Oh wow...It's already the second week...I'm impressed that I survived...-.-... School seems so dull nowadays...Damn it luh... Hahas! And I better not make this post as dull as schooling!

Time-table changed! So go home early on Mondays again! Whee~! That's the good news...I told myself I couldn't run today coz I'm having my 'red light' [For Like The 2nd Time this month?? Like Hello??? O.o]...Like excused uh for P.E... I KNOW I can't run when I'm having it... But rugby seems just too fun to be missed! Haha! If soccer of coz I'll say I CAN'T RUN!! Haha! I hate soccer...-.-... I can't be too rough uh...But I totally ignored my condition just now... Hahas! It was VERY FUN to play rugby! Hahas! For the fact that it was a rough game! Hahas! And since we're girls...What did we do most? SCREAM!!! Hahahas! Then thee was once, I was one of the 'ball snatchers' hahas! And then like alot of people uh...With the ball in my hand, I dragged all of them along! Hahaha! MY TEAM WON!!! Go team...uhhh... In new P.E. t-shirt? Haha!

Got one part uh...We were snatching the ball uh about 5 of us...KATHLEEN was beside me and I know VERY well...That SHE knew that her elbow hit my 'you-know-what'...With a strong impact! Eh come on uh...I don't mind you know if you were to say sorry...! But this one, not even a sorry! What the f**k sia... OF COZ IT HURTS LA! As if not enough it hurts coz I'm having my menses...This girl go and add on to it! SheesH! Then go and hit Ain specs and she hurt her nose! Walao...Eh you think what? Competition...? Relax uh...Just P.E. what... Talk about UNcaring... Sheesh! Are you a GIRL? Be more gentle cannot uh? Sheesh... You watch out for next week I tell you...You are just LUCKY there wasn't much time left! Hmph!

Malay class...Lemmi see... Boring? Hahas! Is that even NEW? I don't think so...I was almost late this morning...I am SO lucky! I'm very very sorry Diyana! VERY sorry! Hahas! Thanks for waiting for me! Hahas! If I'm late just now, it'll be my first time! Like so cool, I've never been late this year! Hahaha! I'm ALWAYS late in the past! Haha! I know...I'm such a naughty girl... Haha! Nahh...I think more to lazy...LAZY to go to SCHOOL that is...Hahas!

Chemistry, we just stayed in class since the chem teachers didn't came... So me, Diyana, Shikin and Shu Jun talked! OK I had some fun there...We talked about ghost, but I contribute the least uh... Haha! Except for that ghost who asked me what was I doing at 2 a.m...o.o... I got to know about some ghostly facts about my school too...Oh well, I'm not spooked out though it's scary..But I don't have night class you see? Haha! That's why I don't care...Oh wait, I'm living SUPER CLOSE to a haunted school? I just realised that! Haha! For once, I thank God that I'm in performing arts group and not a student counciller! Hahas! Wait, I'm ALWAYS proud that I'm not a student counciller! Haha! Physics class...Did nothing but copied notes...-.-... So boring..And class so noisy...Haiyoh...How do they study in that condition every day sia...??

After school, I helped Diyana practice her Oral since hers is today... I hope Diyana, Maizurah, Farah, Sarita and Shikin did fine during the oral examinations... ^^... Then went home, I thought I was alone uh...But I wasn't, my brother was sleeping...Lucky he didn't hear me talking to my cat like a crazy girl... Haha! Then I was hungry since I ate just a freakin' small piece of 'cake' in school today... Then, there was no cooked food...Alamak... Hahas! So yea, COOKING TIME!! Of coz I just cooked fried maggi uh... I had fun cooking and eating! Hahaha! Watched tv, chill for a while, then I took a nap...Do you call 2 hour rest a nap? Haha! Or is that sleeping? LoL! Oh whatever... I have runny nose! Shoot! Thanks to my mum! And I'm STUPID ENOUGH to use her pillow...-.-... Hahas! I forgot la... Alermakz... And you know what else?? I realised whn I was back home from school, I realised that my fce became darker...! o.o... NOOOOO....! Damn it! Now I need to go Geylang A.S.A.P to buy my whitening mask I tell ya...This CANNOT go on! And pimples are like multiplying on my face! Damn it!! I hate having menses la seyh! I hate the symptoms! Then I realised why I was SOOOO sensitive last week! I cried twice a week! That means something's not right...And yea like I'e guessed it...-.-...

And my dad is like creeping me out for being TOO nice... Hahas! I'm usually called Syakirin or Adik at home since I'm the youngest... Now he calls me Sayang alot of times sia!... Like SO weird...Haha! If my mum calls me that nothing new uh... Not that I don't like or whatever uh...Imagine, always quarrel and suddenly my new name is 'Sayang' which means dearest for those of you who don't know... Seems like he has repent... In terms of religion too... I'm very glad that God answered my prayers... Hehe! [Alhamdulillah...] And I hope my dad stays this way... Im sick of quarreling with him...I am also trying to change in terms of attitude uh... I don't want to be a rebellious child....Which I was well-known of at home... Hahas! So yea, I'm trying to change for the better... In terms of religion...I've done that since April... Hahas! So ye, I'm glad I became like some sort of 'role model' for my family...I mean, if I can change, why can't they? Hahas!

Oh well...Seems like I've spent too much time blogging... And I still haven't update my second blog... That on Friday also can uh... I have to start my revision now! Maths la...Of coz! Hehe! What else right? Haha! Science? Don't bother... Haha! Ok la...Gotta go now! Bubbyes!! See you in school? Well some of you that is... Hahas!

HELLOOOO again. Hahas! You know what? I make Saturdays officially my BEAUTY DAY! Hahas! Oh yea before that...I had a good night sleeping last night! Haha! What a surprise when I got that 'gd nite' after sooo long since that person said good night to me... Hahas! Thanks for the good night? Haha! We 'continued' chatting in my dreams! HAHAHA! Yar I know...In your hearts will be like saying...IN YOUR DREAMS! Hahas! Oh well...It was still a beautiful dream... Haha! All dreams that has him in them is a confirmed beautiful dream! Haha!

