapter 4 simply SUCKS! >.<

And today...I wanna start changing myself... I know I've made so much sins all my life... So I've started to repent starting from today...With the help of my mum...[Thanks Mumzies! ^^]...And I actually had SO MUCH FUN with her! Hahas! I also bought her the Silkygirl lipstick already...For mothers' day... Scared if I buy very late, the offer over already... Alamak...My mum is like annoying me by "meow-ing" from just now, singing Stupid Girls by Pink... Ish... Wanna blog also cannot concentrate liao... Hahas... Tomorrow, I'm going jogging! Actually brisk walking...Still exercising what... After that go home chill out and then late in the afternoon...Go GEYLANG! Hahas! Why I happy? Coz there's so much fabrics there! And bridal boutiques! I get so happy when I see so much fabrics! LOL! Coz I ALWAYYYSSSS want to make my own dress.... I wonder when...Hmms... Ok la... I'm very tired already... VERY TIRED....It has been a looonnngggg day...Hehes! I also wanna practice singing Air Mata Ibu by Siti Nurhaliza for my mother on Mothers' Day... I wanna make her weep! Haha! Hopefully yea...

Guess what? My mind is totally off reationship right now since I'm like SO into improving and loving myself! Hehe! Which is MOST important! Hahas! For me, that is! ^^ See...If I happen to be really in love... I'm making a sin! Coz my mum forbids me to love a guy before 'O' Levels! EEEKK! And she's so proud of me since I'm not like OTHER GIRLS who are so obsessed with boys and feels so grateful to have a daughter who is not interested to have a boyfried... So I better not get involve in this...Let stick to infatuation yea? Hahas! And hope it lasts till after 'O' Levels...XD

That's all! Take care gorgeous blog-hoppers! Don't forget to love yourselves and thanks diyana for the thingy u r making for me... Haha! Take care my blog readers! ^^

HELLLLOOOO~! Wow this week is such a great week! Hahas! I'm really changing... I know I'm gonna be 16... And I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO COOK! Hahas! NOT ANYMORE~!! Hehe! Today is the day when I start to be a BIG GIRL! Hehes! Come on... If I want to LIKE someone... I must know how to cook! Tell me...Who wants to be with someone who doesn't know how to cook? Hahas! So NOW you people know why I want to learn how to cook! Haha! To impress people la... Even if I don't get to be with that person one day... C'mon he's not the ONLY guy on earth... Haha! But in my eyes, he is for now! Haha! I cooked 'Ayam Masak Merah' and 'Stir Fried Long Beans'... Both my favourites! Hahas! Only cook what I love to eat arh! Haha! I was SO excited after tasting the Ayam Masak Merah! Haha! Taste like my mum's cooking! Yay! That means I am GOOOOODDD! Haha! I got take the picts but cannot upload...DAMN IT! Tomorrow I'll try again...

That time syiok ar went swimming... But my hair becomes like plastic! It's damaged! Bought this leave on hair moisturiser already... My hair is quite better already... I also bought this clearasil facial wash..get a scrub wash for free... Facial wash finished and PIMPLES MULTIPLYING!!! AHHHH!! What's happening??! I wash my face twice daily but these pimples keeps on multiplying!! Must take more serious measures!! I HATE PIMPLES!!! I guess that's all uh...^^
Changing for the better is always good!

Eh! What am I saying... 'that's all'?? Just now in school something funny happened during recess...Actually after recess... But the class was still locked...MY class was suddenly popular... Haha! Thanks to a bird...-.-... I saw a bird flying in my class..Then the bird went to my table... The bird was trying its best to take away my pink furry keychain! Naughty birdie!!! Even when I rushed in...It quickly took its last chance to take away my keychain! Then it flew away... Naughty sia! From outside the classroom me and my classmates were like "SHOOOO~!!!!"...So many sounds! Haha! Some tried to make a bird sound...Haha! I said "meow"? Hahaha! Birds are supposed to be afraid of cats aren't they? Haha! Ok la I guess that's all! Bye!

P.S... I wish I know what he likes to eat the most... I would try my very best to cook it! Kwang3! Not the time yet la Kirin... Hahas! So now every Thursday I COOK! Yay! Hahas! K la! Bye2! ^^
And my grandma said that I'm eligible to get married already...-.-...Riighhht... She wanna FIND a guy for me?? HAHA! No Thanks granny! LoL! Found one myself! Haha! Macam PAHAM!! XD

Helo! Eh I got edit some picts leh! I know...Why am I online? Coz I want to lor... Haha! I'm bored...And chatting with my dearest Hanis! Hahas! I miss her so yea...Once in a while! Hehe! Stupid friendster cannot upload picts...-.-...

I Blew You A Kiss! Catch It!! XD
It's for all the people I've missed so much!
Damn it! When can I see all of you again?!! XD
I'm so pink seyh! Hahas!

Cool right??? Damn I love editing picts! Hahas!

Helloz!! Eh I bought the freaking shimmery eye stick already...It's NOT an eyeliner!! Like total WTF?? ARGH! Waste my $4 leh... Somehow or rather the printings on the thing was kinda faded... Has it been used before?? Ugh... Whatever... Hahas! It was nice uh... But not like what I wanted... SO yea there won't be any pictures of the black vs white eyeliner...[Sorry diyana..XD] Maybe next time la...Coz I plan to buy this white liquid eyeliner but it costs $15.90!! Damn it so ex..-.-... Nevermind...As long as it'll make me look good...I'LL BUY IT! Haha! I also have to buy my mum this Silkygirl lipstick she asked for... which costs $7.90... And my 2nd gift for her...Is a good result for my Malay 'O' Levels... The second on is a lil' bit difficult yea... But for the sake of making my mum happy, I'll do my very best! Hahas! Yesterday we atually waited 1 hour late for that girl to come with the shimmery eye stick! We were freakin' pissed off! I was pissed off coz the MRT station was hot and I was sweating! IsH! Had fun window-shopping yesterday...! Hehes! I hate the Fila sale! So crowded! Anyways I don't like buying sports related items... Hehes... OH! My sis curled my hair yesterday! I LOVED IT! I am SO perming my hair sumwhere around next year! ^^

Today, there was no PE in school... Waste time only wear PE..-.-... Found my malay file already!!! YAY! Haha! Heaqal helped to find it... [I just noe the name...I dunno the person..XD] Thanks alot niwaes! Hahas! And I suddenly realised that... MR ANG K S IS MY NEW FAVOURITE TEACHER!! Hahaha! the difference between him and Mr Ang K K is like 1% only uh... Hahas! Though Mr Ang K S is not funny... [Haha!] He is VERY caring towards me! Hahas! And seriously I LOVE the wa he teach! Somehow or rather...I ALWAYS UNDERSTAND! Hahas! You rawkz Mr Ang K S! LoL-ness!