So yea, good sleep=good rest=good for health! Haha! Good for health=good for beauty! I was in the shower for almost an hour? I shampooed my hair for 15 minutes...Then I leave the shampoo on my hair for another 15 minutes while I use the body scrub...Then I wash myself, then I use LUX whitening shower gel... Another 10 minutes gone...Then I washed my face...really2 scrub my face... Then I brushed my teeth for about 10 minutes... I felt sooooooo clean after that! Haha! Squeaky clean! Hahas! Then got ready and went to the shop alone... My purpose was to go shopping so-called! Haha! I just HAVE to shop...Thanks Abang Yus for the $10...I sayang you la seyh! Hehe... So I bought 5 Hydrating Masks from Guardian...It's in one box...$5.95 only la sia! OMG! So cheap!! One mask is like $1.95...I saved alot la seyh!! Hahas! I actually wanted to buy those kind of peel off mask...But then don't have...I looked for it at Unity Healthcare, Watsons, Guardian...All don't have! Irritating la siak! SHEESH! -.-... Then I was paying for my mask...I saw this body scrub that costs only $1.95! o.o... OMG! So cheap! Haha! And left 2 only...! I am SO lucky! Hahas! Then I bought Peach Tea at YES supermarket...It was AT THE BLOODY FRIDGE...Which says $1...SO I BOUGHT IT...When I PAY...SHE SAID IT'S $1.20 COZ ITS COLD! If the bloody drink isn't supposed to be cold...WHY PUT IT AT THE FRIDGE YOU ASS?!!! Sheesh! I was so pissed off! -.-....

Then go home, I chilled my mask at the fridge for a while... Then i used the mask and took a nap... Ahhh...So realxing... Hahaha! And alot of times I heard the song 'Perfect' in my head coz I'm still like upset with my dad, and I didn't even WANT to look at his face or EVEN TALK to him...Hahas! See if he CARES...LoL! Then my mum sms-ed me... She said my dad is like guilty for being so unappreciative! Haha! I TOLD YOU...He sure cannot take it one if I cry! Haha! Eh I AM the baby of the house for 16 years... So yea...He always loses when he sees me crying...Kwang3... Hahas! Then when he reach home also I did not talk to him... I don't care...I'll only talk if he talks... My mum said when they were at the NTUC he wanted to buy me so many stuffs but my mum opposes the idea! HAHA! LoL? NOW then remember what are my favourite foods? Hahas! Then I prayed... Since I missed alot of prayers yesterday, I prayed for yesterday one also uh... 6 prayers...22 'rounds' straight... My legs were weakened for the final one! Haha! But my heart felt soooooo peaceful...And when I was praying and wishing and thanking my God for everything...I cried for the first time? Haha! I usually feel like crying but I didn't... Today I cried! Ahhhahaha! Emotional ka paa...??? LoL!

I guess that's all that I did uh...Apart from washing my face for 5 times in a day! HAHAHA! For fun I guess? LoL! Tomorrow no more beauty day...Tomorrow is brain day...Damn! Study whole day! Haha! Ok la...I guess that's all! OMG! 12.12 a.m... I'm gonna have eye bags or dark circles if I sleep late and it'll affect my singing too! SHOOT! Ok2 gotta go now! GOOD NIGHT!!!! Hahas!

And good luck to my friends and those who are taking their Oral next week ok? Stay calm...And think positive! YOU CAN DO IT!! Hehehe! Just do it? LoL! OK la! Bubbyes! Take care! Won't be seeing me online tomorrow... Lazy uh...Sure if blog oso..."Today, I studied the whole day and my day was BORING..." Hahaha! So yea...Gotta go now! BYE! [3rd time already...Hahaha!]

Wohoooo~! One more 'O' Level thingy...OVER! No more Malay Oral! Hahas! And like wow? My prayers have been answered! Alhamdulillah...Hehe...After Amirah went and I was still at the waiting area, I started praying and praying and praying! Hahaha! And then after my 5 minutes was up...I prayed even MORE! Hahah! Who cares whether Mr Tay was in front of me or whatever seyh...Too stress to even care! Every step I took, I say some prayers! Hahaha! It's like...Oh No...DOOMS DAY! Hahas! Lucky the cockroach which was in the hall was gone from my sight! If not I'd be like shrieking? EEEKKKKK! Hahaha! I hate cockroach la sia...LoL! Ok shut up la Kirin...LoL!

When I reached the table...I smiled at the teachers..."Good Evening teachers...Sorry I didn't bring my IC nor my Ez-Link card..."...I said in PROPER malay uh... Haha! So weird like that..."Selamat Petang cikgu-cikgu....Maaf, tetapi saya todak membawa kad pengenalan, mahupun card Ez-Link saya..."...LoL! Then the teacher was joking uh..."Then how I know you are really Nur Assyakirin?"...Then I reply uh..."I lie also no point Cikgu..."...Haha! Then I start. That is when my prayers were answered! I didn't screw up much and I could talk and read quite fluently! I was SO proud of myself! Haha! Oh I just say one word wrongly but I say the correct one again after that... The conversation questions...

[In Malay...]
1. Describe a sports that you know of. Explain.
2.What are the rules and regulations for that particular sport that you chose?
3.More teens are not interested in sports nowadays. How to make these teenagers interested in sports?
4.Sports is a good career and can last very long. Do you agree with this statement?

I was kinda satisfied with what I answered ar... Hopefully I can get my A1 for Malay...If possible... Top for Malay? Hahas! Sorry Farah! Hahas! Why not give me a chance huh? LoL! Juz kidding la! Khairin said after I left the teacher were like laughing... I think I know very well why they're laughing...I was supposed to say safety helmet, which was "topi keselamatan"...But I said helmet for the motorbike, which was "topi keledar"... Gawd!!! I totally know about that! Alamak... Haish...! Feel like a loser? Haha! But I won't let that mistake demoralise me! So I kept on going! Wheee~! LoL! Very determine for that freakin' A1 sia! Hahas! Lalala...! LoL! Thanks to all my friends who took Oral on the same day as me today for teaching me how to pronounce some of the words! Had so much fun! Hehe! And I didn't realise how some of my schoolmates are so funny after all these years! Hahas! Ok I laughed alot...That's why I wasn't so stress at first...
Thanks SOOOO MUCH....To all of those people who wished me good luck! I needed that! Hehe! You peepz are just the best!

After school, around 4.30 p.m... I went to the shop with my mum to buy my father's birthday present! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH! Hahas! The birthday present was...Ingredients to cook Nasi Briyani! Wheee~! Haha! I cooked something so ADVANCED! Haha! And GOD it tasted good! Haha! Then I saw Mr Ang K K at my void deck...He walked with me until at the Golden Pines there... Hahas! At the playground at my house there, he asked me to differentiate sinX...I was like huh? All of a sudden? Haha! At first I said -cosX...then I was like...EH! No... cosX... Hahas! Then he asked me slightly difficult question... cos2X...That one I got correct... -2sin2X... Hahas! I cooked for sooo long! But it was satisfactory! My family members loved it! I LOVED IT! Hahas! I sayang my mother, brother[Abang Pil] and sister la...! Hehe! I know Abang Yus and Abang Faz will like it too! Hehe! But...

I cooked it especially for my dad... And I was so eager for him to come home especially after I saw his message for me after I wished him Happy Birthday before I went to school...which was "Thanks. Luv u"...I was so touched...When was the last time he said he love me? I can't even remember...Certainly not last year... That's why I always think he doesn't love me...But what happened a moment ago... Really make me think twice uh whether he actually really loves me or not... You know what? He didn't even say thank you...He critic my cooking instead... Coz I used the Nasi Briyani Mix... I mean, it is my first time what...I know ar you're a great cook and so on... Even if your cooking sucks sometimes, too salty or bland...I never insult your cooking coz I don't wanna hurt you... And you hurt my feelings without even thinking of all the hardwork I put in to make you proud...I thought you'd give me that gasp...Wow! My daughter cooked for me Nasi Briyani!... Instead I got the opposite of that...Haiz... Whatever la... At least my other family members are on MY side! Hehe! All agree that he's unappreciative and 5 against 1...Who wins? 5! Hahaha! Sayang you all la! Hahas! They cheered me up! Hehe!

I guess that's all la...And I've let what happened this week in the past lah... Though I still don't dare to hope for him anymore... I mean, fate is in God's hands...and I'll accept whatever the fate is...^^...God knows what's best for us and everything happens for a reason... And we only plan but it's God who determines it all...=)
Like Miss Zaleha said, sometimes even if you love someone very much, as in a crush uh...Doesn't mean the person will love you back too...

I'm not like that one person I know who seriously doesn't give up even if he's rejected by that girl...Just accept the fate la...Move on!! Hahas! Yea that's me...Just emo for the day I got hurt and I'll be the happy me again... How can Miss Zaleha think our class has no emokid...Haha! Look at the back of the class la! There's one! Haha! Ya...me? Haha! Part time only...LoL!

I'm so bored again? Haha! So yea I've edited a picture!





Waddya think? Nice or not? Haha! I know...Very emo... I LOVE the 'Shed No Tears' font... So nice! Haha! I love emo pictures la! Haha! I look like I'm eating the petal of the rose...Haha! Ok whatever... BYE2! XD

I'm freakin' bored la seyh...So why not I do this lame thing? Haha! At least you peepz will know me better? Haha! And to Zz...I include you in one of my beloved friends! Haha! But do you even school? Haha! coz until now you won't tell us what school you're from! -.-...

1.What is the question you haven't found a answer to yet ?
A maths question? Haha! Apart from that, can I ever get a smile from him?

2.Do you ever turn your cellphone off ?
Always coz I'm always lazy to charge my phone... Haha!

3.What happen at 10am today?
Ermm... Chemistry lesson...[I saw something gross! Haha! Kan Diyana? LOL!]

4.When did you last cry ?
Monday.

5.What is your favourite to eat with peanut butter ?
Rice. Haha! Of coz bread la...

6.What do you want in your life now ?
I want love, good grades for 'O' Levels and a smile from him.

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood ?
Umbrella.

8.Whats your favourite thing to have on your bed?
My blue teddy bear! ^^

9.What bottom are you wearing now ?
PJs pants? Hahas!

10.What's the nicest text in your inbox say ?
None. Haha!

11.Do u intend to make a relationship complicated ?
Who wants sia...-.-

12.Are u wearing anything u borrowed from someone ?
NOPE.

13.What was the last movie you caught?
Kung Fu Panda! ^^

14.What are u proud of ?
My looks! Haha! And my designs...!

15.What does the oldest text in ur inbox says ?
"Huh? I d0n gt b0th ur msgs.sry my f0ne 0ff.tk nmpk gt msg"-diyana! Haha!

16.What does the last song u sang out loud ?
Tear Don't Fall acoustic version.

17.Do u have any nick name ?
Alot? Kirin, Rin, Syakirin, Assyakirin.

18.What does ur last msg texted says ?
"OK thx"

19.What time u go to bed last night ?
Urmm... Around 12.45 am...

20.Are u currently happy ?
NO.

21.Who gives you best advice ?
Diyana, Aiha, Amirah.

22.Do u eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
Used to. Haha!

23.Who did u talk on the phone last night ?
Evening got uh... Haha!

24.Is anything bugging you now ?
Yea, but it's none of your business!

25.What/who was the last thing/person to make u laugh ?
Diyana.