And today in school, I really feel guilty towards Diyana... Hmms... I mean... There's nothing happening between me and 'him' yet... But the nightmares are already coming true... I'm like TOTALLY destroying their friendship... He's like TOTALLY on my side all the time...And she's the one who always gets scolded... I didn't even tell him to scold her... And I'm REALLLLLYYYYY sorry Diyana... I didn't know he would scold you just coz of me... Okay now I know... So yea I will shut my mouth up okies? Hahas! And Diy...Thanks so much for that 'news'... You really made me the happiest living thing on earth for the day... Hehes! But wrong timing... Coz after that was Chem test...-.-... Shoot I am SO doing badly for it... Oh well... There's always a next time! Like OMG! I got a B3 for my Physics test! YAY! Hahas! As I said...I dun really care about Chem... Haha!

Apart from all this craps... I've realised that my friendship between Maizurah, Ain, Vyan, Yi Han, Sharon and Pui Ann are getting better somehow or rather... Syafiqah no problem uh...We've never had any problems! Haha! Especially with Maizurah... Somehow or rather... The times we had during lower sec is coming back... I guess being EMO does suck... Coz all I do is think negative and make me hate my friends even more... Now I'm a cheerful person and I ALWAYS think positive! Hahas! Yay me! Oh Oh! I went to the school library to complete my SS assignment just now, and after that me & Maizurah check out some of the school magazines from other school...Saw some of our old friends... Or rather...Schoolmates... I saw SHI CHANG!!! Hahas! When he was sec 1... Face haven't change yet... Haha! Now look different leh... Hahas! How ever he looks like... He's always my bestest ever best friend! Hehes! I also saw that someone from my past... Hahas! When he was sec 1... Aww...So innocent! Haha! I guess people really change...-.-... I guess that's all! Bubbyes! Stay happy!! Hahas! What the...-.-

I Sayang My Fiqry Can? hehes!
SAYYAAANNNGG BABY FIQRY!! ^^

I actually don't look fat with curly hair! ^^
My mum said I look better with curly hair...
I'm not sure about that though...Hahas! I love my straight hair too!

Can't really see the curls... My hair too thick...
So it didn't turn out quite well...
Oh well it's still nice! Thanks Along!! Love u! ^^

Aku SAYYYANNGGGG blog aku la!!! ^^

Omg...I so love this blogskin! Hehe! So purple!! Not my favourite colour yea...Don't get any ideas... It's so...LOVEly! Hahas! Ok2 I guess that's all for today! I'll stop blogging for the week! Bye2!

Whoopeee!!! It's my 200th post! Hahas! Cool aye? In less than 5 months I have another 100 post! Coolness! My weekend is complete since I get to chat with YOU and my blog has 200 posts! Wheee~! Hahas! More to the ferst one... Haha! Coz I wanna chat with 'you' once a week at least... Coz I wanna have wonderful dreams during my weekend break! Riighhtt.... Haha! I just wanna smile on my weekends la... Since weekdays I usually don't smile at home since I'm too stressed... Sheesh..! I've emailed Mr Ang... So the plan now is... Use comp until 8.15, den do homework until I sleep! Hahas! But I'll be using this time to change my blogskin though... Made new friends today... Argh! The shirt I wanted is not for sale any longer!!! SO disappointed sia! Hmph! Nevermind... On the bright side I'll be saving $18... Hahas! Oh well better start finding gorgeous blogskins!

P.S. Check out this video 'Ken Lee' at YouTube...This confident lady singing anyhow only... And gosh...Her look! O.O... Hahas! Kinda funny actually! Do check it out aites? ^^

Damn it sia! Come school just to waste my time! I'm freaking pissed off with the A-maths remedial right now! Irritating much? Came to school at 4.15 pm and there was no A-maths class...The level one classes were only filled with CCAs...ARGH! Waste my time! I better not get a ZERO for my attendance ar! I came what! There was no class...And they kept on changing the location...WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? Run up and down the staircases and hallways just to find the class?? Dream on la! Called for Mr Ang, he also not in... Really irritated right now! I don't even see any of the students that need to attend the bloody thing! Wanna scold me coz I skip??? GO AHEAD! I can answer back 10 times what you scold me! Nonsense sak.... BINGITZ-A-LOT!! Sheesh! Ok whatever with that crap... I am SO email-ing Mr Ang about this! Outrageous seh! Every week also like this ar? -.-...

Niwaes...No shopping today...Actually got leh... Juz now I chat with Fanglin...The owner of this blogshop... Like she's from Nanyang High...WAHH!!! Clever much! Still can deny that she's clever...O.o... Riiighhhttt.... She was friendly... I ordered the white shimmery eyeliner already!!! $4 only mah... So this Sunday going to interchange at 2.30 pm to get the thing... And also pay for it... Can't wait to use it! Hahas! Coz I learnt from CLEO how to wear white eyeliner, then wear the black one...Like SO NICE! So I wanna try it! Ok uh...Cannot online so long now...I'll be back at night...Maybe 10 pm... I want to complete 4 homeworks today... Nooooo I'm not EXCITED to do my homework...I HAVE 13 HOMEWORKS TO COMPLETE! To finish all that in one day is INSANE! So yea I'm doing 4 today, 5 tomorrow, 4 on Sunday... So...BYE2!!!