26.Do u wear toe socks ?
No.

27.Who was the last person u missed a call from ?
Private number? I dunno who...XD

28.Have u ever had ur heart broken ?
Like DUH. It just did! Haha!

29.What annoys u in a person ?
Flirty, Noisy, Rude, Childish

30.Do u have a crush on someone ?
Haha what a question...Obviously...

31.In full name , Name the Person you Love & want to be Pampered By
Rukiah Binte Mohd Zain. Hahas! My mother! XD

32.What is the colour of ur room?
Stripy Pink!

33.Would u kill someone u hate for a billion dollars ?
I'll never kill anyone. I'll think twice about Bush...Hahah! Juz kidding!

34.Do u believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
I have no idea... Haha!

35.Who was the last person who lied on ur bed ?
I have no bed. XD

36.Did anyone see the last person u kissed ?
Yea, my aunt. Since I was kissing my grandma. Haha!

37.Do u have a life ?
Do I LOOK like I'm an emokid? Of coz I have a life! Haha!

38.Have you ever think someone died but they actually haven't?
No...

39.What is the reason behind ur blog song ?
I love rock! And I the part where they say,
"Without you all I do is sit & think about you"...IS SO TRUE! XD

40.Who was the last person u saw in ur dreams ?
Him. Hahas!

41.The last time u smiled ?
A second ago. XD

42. Have you changed this yr ?
Yea...Alot?

43.What are u listening to now ?
Fear Of Dying by Jack Off Jill.

44.Are u talking to someone while doing this ?
Nope.

45.Do u walk with ur eyes open or close?
Close.DUH of coz open uh...

46.Is there a quote u lived by ?
Yea..."Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder"

47.Do u wan someone u cant have ?
Yea, Dude Herlino or Justin Timberlake! Haha!

48.Have u ever played an instrument ?
Guitar and recorder? haha!

49.What was the worst idea u had in weeks ?
I want to forget about my crush? Eeek! No way!

50. What were u doing last night at 11pm ?
Practicing E-maths...

51.Are u happy with ur love life now ?
Hahs! Love? It's good enough for a guy to even LIKE me as a human being.

52.What song best described ur love life?
One Last Cry

53.Does the person noe u like him ?
Yeap. Very well. Haha!

54.Who Always Make You Laugh ?
My friends and family members.

55.Do u Speak Other Language other than English ?
Malay and a lil' bit Indonesia

56.Favourite Website ?
Blogger ALWAYS!

57.What is Ur Middle Name ?
Assyakirin? Haha!

58.What are u doing tomorrow ?
Go to school and have my Malay 'O' Levels Oral? XD

59.What do u think u're like ?
A crazy person. XD

60.Who will u choose to die with ?
With my child in my womb in future! Haha! Seriously.

61.Where have u been today ?
School & bubble tea shop.

62.What games do u play often ?
I hate games.

63.Who are u missing right now ?
Oh that guy form my tuition.... HAHA! No la... I'm missing nobody...

64.If you have to choose between friend and love , who will u choose ?
Depends ar...So many friends backstab me already...o.o...

65.What are u doing right now ?
Doing this piece of crap? XD

66.Which primary school are u from ?
East View Primary

67.Name three Colour u Like ?
black and pink

68.What Emotion You Like To Show ?
Happy.

69.What is Ur Life To You ?
Everything.

70.If You have Something troubling You , What Will You Do ?
I'll cry or seek for advice! Haha!

71.Who did u last chat in msn today ?
Steph. =)

72.Who do u admire most ?
Siti Nurhaliza! MY IDOL! XD

73.Which month are u born in ?
October

74.How are u feeling right now ?
Tired...and...broken hearted? Haha! Not sure bout the second one...

75.What is the time now ?
5.42 pm...

76.Where are u now ?
On Earth.

77.What colour did u use to dye ur hair ?
Do I LOOK like I dye my hair?

78.Why are u doing this test ?
I'm DEAD BORED! XD

79.What do u do when u're moody ?
I get all emo and I will cry.

80.At which age u wish to get married ?
Let's say between 25-27 years old? Hahas!

81.Who is more important to u ? girlfriends or friends ?
Girlfriends!

82.Do u think u have enough confidence ?
No way!

83.Who is the person u trust most ?
My mother.

84.Do u believe in seeing after rain ?
Seeing what? O.o...

85.If u have a dream come true , what will it be ?
He smile at me! Hehe! =)

86. What is ur goal for this yr ?
Get good results for my 'O' Levels and learn how to sew by the end of the year.

87.Do u believe in eternity love ?
Yeap.

88.What feeling do u love most ?
Happiness.

89.Do u think its global warming now ?
DUH...-.-

90.What feeling u hate the most ?
Heartbreak.

91.Do u cherish every friendship of urs ?
Yeap.

92.Do You Believe In God ?
Of coz!

93.Who Cares For You The Most ?
My family members.

94.What do you think is the most important thing in ur life ?
My face. Haha!

95.What are the stuffs u cant let go now and forever ?
My blue teddy bear, my IC, my passport.

96.What have u done & regreted doing in ur whole life?
Falling in love with that heartbreaker 2 years back!

97.What would u feel when no one no longer cares for you ?
Depressed.

98.What if ur stead two timed u ?
I'll just let him go. Since he's happier with that girl. =)

99.What do u want now ?
Food! I only ate a piece of bread at 10.45 am! -.-

100.Who was the last person to hug you ?
My mother.

OK...I'm not bored anymore! Haha! Alot of 'him' seyh... Haha! Duh...He's all that I want? Haha! No la...I want more bags and teddy bears too! Haha! And I wanna get out of my school A.S.A.P! Hahas! Ok la I guess that's all! Bubbye!