P.S. LOBSTER SUSHI IS FREAKING NICE!!! You can find that at the neighbourhood shops near the Prime Supermarket at Tampines Central... Should try leh! ^^

Look who's back??! ME! hahas! I went blogshopping just now... Actually more to browsing...I'm SO in love with this $4 white shimmery eyeliner! SO buying that! YAY! Hahas! That would be this week's shopping list... Since I don't have much $$... Hahas! So tomorrow after school don't have to go to Interchange... I also changed my friendster song just now...Hate That I Love You... OMG I SO love that song! Especially the part when Rihanna sang... Must Everything You Do Make Me Wanna Smile...? Can I Not Like You For A While...No...Like I SO love it! Haha! So true like that... Every thing he does makes me wanna smile...! That's what you call in love i guess... Haha! Actually I loved that song since like the day it was played on MTV? Hahas!

And I suddenly wanna change my blogskin...Since you've already know that I like you...But couldn't find a suitable one and too troublesome uh... Hahas! So sticking to this one first... Maybe tomorrow...Damn my back is aching sitting on a stool for sooo long using the comp...Ish... If using my laptop, I can lie down on the bed seyh! haha! Oh well I guess I really gtg now! Bubbyes! I tell you guys...Blogshopping is simply THE best! Haha! Ala...Anything that has the word 'shopping' is great! haha! Shopping maniac...XD

P.S. Guy using shawls...ARE BIG TIME GAYS! And to make it worse...They have facial hair! EEEK!!! DISGRACE TO FASHION! NOT HOT! How unfortunate we always find these kind of people under the fashion industries! OMG!!! They should know better! The clothes they wear will only look hot on ladies!!

Finally it's THURSDAY! I know most of you will be like...What?? It's thursday hello...Not Friday... Friday is FRIGHTday for me...-.-... I go home at 6 pm! Total what the TOOT... I have A-maths remedial...Heard from Amirah there won't be Malay remedial...THANK GOD!

Received my geog test result just now...I failed with falling colours? Hahas! Time constrain la! He never mark my 2nd question!! Ferst question I pass...Irritating sia...Nevermind...As long as I no need go geog remedial! ^^... I've had ENOUGH remedials! I also received my E-maths test just now..I passed!!! I got 17.5/25!!! No need go e-maths remedial!! YAY!! Haha!

Bored la... I online also coz my mum told me to! Haha! I know...Weird...LOL! She told me to try out the internet on her computer..So yea... I got nothing to say oso...Blablabla... School was okay la today...Didn't suck totally... Wanted to go to the gym with my mum...But to think again...I'd be like spending another $1.50! I have not enough money to go shopping tomorrow! NOOO!! All thanks to addiction with bubble tea! And I'm having this habit of saying...Righhhhttttt.... Hahaha! I irritate alot of ppl with that! haha! Ok la! Seriously i'm talking trash! BYE2!!!!

Whee~! Yesterday was so FUN!!! I went to the gym with Maizurah to work out and also get our minds of studies for a while...! Saw Mr Lim, east view primary teacher...He taught me when I was primary 2... Gotta type very fast! Mum's coming home soon! Ish! My arms are quite painful now... Not so la... Did more leg exercise!

I was damn tired this morning...Urgh... Felt like not going to school! School is super dead today! To me that is...Haha! I kept on yawning! My eyes were like closing everytime and I was like forcing my eyes to open up! Haha! Heard from Mdm Fara, Zuraisha won't be joining 4E3...Oh well... If she joins us...She'll suffer coz there's so much to catch up in studies! There was listening compre just now... Total whatever-the-ness... I had to skip Chemistry remedial today, since I have an exam in during tuition...Gosh I just got 9/34...KIRIN!!!! DAMN ME!!! Haha! Well like Kak Zainab said...I should start revising and stop day-dreaming...! Well that's what I'm doing!

It rained heavily right yesterday? I was soaking wet when I got home! Haha! Before that went to KFC with Ain and Maizurah...I didn't eat anything... ADDICTED TO SUPER CHOCOLATE!!! Hahas! Ok2...I guess that's all... Homework time...NOOOO...!!! Hahas! OK la! BYE2!!!

OH OH! CHECK OUT THAT 'SHOPPPPPIING!!' LINK! Oh for galz by the way! Hahas! GORGEOUS BLOUSES, CARDIGANS, DRESSES etc.!!! But the dresses sexy la...Sorry la hor malays... Whehehe... Unless you don't mind showing off your body and rather be SINFUL just to look hot...-.-... Oh no...Not referring to anybody... LoL! Just check it out la for the shoppaholics! LIKE MUA! Hahas! I'm in love with one shirt already... $18...This week's allowance la... I don't want the LPZ cardigan nimore... Hahas... Oooh can't wait! Oh by the way, THANKS AMELIA FOR THE LINK!! ^^

AHHH!!! MY SIS BOUGHT ME A BRAND NEW PINK MP3!!! That looks like iPod shuffle!! Hahas! Cool~!!! Haha! And I happen to misplace my Creative Zen MP4 player...sheesh...Its ok...Now I have 2!! Haha! If I found my MP4 player that is... I was so enlightened after such a draggy day in school today! Wheee~! Haha! I drank 2 ice blends in just one day? Haha! I know I sound horrible! Hahah! And only got one homework to complete!!! YAY!! Hahas! Ooh ya Death Note2 was quite a good show...I only hate the fact that it is so confusing!! -.-... Thanks to my bro I understood the story... Nothing much to say leh! Just thatI had fun playing basketball with Ain, Sharon, Amirah and Fatin just now during PE...Even though it was tiring and I dunno why my shoulders were very tired just now... Chemistry lesson was interesting... But I still don't enjoy Chemistry lesson la...I HATE CHEMISTRY! Like OMG.....-.-... Ok2...Nothing more to say! BYE!!

OH2!! That day I had this nightmare...My mum forced me to marry my ex...Like O.O... And I was like begging her not to force me! Haha! It used to be a beautiful dream 2 years ago when I love him...Hahah! Now it's a nightmare! LOL! Maybe coz I like someone else already... BUT it's like so IMPOSSIBLE for me to dream about him! -.-... Nevermind..Day-dream oso can! Hahah! Kk bye!