OMG!!! Tomorrow is Mlay Oral 'O' Levels! OMG! OMG!!! It starts today though but mine is tomorrow... I'm SO SCARED!!! VERY VERY SCARED!!! I'm not prepared... Haiz... Hopefully I can pass...[Insya'Allah...] I've prayed hard for this exam...I really hope I can remain calm tomorrow... Well I'll always think of Allah, so I'll remain calm... Hehe... I'll be practicing my oral realllll soon... I'll pray for my beloved friends too aites? Especially my 4E3 classmates! I'll pray for him too...Since when I've stopped? Hahas! All the best for all of you ok? Hahas! And good luck to Fikril and Ali from my tuition centre! Haha! Its not wrong to wish them good luck what... They're my classmates too! And the only 2 OTHER malays... Not fair seyh Malay start first! Sheesh! Well to all of you taking the Mother Tongue Oral 'O' Levels this month until July... Just remain calm ok? Don't be too nervous...You'll be out of words... Just say some prayers in your heart to help you remain calm k? And don't stop praying! Hahas! And go and practice la sia! You think what? Pray only can pass ar? Dream on la! Haha! GO PRACTICE NOW!!!

Oh ya! I forgot to say...Yesterday I had such a weird dream...I was at my blog... Then got 5 people tagged me uh... That guy was one of the taggers... He was like apologising to me...I was so shocked! Haha! His name on my tag board was just "******"...I was like eh...If this is HIM...Than why the * got 6? Should be 5 what... Hahaha! Then I woke up... haha! Weird dream...LoL!

[Ingat budak2 Melayu!! Jangan pakai bahasa pasar! Haha! Gunakanlah Bahasa Baku... Ceyh2! Haha! Macam paham sak aku...XD]

I don't have the heart to break your heart... If I break yours, I'll definitely break mine...

One of my prayers is like gone...Since like yea... I don't think anything will happen between me and him EVER... Hahas! So some other prayers were, I want to be strong in the heart and I want to stay happy...! So yea...Allah answered my prayers... Hehe! First of all, I just cried for one night over that matter...Stopped crying for 30 minutes, then cry again...And again...and again... Haha! And I went to school the next day with swollen eyes... Like EEEUU... -.-... So yea no more crying from me...Gosh I was emo in school yesterday...And when I'm emo...Seriously I have attitude problems... Hahas! And school was a DREAD for me! Sheesh...

Today, everything was the other way around! Hehe! I'm sooo in love with this Wednesday... Except for the part where I had a freakin' long day wearing my school uniform...Sheesh...Almost 12 hours...-.-... So what else happened...? Joked a lot with my friends today...So one thing for sure, we're still bestfriends! Hehes! Maybe I was just too emo that monday...So yea...Waddya expect? I think negative ALL THE WAY! Hahas! Oh and thanks Ain for even asking me whether I was alright or not yesterday...I didn't expect that from you...Hehes! Guess I've misjudged you huh? And I guess we should let our dark past stay in the past! Hehe... And thanks to Diyana too! You cheered me up somehow... Hahas! Though it didn't turn up really well coz...I took the other course which was to start 'afresh'... Hahaha!

Ok so back to today's event... During mother tongue, I actually enjoyed practicing oral with Maizurah... Haha! I was so not serious? Haha! Ok la some part I was... Then got Physics! Yay! Sit at the back! Haha! I sit at the same place where I sit during Mother Tongue class... So I have an advantage yea... So my permanent seat is beside Sarita... There was Physics test...SURPRISE! -.-... I think I did that worksheet before last year... Fail also I don't give a shit... Haha! Then there was assembly...Oh my god! Someon fart or shit in their skirt or pants sia in the hall just now! The stench was undescribable! It STINKS! And then someone sprayed perfume uh..So it was gone... Then it came back...! Eeeyer! Hahas! And I kept on asking Maizurah "is the smell gone?"... Hahas! She actualy sniffed! Hahas! Eee I wouldn't dare to put my hands away from my face! Haha! Thanks Maizurah for smelling it for me! Haha! But I don't think she know why I laughed... Partly coz of her and partly coz of what the people who smelled it said and the expression on their faces! Hahas! I just had to laugh... Hahas! The assembly was kinda fun...I mean the debate uh... Mdm Saleha very funny! Hahas! And Mdm Fauziah said a mare is a female prostitute? Did I get it wrong? I mean yes it's a female horse...But who says it's a female whore? Haha! Aiya don't get it la... Hahas!

Then at 3 there was Sub Chemistry Mock Exam... Gosh...The paper 1 was kinda easy uh...But the paper 2 was LIKE PURE! -.-... And exothermic and endothermic reaction did not come out??! Ass sia! I studied that for what??! -.-... Ok confirm I won't get distinction! Haha! Then this guy from 4e4...From China one, quite tall...I don't know the name! Haha! He called m uh..."Girl.."..I think I heard him saying I look like a nice girl or something like that...HAHS! LoL! I know his purpose of saying that though...He wanted to ask me a qustion that I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW! Haha! I said uh I don't know...Then he ask me...What I got for my pure chem mock exam...I got A1 or not...Come on la...If I get A1, would I collapse to combined? -.-... Then he ask me you pass or not...I don't know what he say uh then he say he want to discuss about something...I was like err...Right. Haha! Then his friend said 'chi bai' to him... Haha! LoL? Then he kept quiet... Like hello, we were in the middle of an exam? Haha! I was like saying in my heart..."Oh no...I'm late for tuition...Hmm...Maybe I should go tomorrow's class...NO WAY! I won't be able to see someone! I must finish this paper A.S.A.P"... Hahas! You don't have to know who's that someone...! Like wasted uh if go tomorrow's night class.