Hellooo...Ya like WHY am I online, blogging? [Not online on MSN thou...] Using my sis laptop actually... So, can't stay long! She said she's bringing me to eat at a sushi restaurant! YAY!!! I am SO finding Tuna Sashimi! Hehe... I went to TPJC webbie just now...See the subject combination... Wow...! Didn't know it was so difficult to go JC! -.-... In case you all wanna see for yourselves...http://tampinesjc.net/Academic/index.htm ... I wanna go to the Science Course... Code S4... The subjects are... Physics, Mathematic and Computing [I dunno what the heck is this, but after reading about it...seems interesting... XD] for the H2 subjects and, Geography for the H1 subject...The compulsory subjects are... GP, mother tongue, project work... Mother tongue is a total bleargh! Coz it's HIGHER MOTHER TONGUE! I already HATE the normal mother tongue...Oh well...Only 2 years... Sounds okay but I'm scared about the computing coz err...I don't even take that in secondary school! I don't wanna be forced to take CHEMISTRY!! NEVER EVER!

I hate chemistry...! >.<...I can still tolerate with mother tongue ar...Chemistry never sia... I want Arts course..But can dream on la wanna join...I don't take literature [don't even want to!]... So what's the goal for my 'O' Levels now...

At least C6 for A-maths...{A2}
At least C6 for Physics[Pure]...{A2}
A1/2 for Malay...{A1}
At least B4 for English...{A2}
At least C6 for Chemistry[Pure]...Don't really care...XD{B4}
At least A2 for my combined Humans...{A2}
At least A2 for E-maths...{A2}
L1R5...11...

So what does this means?? STUDY HARD!! Hahas! Oh yea! I looked at the CCA... One of the teachers in rock climbing is PE teacher...Sheesh...I must do well for my NAPHA too starting from next year! Hahas! But but but... There's an ART CLUB! And I read about it... WOW!!! Got fashion designing!! Alamak... Dilemma? -.-.... Hahas! Fashion designing... Hobby & Passion... Rock climbing...Childhood dream CCA!!! See first la... Still so long... And CCA is so not the main topic right now... Oh yea!!! The mask I talked about yesterday...Oooh SO GREAT!! It totally made my face super soft after washing my face...And I realise...I do look a little... Fair...Or is it? Haha! Dunno la but it does makes my face feels refresh! Ok2...I need to go and stud already! Bye bye bye!! I was so happy before I slept that I even laughed when I was sleeping...-.-...LOL!

Yo! Hey I guess I can't really carry out my 'vow' about not being able to be online AT ALL! C'mon...That's CRAZY! I need a break! LoL! So Friday is my Girl's Night Out...Haha! Today, I went shopping alone for the very first time...I tell you...It rulez! Hahas! Totally free from people's comments on the things you wanna buy! Haha! I am SO doing it again! Hehe! So what did I buy... MYUK Psychedelic pencil case, 2 presents for 2 friends, Whitening Mask, Werther's Original, 2 sushis, 2 wadehs... Ok now I'm like watching Indonesian Idol audition...DAMN FUNNY! Hahaha! Just now this guy sang Numb by Linkin Park...It sound like "Ikan itam, I become itam"...HAHAHA! And he was dancing like dangdut like that! HAHA! What's the meaning of THAT!? Hahah! Ikan itam means...black fish! Hahaha!

I have dark circles below my eyes...Not good...Sheesh...Well not enough sleep...Oh well...No choice...Can't really stay long...I wanna sleep early today...And wear the mask I bought just now! Hehes! It is for instant whitening, hydrating and revitalizing! $1 only... Next week save money sumore...Unfortunately no shopping day... Coz I need $23 for that new LPZ cardigan! 2 weeks' allowance! Oh well...Worth saving! ^^ Damn I'm a shopping freak! Haha! Anyways, just now in school, there was Malay oral for Mid-year exams... Damn...I am so gonna get a just pass grade! Haiz... Mr Razib gave me SO MANY PROMPTS! I didn't even ASK for them! I was like answering a question and he kept on asking me questions! Like he's engaged with what I was saying... Excuse me Cikgu... Can you like give me a CHANCE to TALK!??? Haha! Well it wasn't as stressful as last year...Mr Razib was friendly! Hahas! I was kinda disappointed with my reading though...Haiz... After that went to drink bubble tea with Nadz and Mai... They went home and I went to A-maths remedial...

Thought of skipping but to think again...I don't gain anything... Hehe! There was nobody in the class sia! So I met Mr Ang and he helped me find the class...Thanks Mr Ang! ^^ The class was totally nonsense ar... Just did a worksheet... I didn't have the time to complete 2 more questions... We revised logarithm... That's what I did during tuition too...What a coincidence...Haha! Kinda improved in my logarithm I think... Oh well who cares...Went home, actually wanted to go shopping with my mum...Since my aunt, grandma and cousin came, the plan had to be changed... So I went alone... I had doubts coz never went shopping alone before...Thought it was boring but it was indeed fun! Hahas! SOMETHING made me rush home...Oh well that something can be done now...But there's somethign wrong...Busy...Hahas! Ok la! Nevermind! I wanna sleep early today! BYE!!! ^^

P.S. Only the bad part about this day is... so many times saw that person's face...Sheesh...! I mean if the OTHER person was there too...It's better la..LOL! Neutralise abit my feelings! Haha! This one he alone...Ugh...Nevermind...Less than a year left before I get out from that school! And I'll NEVER see that FACE again! Hrmms...Like that I also cannot see the other person's face nimore leh... I will never know...Haha!

Today was a long day indeed! Ish... Kinda tired...But yea...Too bad for me no chlling time... Hrmms...This one I blog also coz I've just finished my Iconnexion assignment...Only A-maths... Maizurah's very late so I couldn't wait any longer! Hahas! She said 8 pm!!! I couldn't be late! I was here around 7.30... Ok whatever... Independent! Haha! I did the assignment myself! LOL!

School's kinda boring today... [Since when it is not? XD] Mdm Irni didn't come to school today, and during Malay class...We got this heck-care teacher...LOL...So yea we did whatever we want...And me and Farah simply MISSES EACH OTHER SOOOOO MUCH! Hahas! I mean...We always meet during Malay Dance...And oh yea it feel so great to gossip! LoL! Actaully it's more to our personal feelings and all...Not about bitchin' bout otha people...Hahas! But today, the way we speak...Gosh...we sound like some kpo aunties! Hahas! Saying some words together in such an 'over' expression! Hahas! I miss Farah! LoL! We always have our 1 minute talk time before Mdm Irni comes to class...Hahas! So yea... 3 minutes a week! haha! English lesson...Must present the description thingy...Ish hate presenting...But I didn't hear people saying...CANNOT HEAR!...haha! That's what I ALWAYS hear when I was in primary school! LoL! My voice was super soft I guess! LoL!

During Chem remedial...There was this lame role play on electrolysis...GAWD! haha! SUPER LAME! I was laughing due to the lameness of the thing...HAHA! Thank God, Miss Zaleha is my teacher and not her! Haha! The remedial ended around 4.05pm...I had to really rush to my tuition centre...10 minutes only seyh...And I was first to arrive? Yay? hahas! There was test..-.-...I failed with falling colours! LOL! On logarithm...I just forgot the formulaes....After Mr Tok gave me the formulaes I knew how to do already... C'mon! There's like TONS of NEW formulaes to remember...-.-....GIMME A BREAK! Seriously today...My vision is VERY BLUR! I was presenting the english thingy...I was so close to the screen, yet I couldn't see clearly! WhAt???! Hahas! Not enough rest...Oh well...Just have to bear with it! TOMORROW MALAY ORAL!! DIE! DIE! DIE!!!!! No practice and suddenly...JENG.JENG.JENG!!! MALAY ORAL...STUDENTS!!! -.-... Thanks for the LAST MINUTE info? -.-.... That's all! Tomorrow also got Chem Quiz...My friend ask me to study leh... Hahas! That's the ONLY friend who told me to do that...haha! Ok ok I will...LOL! BYE2!!

P.S....You just NEVER fail to make my day! ^^

DAMN IT I JUST HAVE TO BLOG ABOUT THIS ONE TOO! hahas! Okay just now was the Chem 'O' Level SPA! ARGGHHHH!!!! I'm gonna do badly for it! I didn't say I'm gonna fail...Though I did tell my friends that! Haha! I was just too stressed! The stomach ache and the urge to pee...SO wasn't helping! Oh OH! One more shit...THE ROOM WAS DAMN HOT AT THE BACK! Sheesh! I was sweating and urgently needed the toilet! ARGHH! I felt like screaming my lungs out just now! The whole thing was difficult! I DON'T KNOW THE ANOTHER PROPERTY OF THE ANION!!! >.<>

I totally blew it! The test for carbon dioxide...I DIDN'T GET IT! >.<...That was where Mr Ng helped! Hehe! If not sure die leh... VA was quite okay...The acid I said...Was Nitric acid...At first I put Hydrochloric acid...But I cancelled the answer! I don't know I felt something was wrong...Haha! Majority says that's the acid! Haha! YAY! After the whole thing I was like asking around for people's answer...Haha! and Ain, Maizurah and Syafiqah was like...Forget about it Kirin!! And was like pulling me to go...Haha! Ok I was treated like a crazy person... Which was a fact...Seriously... Hahas! I was more crazy when I'm back at home...-.-... Well I've chilled now... Thanks again to blogging! Hehe! Still got Chem and Physics test to stress about...Sheesh...Ok E-maths test just now...Managable... I couldn't be bothered about that since my mind was only on Chemistry SPA...haha!

P.S. Thanks for the wish Natty! I reli appreciate it! ^^ Oh and also to my group of friends...Syafiqah, Maizurah, Yi Han, Vyvyan, Sharon and Ain for the moral support and telling me some of the stuffs that I really needed for the test! Heartx you guys! Hahas!

Move on Kirin...MOVE ON!!! Haiyoh...Am I still stuck with the past haunting me? I mean... I am so called in love...But but but... I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE! Coz coz...I scared of heartbreaks!! LOL! Oh ya! My brother agreed to go to the gym with me once every week! YAY! Hahas! And I have a new bridal gown design in my head! Red and white is gorgeous I tell you! Hahas! So I'm drawing that tomorrow after all tests over...WHO AM I KIDDING!!?? Friday there's Physics test! Shoot! Hahas! And WHY am I online? Oh right! MR ANG NEVER PUT UP THE ANSWERS FOR E-MATHS TEST 2!! HOW TO DO CORRECTIONS!??!! And I am SO stuck at these questions!! DAMN IT! =X
Hahas! OK la! Bye2!!

Ahh! I just HAVE to blog about this! Damn it seyh! My mock xams are drawing near! Tested on sec 3-4 chapters! Well guess what does this means? NO MORE BLOGGING!! OR CHATTING!! And that is gonna be A HUGE VOW that I'm gonna make...I have less than 10 weeks to my Malay 'O' Levels! Tomorrow is already the Chem 'O' Level SPA! ArghH!!! On the 15th May...It's the Chem mock exam... Week 10 there will be Physics mock test... So the plan here is... STUDY UNTIL MY BRAIN SHUTS DOWN! Hahas! Nahh just kidding...