Finished like 10 minutes early... Then I went outside uh...Then got that boy again...o.o... He was repeatedly saying,"Girl you pretty uh"...I was like...Ok he's not talking to you Kirin...Just ignore him! Hahah!... Then I left for tuition...While walking, I said in my heart,"confirm sit 3rd row...Haiz...Too bad then...".. Hahas! BUT...When I arrived at around 5 pm, they just started Mr Tok said...Whee~! Lucky Rin! Haha! [lucKY RIN...Eh my name! Haha! Ok I know...Lame... Haha!] And then right... I get to sit 2nd row! Yay! Haha! Which means I've been upgraded to a kinda clever person...And I sit beside a very clever person! Hahaha! I'm having that feeling I've felt a year ago with that someone... But I know uh I don't have a crush on this guy...I just like to see that so-the-handsome-innocent-looking face and the so-the-neat hair! Haha! Ok for those who are in the same tuition as me, and reads my blog...Just shut up. Haha! With that looks, confirm attached! Haha! He viewed my friendster! Hahaha! Shut up Kirin...LoL! But somehow or rather, even though every week sit beside him during tuition... [Huhu! LoL!] I CAN resist looking at him...! Haha!

But until now, I can't resist looking at my crush... Haix...It feels so difficult to let it go just like that...Come on la seyh! Almost 1 year and 3 months...I still have that feelings for him! How can I forget it like that!?? No way... I may not be puting any more hopes...And I'm also trying my best to look away coz everytime I look...I don't know...I feel so sad... I remembered that joke... And straight away I can imagine in my head that he's gonna be happy with that girl...And I'm not even suitable for him...I know who I am...So don't you try to say.."No la...where can think like that...."...ok? Coz it ain't gonna work... I'm just happy again coz I'm much stronger in the heart now... But I'll never stop waiting, though I've stopped hoping... And I'm sorry if nowadays I seems so arrogant when I see you...

Hahas! Ok my 5th and 6th paragraph...Is like talking about 2 different people? Haha! So yea, 1st to 4th para...Happy2! Haha! Only 6th paragraph... I've stopped hoping also coz I think I hoped too high... I mean nothing's happening now, but what if something serious happens later? Commit suicide? Haha! No way! I don't even dare to slit my wrist! Haha! Most probably depression...Serious depression... LoL! Ok la I guess I'll stop here... I love my blog song...Coz it's like my song...I had my one last cry on Monday! Haha! So yea...I gotta go now...Bye...=)

I'll only let go of you, if you tell me I'm not needed in your life...I won't give up, and I'll always love you...Only you and no one else...=)
And even though I've stopped hoping, I'll never stop praying for you...=)

"It's not like he's EVERYTHING..."
Well that is what people say when I get disappointed about that person... Well for your information, for now, he is everything to me...

But yea you know what...I just wanna apologise if I'm not perfect in any of your eyes... I've tried, though not my best to make him realise how much I care for him...I've realised, I hoped too much... So now, I don't think I want to even hope anymore... I mean...Why am I hoping? All I want is for him to be happy even if it means, I have to let him go... At least she's making a move...Unlike me... I know who I am... And my life has been painful since like I was primary 4... I've been emotionally weakened since then... And like I always ask myself...Who am I to even hope? Aren't there like enough mirrors in my house to actually make me realise who I am to even HOPE?? I know I don't deserve him...But these few months...I've been changing myself to be a better person... Well I guess...That's why Allah made me fall for him...Just to make me realise my mistakes in life and change into a better person...Until I'll realise he's not meant for me but I'll stay as that better person... If I lose hope, doesn't mean he should too... I mean if he's hoping on anyone...Just carry on... Don't bother if he thinks he has broken my heart or anything... I'm already a broken soul anyway... Who says I'm fully recovered from my 2006 broken heart? Hahas...

So from tomorrow onwards, it's nothing new if I don't try to say anything to him...I mean, it is the best way for him to ignore me even more. Don't worry...I may have stop hoping...But I'm sure the hope won't be totally gone...And I'll always wait. Until I know the answer from him... And I know it is time to move on... I'll leave, knowing that he'll be happy...

Tears shed, dreams sacrificed, hopes collapsing...Am I losing you..? Haixx..

Helo... How was your first day of school? Most of you must be delighted since you get to see your friends once again... Well to me, today is the WORST day of school in 2008 so far... My keychain is spoil, my friendship with my group of friends is somehow...Fading... Ah! Much more but I don't feel like sharing... After School, all I wanted to do was to cry... Hahas! Ok the tears were already blurring my vision... But I controlled my emotions and I could hold back the tears... Hehes... Then I went to revise Chemistry with Diyana... Thanks Diyana for asking for my keychain back from them! Hehes... I may seem happy after some time when we were revising, but I didn't felt lighter in the heart even ABIT...Hmms... I don't know...In my brain, it says revenge... In my heart it says forget and I'll break... I don't know!! Ok fine another freakin' dilemma... Oh well why should this be your problem huh? Hehes... I know, I keep on complaining about my life...I sound like some emokid...-.-... Well I love the video Mr Ang K S showed to 4E3... It was so inspirational... Nick was such a great guy... He made me realise how thankful I should be about myself... I used to hate the way I look since I'm so hairy...Well at least I have limbs... And Allah must have given me these hairs for a reason...And I don't have to find the reason why, I just need to appreciate what He has given me...=)

Well like 1/3 of the show, I realised like...Hmm...I've blogged about this before...I told someone about this before... Hahas! Yea Diyana realises that coz I'm like her motivator? Hahas! But I also realised another thing...I want people to have confidence in themselves...Love themselves...But I'm the one who's hating myself all the while... Well I must start loving myself then! Hahas! Don't talk about my face la...I ALWAYS love my face! Haha! Since like...Forever? Haha! Except for the part where I have facial hair...Gosh...There I go again...Whining about my looks...And I even fear to have a boyfriend coz of it...[My mum must be thankful of it! Haha!]...Oh well I'm sure one day, there will be that someone who is willing to accept me for who I am INSIDE...And not what I am on the OUTSIDE... Well so far only one person who knows me for who I really am apart from my close friends... I think? Haha! Like Nick said, he's still single, but he's still waiting for his future wife, whom he thinks will accept him for who he really is and not how he looks like. Hehes! Truly inspired me that part... =)

And also like Shi Chang told me, teens are still not matured to think that way since they are immatured... They'll learn to accept people fr who they really are one day when they are matured in future... Hehe! Now that's MY motivator! Hehe! You're a great friend...=)

And some jokes seems so funny to some people, and seems so hurtful when someone else hears about it by their own ears...Haix...

OMG! I've found that friendster profile I've been looking for! Hahas! Ok no biggy... If I add this person...I'm afraid they just have the same name but different person...-.-...And I know...If I add this person...There WILL be a problem after that! Ish... So I'd better not add this person huh? Hahas! Profile private...haiyoh...Just wanna see the picture la to confirm...The display picture also so blur...Cannot see any face one... Nevermind. Hahas! I think it would be a terrible idea to add that person! Sheesh! Oh I know! I'll ask my friend to add this person! Hahas! I still can see the picture, but I don't add that person! I know you peepz must be asking...Who the hell is this person...Must I tell you EVERYTHING?? No right? That's why I'm not telling. Hahas!

Gosh Shi Chang...You've seriously made my day! I LOVE YOU LA!!! Gawd! Your post for me, seriously TOUCHING! Hahas! Ok...I almost cried... Haha! That shows how much I appreciate it! You pepz should check it out....

"Nur Assyakirin - A malay girl that i will be honest with, She IS beautitful and much more Clever then I am. I believe that if i am a malay boy i will LOVE HER to be MY GIRLFRIEND or want her to be the PERSON at the same rank of my GF but i will have my utmost RESPECT to her.

For those of my firend that DO NOT KNOW her. Let me tell you abit about her. She have a Great sense of Humor, she is one of the malay Girl that have Open Mind and i feel sometime THINKS like me. haha might sound scary to some [WOW got someone that will know how you think cannot do anything to her then cos SHE knows want u will do haha]. To me i Should Thank the 4th Group of people - That ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME BUT I NEVER NOTICE! Kirin YOU WILL be one of them that belong to this group of people. AND THERE ARE A LOT MORE PEOPLE that belong to this group of people, I WANT TO SAY SORRY for forgetting HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE TO ME. Those people You might think that the little things you mean NOTHING to you BUT it mean a lot to me. Just Correcting my spelling maybe cos u cannot stand it, telling me that That will not work or how can u do that. Guys All i want to say to your is THANK-YOU - JUST BECAUSE YOU CARE ME SO MUCH LIKE KIRIN."

I quoted that from his blog... Ok if I wanna say who's the sweetest guy I've ever met right now...It seriously has to be Shi Chang! Haha! You know, for once, I'm proud that for almost 2 years in primary school...Some crazy people keep on teasing me with him! Hahaha! The part where he said if he's a malay boy he wants me to be his girlfriend...Hahas! That's sweet but...In the REAL WORLD...There's no Malay boy who's interested in me! Haha! Like I EVEN CARE...-.-... Thank you sooooo much for the post once again Shi Chang! Your girlfriend is SO lucky to have you! Hahas! And I really hope both of you last long kaes? And to be honest...I AM jealous that you've lost weight! Haha!

Ok and that's all about him for now...AH! Tomorrow school reopens! Eeek! I don't know whether am I even looking forward to it or not... Hahs! Ok 85% not looking forward... Sucks! Eeee Mother Tongue Oral 'O' Levels!!! Die!!! Hahas! Hopefully not...Sheesh... And good luck to all of you who's taking Mother Tongue 'O' Levels Oral!! Homework done already or not all of you?? Hahas! I still left one...Ala anytime also can finish one... Hahas! Yesterday I don't bother to go online la... Waste my time... Hahas! I was doing filing... Homework... Then talk with my sister and mother...Gosh! I had so much fun! Hahas! We were laughing like hell while I give them some riddles my sis told me to read! Haha! I love laughing with my family members... Hehe! My sis gave me ALOT of art and crafts stuffs! Wheee~! I LOIKE! Especially the sketch book! Hehe! And she decorated it for me! Thanks Along! I love you! Hehe! Oh yea! Tomorrow I'll start bringing my 2007 school bag... I've sewed some stuffs on it...Improvise! Haha! Better than throwing it away just coz the button is spoiled... So I've repaired that...OMG! I am SO eager for my sewing course!! hahas! Ok la! Gotta go now! Must 'get ready for school'... Hahas! I suck. But School sucks even MORE. XD

Oh my gosh...I make this blog especially for this ONE and ONLY special guy...Hahas! I didn't say my boyfriend right??? Haha! He's my bestest bestfriend EVER...And he's Shi Chang! Hahas!
I was like chatting with him a moment ago... Gosh he was SO different!

He suddenly said thank you to me for being his bestfriend since pri 5 until now... Hahas! Errmmm you know what Shi Chang? That was VERY surprising! Haha! Coz we ALWAYS quarrel even by the smallest things in life... Haha! It was worse back in primary school ok? Haha! What he said to me today was like soooo sweet! Haha! He just said I Love You to me! Haha! As a good friend that is... Hahas! Wow I've never felt so appreciated as a friend...! Hahas! I Love You Too Shi Chang as a bestest bestfriend everrrr! Haha! And that was as weird... But I mean it! Hahas! I guess since you've changed...No more quarrels between us? Alamak...Not syiok anymore luh liddet! Haha! How could you! You never include me in one of your close friends! Hmph! =P

Niwaes, I'll be waiting for that post Shi Chang! And I know you don't know how to spell my name! Haha! It's Nur Assyakirin... And by the way bro...Your title for that post dedicated to the special people in your life where you didn't include me unfortunately...Is wrong... Haha! It's regretted...Not regrated... Or however you spelled it... hahas! Ok la...You've went to bed already...You just woke up coz there's a guilt in you coz you didn't put me as one of your bestfriends in your post? Hahas! That is sweet! Hahaha! I'm also sleepy already! Toodles!! And this is for you Shi Chang! Don't change so much...I actually love quarreling with you! Hahaha!