Friday won't be chatting and blogging day anymore...It'll be my stress-relieving day...Which is also called...Shopping day!! Hahas! Monday, Wednesday, Saturday..Would be science day...Which means I'll be doing a whole topic of Chemistry TYS in an hour and also before that I'll have to make my notes first...Same goes for Physics... Tuesday, Thursday, Sunday is Maths day....So yea practice my maths... Humanities eh...? Hmm...Friday la I guess...No choice already! Haha! And I'll memories 10 peribahsa per day so by the time it's the 26th of May, I'd be ready for my Malay 'O' Levels... Might do some other extras preparations for the exams too... So I have no time for relaxing and chilling I tell you! So yea...I guess it's goodbye for all of us...DAMN! My blog will be considered dead later... Well I'm pretty sure you readers out there understand the situation I'm facing right now... I barely have time to think about crushes either! Kwang3!! LOL! Ok I definitely have no time to think about THAT! Coz all it does is make me lose focus in studies...-.-...[Oh gosh...These people cutting the trees near my house are so freakin annoying and noisy! >.<]

Oh yes! I passed my 2.4 km run! Whee~! Well I get a bronze...Sucks... Sheesh...Oh speaking of which! I am also planning to go to the gym once a week...Hopefully, if I have the time... I need to lose some weights seriously... This diet I'm having is helping but not that much... Only lose 1 kg so far...Hahas! I must have a good body shape by the end of my 'O' Levels...One is bacause I want to look GREAT in my prom gown...Secondly, I want to keep in my best shape so when I join rock climbing in JC...I'd be one of the best rock climbers! Hahas!...And also get good results at the same time! I just have TOO MANY goals to accomplish! But I'm working on them la...Not just lazying around and hope...Ish...! I'll end up being a loser! Ok2 took too much time already! I should be studying for my e-maths test and my chem SPA...Sheesh...Bubbyes! Take care bloogers and readers! Hahas!

I'm Gonna Miss All Of YOUUU...And ESPECIALLY... MY BLOG!!! >.<

Oh well...I guess some sacrifices have to be made in order to achieve our dreams huh? Hahas! Blogging isn't that important anyways...I can just write in my diary...Hehe...So long my friends!

By the way...I am SO addicted to this song! Which is If I Ain't Got You...Hahas! Maybe I want to sing it during Tampines Idol? Hahas! See first...I might be too busy to even enter the damn contest...Hahas! Ok la! BYE! XD

YAY! I've went shopping! Hehes! At the pasar malam near my house... I bought the watch that I've always wanted already! YAY!!! Hahas! I also bought this ear piece for my MP4... Too bad the MP4 is gone! I don't even KNOW where it is! Hish... Nevermind...Buy for future needs...! Hahas! I'm sick of listening to the oh-so-little-songs in my handphone! It costs $8.90 by the way! Hahas! Can be considered cheap...Coz I like those kind of ear pieces...! And the watch is $8... I wanted a digital watch...But it costs $2 extra...Sheesh... Ok now I'm kinda broke... Yay? Hahas! Nah...Next week don't eat in school whole week... It means no meals after school with friends too! And friday...It's time to let it all out again! BUY THE PENCIL CASE! YAY! Hahas! And now I'm stressed over some shit...Hahas! Don't wanna talk about it...I mean it's the thought that counts right..? XD
I AM broke...What to do..? XD

P.S....Am I still serious about this whole thing...I mean...I've been too excited and all...And suddenly the feeling fades away...And I don't even have a reason for that and I'm not even sad about it... Oh well... I guess I'm getting a sign that I should only care about my 'O' Levels now...Hehe! Well good for me! Too stress to think about anything else...So yea! I'm ME again! Hahas! Not that blardy day-dreamer! Haha!

So here I am blogging...and NOT chatting! Hehe! Just carrying out my vow...Ish...The URGE to chat! What the hell... Homework done...Oh wait! Physics TYS...Damn...I have 1 hour to complete each topic and I have 3 topics to complete...Train my timing I guess...Hahas! After that, the extra time...Do some notes for my Chemistry sec 3 work...Only after I go to the shop! To buy myself a watch! Yay! Hahas! Since yesterday I didn't buy a THING for myself! Sheesh... And Muhammad Fiqry keeps on crying! But when I sang to him, he stops crying! Hahas! Coool~! Hahas! I actually have enough money to buy myself this new pencil case! But I can't go interchange today! Damn! Nevermind...Next friday..Hope not sold out leh... It's from wallet shop... You know today I'm so damn crazy...Coz I keep smiling for no reason [Actually there is but again...Who cares! Hahas!] And I just scolded my neighbour for turning on his radio SO LOUD and playing such an old school song! What the hell!? Inconsiderate! Eh! I gotta go la! Bye!

P.S....I'm so sorry readers for being so vulgar these few days...I'm just kinda pissed off...See? This post no more vulgarities! Hahas! And there won't be anymore for the subsequent posts! Once again, I'm really sorry for my language...

Okay let's make this a short post! Coz I'm like SO breaking the vow here...I'm online! Wad the hell... I should be studying but I went out to shop until 10 p.m...With my mum! Whee~! Hahas! I told ya I'm going shopping today! To my horror, the bazaar at interchange has closed down...WHAT!? Urgh...I planned to buy something from there..Oh well...Saw Fong Ee...But didn't think she saw me coz we were quite far away from each other...I also saw...Naqiah from Malay Dance...I'm not sure about the spelling of the name, but that's her name alright! Hahas!

Went out at about 5++...Since I was FREAKING BORED at home! Hahas! My uncle came with his family...AZURAH!!! Hahas! Love that little KPO girl! Hahas! Kpo doesn't busybody about people's personal life btw...-.-... Hahas! I know that was MEAN! Hahas! I bought the frame for my sis already..And I've decorated it! And fell in love with it too! Haha! Okay 8 more minutes left before this laptop shuts down by itself! I also went around finding babies clothes for Fiqry...My mum wanted to buy some for him..We found 4 pieces at BHG...Had our dinner at CS food court...Sweet TAlk sucks by the way...They say, Milk shake and Ice blend is the same! What the hell? So why is there a difference in the name then? Dumb ass...Instead...They were like raising their boices when talking to me and my mum...Seriously felt like slapping those Chinac women faces! Idiotic asses! In the bus, this man suddenly call me and point on my mother's head...I SAW A BIG BLUE BUG!! ARGHHH!! Ok I just HAD to shriek in the bus! Haha! HELLO!!! The thing was so close to me! I wanted to shoo it from my mum's head but as my hand went over my mum's head, I quickly wipe my hand! Haha! I was disgusted and frightened! Damn I HATE BUGS! My mum was panicking! Haha! Ok that's all! BYE!

Argh! I feel so bloody-hell-fuckin'-shitty-can't-get-my-mind-off-you right now! How can I even study without smilin to myself...I'm like some crazy ass smiling to myself... When I know in my heart... I'M DAMN BORED! Don't mind me and my language... I suddenly become so vulgar coz of some people that just can't get their busy asses off people's life! I'm not pointing fingers to anybody... Coz you should know well who you are babies! ^^ Lalala...I'm fuckin' bored and looking out for someone to strangle...ARGH! It has been so long since I beat up somebody... Haish... When will I EVER get to beat people up again... Hahas! Don't be scared...Unless you have done something seriously wrong towards me! ^^ I'm bored and I love Fiqry! Hehe! I just carried him just now... It feels so damn good! Hope he doesn't grow up to be a mischievious lil' boy! Damn! I'm starting to sneeze again! Hmms...Ok la! I guess I'd better get going! Adios!! ^^

Hmm...I got a freaking painful stomach ache for no reason...body aches...It's a confirm I am going to have something on with my health system! Argh... Damn it... Oooh! This morning I realised I was smiling when I woke up! Hehe! Did I have the best dream or WHAT!? Hahas! SO yea I did some weird things that I never actually thought I'd do in this life...But think again... It's nothing wrong to be friends... And for some bastards and idiotic shits... If you guys are still so busybody about my life... Just shut up... It's not that he's my boyfriend or something...-.-... We're barely friends hello... Tch...! And I guess you simply don't understand ENGLISH...Since I've mentioned so many times I'm not prepared for ANY relationship... And that my 'O' Levels is the most important thing in my life right now! So just SHUT THE F UP and MIND YOUR OWN BLOODY BUSINESS! -.-... Is it like so difficult to fall in love without anyone bothering about it?? SHEESH! Get a life!

So today, it's the start of a life changing shit...I wanna change my life style...So what I'm gonna do is study today... Also study some things that is out of the school syllabus...More to life and death? hahas! OK whatever... Before all that... I MISS SHOPPING!!! Save money, save money....I BARELY SPENT ANYTHING ON ME!!! >.<...So...I'm going out with my mum later to spend some cash...On people...Ish... Oh well I'm gonna buy a frame for Fiqry...There's also clay for his baby foot and hand! Aww...So cute! Hahas! So when he grows up, he'll know how CUTE he is! Hehe! Urm...I guess I gotta go now! Since it's Saturday I can't be online...*SOBX*! Hahas! So yea... Chat with you guys next friday! I'm only here to BLOG! Hehe! Bubbye! And reprimand those kpo arses...
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Look who's STILL online!? ME! What the hell...I know I should be studying...Thanks to Diyana...Anyways, Aiha is also online already... And me... I'm STONED here! What the...what?! Haha! This is my 181th post surprisingly! 4th post of the day! Yay! Hahas! Never post so much on a boring day before... Anyways, look at the time almost 11...Got to go! BYE! Hahas... Later I have no time to study...

My dreams came true in an instant...I can finally smile again... ^^

P.S...I'm too lost in you...=)

It's a blardy weekend and here i am...MOANING coz I'm DEAD BORED...And what the hell 3rd post in less than 6 hours...Argh...My emotions keeps on changing! I keep on falling iiiinnnnnn and out...With You...Sometimes I LOVE ya'...Sometimes you make me blue...Sometimes I feel good...At times I feel used...Lovin' you darlin'...Makes me so confuse...

Freakin' love that song! Hahas! Ok for now...Since it is so right! Hahas I don't know why...freaking bored makes me freaking crazy...So I had nothing better to do, went to google, search for my blog...LOL! Then come out this title..'What Happened To Us?'...Err...Who's the 'Us'? Haha! I seriously forgot...EH! I finally remember what I should do now! Revise my work! Mid-year coming up la sia! Ahhh! My science still SUCKS! Not good...For now, sorry dude, I guess I have to cancel my plan to make friends with ya! Well I will carry out that plan A.S.A.P! Hahas! Ok2...I'd better start studying already! Lets start with Chemistry! But first..I have to off this PC...Hmm...So sad tomorrow cannot online coz made a vow oredy...AIHA!! Why never online today!? You KNOW I can't be online on Saturdays and Sundays! Argh! And I still want that limited edition UNO card! Just tell your friend to buy for you first la seyh! >.<...

Ahhh!! I wanna be your friend! I wanna know more about you! I think I have the courage to approach you online...But I don't know...I JUST CAN'T DO IT!! You don't how NERVOUS I AM! Ok ok...How do I do this...Hello! So...How was the test just now?....AHAHAHAHA! Ok seriously...This is going NOWHERE! Hahas! I'm actually smiling while typing all tis craps...Haha! Well...It's not easy ok!? The last time I did this was in 2006!!! That is 2 years back! I've lost touch of my SARDINENESS! In other words...The 'I-don't-care-what-I'm-doing' side of me! Haha! Ok Kirin...Don't think too far off...Just think that...I'm being friendly, THAT'S ALL! Haha! So if I'm ignored...I'll just close that conversation! Hahaha! Set! But see when that person online first leh...Hahas! OK la! Gotta go! I might blog again later! Haha! Bye2!!

Heys...And here I am..Still confused about the same ol' shit...Should I believe these people about what they say about him?...Are they just saying these to play with my feelings?...Whatever reason it is... I don't care... I don't believe anyone else in this world except my family members... Imagine, what if I happen to fall deeply in love and put all my hopes on that person...And one day...I found out all this while these people have been lying to me... It is going to hurt... But that won't happen coz now my mind is 90% on studies...Nah...Not 100%...My life would be so boring then... And I'm having doubts about having a relationsip after my O's... I'm like totally afraid of heartbreaks now...If I'm broken hearted again one day...And I'm sure if it's by this person... I'd take more than a year to be happy again... I will so do badly for my 'A' Levels... That is SO not good... Coz I can just dream on to go SMU then... See?? I really think my future is more important... WAYYY more important... And these people around me...So fucking busybody...Just makes me want to forget that I like him...-.-...Like hello...I don't give a shit about your lives...Can you fuck out of my life? It's totally my fucking problem who I like... And like I don't even care if he has the same feelings towards me or not...Why should YOU bother right? Can you guys just STAY OUT of this?? ARGH! I hate these people! I swear I do!

Just now there were 2 tests...I think I'm gonna fail my A-maths test...And the Malay test is like SO difficult...Sheesh...But still got hope to pass ar...The class was so damn noisy just now...The sec 5s are just so noisy and rude...-.-... I finished early so I left after checking my work...Then went to have my lunch with Maizurah at KFC... Damn full right now...Hehs... I wasn't really emo in school just now... I laughed quite alot especially during English lesson...Only one conversation can make me laugh that much... Hahas! Me, Sharon and Maizurah were like so dirty-minded! Haha! Naughty naughty! XD

So what's my plan after getting my 'O' Level results...? I want to change my handphone number and not tell ANY of my secondary school friends...And also I want to change my email address! Without telling any of them too...I mean it...Forget me... Coz I really want to start a new life... I don't see the point of remembering people who are so busybody and some, always make me cry... I'll only give my number to those friends whom I REALLY treasure and don't wanna lose... And I'm sticking to that plan! Oh yea! And I'm changing my image too! So yea...None of you would recognise me...! ^^ Okies! I guess that's all! Gotta go now! Adios amigos!!! ^^

And here's my night post...I have nothing better to do is it? Of coz! Blgging is ALWAYS the most important! Hahas! There was chaos in my life just now and almost made me forget about my dreams! I cannot do it!! I can't! The feeling is too deep already... I knew all of these was coming up... That's why I only want it to happen 7 months later...Haiz... I don't wanna lose you like I lost him... I thought I've lost everything when I lost him...But after that feeling came back to me but towards you... I feel like I'm back to normal again...If I have to forget you...I'm that fuckin' emo kid who likes to keep to herself and all she does is cry every single day! And always have negative thoughts about EVERYTHING. I don't like to be that girl anymore... I hate to be an emokid... I feel so depressed for every reason.... And I can feel that I'm becoming emo again now... This is so wrong...

So tomorrow there's A-maths differentiation test...Like what the hell..I'm not prepared...So don't even hope to pass? And I still have my A-maths homework and physics worksheet to complete! So bye2! And I'm feeling all fucked up and stress ryte now...I am SO wonderin' HOW THE HELL to complete all those with my fuckin' pissed off mind..! And I also have a Malay Mock Test tomorrow...Ah what the hell with that...I'll slap my bloody face if I fail..-.-...

YAY! FINALLY! FOR GOD'S SAKE! I've finished my assignments! One problem....Cannot upload la! Darn! Eyh this is so not my problem ok? This is so the school's problem...Coz alot of my schoolmates and classmates facing the same problem...So why should I be stress about it? I spent the whole day using comp and BORE myself! How can that be happening? It can if we are doing assignments online...Sheesh...Boring much...I'd rather go to school! -.-.... Ok too much things happening today... The continuation of yesterday...Ish...Hahas I don't wanna talk about it la... ^^...Still happy about it though! Haha! Changed the song at my blog already....So the non-malay readers can understand...Or maybe this new song makes everyone don't understand the lyrics? Hahas! Since it's kinda noisy! I expect NO CRITICS about the song coz it's my FAVOURITE SONG!! Forever and always!!! Whee~! Hahas! The lyrics is at the top by the way...Can always refer there...I wanna go out la!! But I still got my offline homework...! Argh! Damn it! OK gotta go! Bye!!! \

Btw, I just placed another song but it doesn't play automatically...Hate That I Love You...My 2nd Favourite Non-Rock song! Hehe! Enjoys!

D A M N_I T...It spells...DAMN IT! When your plan is DESTROYED...You just HAVE to say Damn it! It was such a beautiful plan...But now it's ruined!!! The date is supposed to be 12th Of November!!! NOT NOW!!! NOT NOW!!! It's too early...Ok Kirin...Get ready to lose this one from your life too...Argh Damn! Ok and why did it happened today? It's like the whole day...My mind was on something else! Something in the past...DAMN! WHY!? WHY!? If YOU are reading this...It shows you that I am not ready for anything! So don't you get any ideas that I want a relationship! All I want now is a good 'O' Level cert ok? We don't have to elaborate on that ok... No questions asked! My future is important ok? Ahhh...Damn...I'm stressed..OVER THIS! -.-...I guess I've gotta go! Bubbye! ^^

P.S...To the person who knows that I already know that you know...It's not that I am angry that you know already...Neither will I hate you coz you've already knew it... Both of us are not ready... [Especially me...-.-....] But if you wanna be my friend....One condition...You have to take the first step! Ish! I don't dare sia! Hahaha! But after that, I'll gladly be your friend! ^^ That doesn't mean I'll be the same in reality by the way...-.-

As 'O' Level begins...STRESS GETS WORSE! Ok It began just now...Physics SPA...Practical Exam for those who don't know...Not JUST an exam...It's included in 'O' Levels! Ahhh!! And I found out a mistake I've made...Tsk...Tsk... L/cm against 1/I /A... I didn't really know which is supposed to be on the vertical ais and which on on the horizontal axis...MY ENGLISH SUCKS GET IT!? ARGH! So I put te L/cm on the horizontal axis and all my other friends place it on the vertical axis!! NOOOOO...!!! I forgot how many times I slapped my face after the test coz of that STUPID mistake! *sobx*! Oh well...I can't change anything now...To point regretting...But I have faith in my own work...Hehe...I must be good at one part of that experiment...At first, I set up the experiment wrongly! But I re-do the whole shit! Haha! Lucky got time! Haha! Got hope ar...Hahas! Hopefully...=S

Ok that's all I have to say...I just HAVE to blog...To release all the stress in me! Tanks to Iconnexion exercise day...Chem Practical 'O' Level is postponed! Ahhh...! So lucky! Haha! I am SO not prepared for that! Talk about Dooms Day! My chemistry sucks! Ahhh! Just now got NAPHA test...Yay! Sit & reach got A! Hehe! 47 cm...Last time cannot get one...My hand grew longer? Haha! Since my standing broad jump I only got a D...So dream on to get Gold...Hahas! My 2.4km...Ahhh! Next time I MUST get 17 minutes! Then I'll get Silver! Bronze is SO boring! And i JC...Expectations will be higher! Ah! Ok2 gotta go! BYE!