And I like barely see you anymore?? I MISS YOU LA BRO!! Eh you promised to take a pict with me right? You'd better hold on to that promise ar after 'O' Levels! Hahas! BESTFRIENDS FOREVER! ^^

Eh people get it right la seyh... I am SO not falling for that guy from my tuition! o.o.... I don't even KNOW him! I just know his name! Which I'm like unsure of? -.-.... Just get this straight...I only love that one and only *****...THAT'S IT! Ok? So don't make any judgement I like a new guy just coz I think he's handsome! Gosh... Come on la seyh... I'm single and I can't say a guy that I saw is handsome?? O.o... Do I look like I go for looks? If you know me well...You know I DON'T have taste... All the guys I have crush on once or my ex SERIOUSLY don't have looks at all...o.o... Hahas! Cannot say I don't judge a book by its cover uh...Coz I seriously judge mat reps that way... Haha! I know some of these mat reps...Only dress that way but are actually good people...Like 2%? HAHA! You think I care? Sheesh... Like almost ALL of them are super skinny... Not my type seyh... And seriously don't like mat reps! Eeeyerrr....-.-....

I STICK TO ONE...Ok? Bye!

Ok I'm not sure about the dilemma already...o.o... Lets choose, hatred, humiliation or disappearance from public? Hahaha! I was SPEECHLESS. Haha! Ok you know what's my plan now? To shut my bloody trap EVEN online! o.o... I am NEVER gonna say anything again! OMG what has got into me??!! I was seriously like...*stare at laptop screen...GULP!*... Hahahas! Ok the picture SHOCKED ME! Lets not mention any names right now ok? Haha! Hmm well maybe some people are just not photogenic huh? Hehe...I mean...Some people do look good in real life[or do they?]...But looks urmmm the opposite in pictures? o.o.... Hahas! Ok ok...I told the public too much...Shhhhh...! Hahas! Should I just say...It's all in the past now? Haha!I mean looks doesn't count in relationships sometimes! Hahas! Now I wonder, big loss or a big waste of time? Hahaha! Oh well who cares if the person has no looks but is super damn sweet with you huh? Hahas! Well don't know about romantic but that quality is certainly what I wish for in my future guy! Haha! Impossible much? Hahas! Talk about it! -.-...

But for that person that I have a crush on...Seriously...I'll accept him for who he really is... And I can see that...He's just noisy like other boys coz he wants to fit in...He's actually a good person... Hahas! I know...Those of you who knows him are like...Hmmms right. Haha! I dunno but he seems like a well-behave person without the influence of friends... Anyways, TOO well-behaved people are SO boring...NOT my type...Hahas! Must know where to behave and where to be naughty uh... I'm just naughty outside school, good girl in school...! Haha! Good girl ke? HAHA! God Knows... LoL! Don't worry la... I'll always like that guy...AND STOP HOPING WE'LL BE TOGETHER SOME DAYS! It pressurises me you know??! Hahas! Fate is in God's hands...So STOP hoping! Hahas!

YOU KNOW WHAT!!??? I've just realised something! The freakin' Walkathon thingy... I haven't even collected a single cent! HAHA! And you what else? I don't seem to even care! WOW! Hahaha! Oh wel if it's Kirin, then it's nothing new...Since when I care about these kind of stuffs? Hahaha! Those students from other school if they do not have to collect this donation...YOU ARE SO LUCKY I TELL YOU...Psssttt...! Tell me what school you're from! Can we switch schools?? PLEASE!?? Please?!! Hahas! Just kidding la... If wanna talk about switching schools...I've wanted that since 2 or 3 months after I started schooling in my school...-.-... So much for dream school! -.-.... C'mon la..I was like..OMG! I wanna go Dunman Sec..! SHIT! My aggregate is just 217!! Waddya expect? I want to be in a good school and a good class... Haha! Well I'm not in a good school, but I am in a good class! Or is it? Hahaha! Ok shut up Kirin... I love my class ok???? Hahas! Ok ok that's all...Those of you who still haven't collect the donation thingy... Go and do your stuff la...Ask your mum to donate $10...Then fill in $1, 4 times, $2, 3 times... Hahahas! Then your teacher see...Wow! You got from 7 people! Cool~! Hahaha! Well that's my plan, if you wanna do the same shit, then go ahead lor...Desperate times calls for desperate measures? Haha!

And yea...I just finished reading my old blog which happens to be MSN Spaces... Now is 8.26 pm by the way... I read the archives uh... OMG...I was so vulgar in my blog! Haha! And talk about self-praise? Hahaha! That blog is definitely TOTALLY different from this blog! Haha! And whatever I say I don't like to do, happens to be my hobby now...I used to hate blogging?? ME?? HATE blogging? Serious or what? Haha! My number 1 hobby la sia! Hahas! Whatever you do... DON'T go to my MSN spaces.... It sucks... Hahas! Ok la dets all...Simply damn bored doing Physics right now...Blearghs...-.-

Today, I've practically done nothing FUN...-.-... And Diana from 4e6 suddenly called and said she wanted to borrow my Ez-Link? O.o... Who borrows Ez-Link? And who would be clever enough to LEND it? Haha! Ez-Link is like identification card seyh... In a moment, I will be a nerd... Haha! What the hell la Kirin... I'm going todo my Physics and SS homework! Wheee~! Haha! What's with the wheeeee~? I also don't know...Just crazy I guess... Hahas! OMG! I love my blog song! Tralalalalaz... Sorry luh I'm just SO crazy when I'm bored! Eeeks! Hahas! You know something?

I miss my kitty cats that my mum has set free or had run away from home or was given away to other people! OMG! I miss Enot, Neng, Baby Number 1 [Who jumped down from the 12th stprey of my old block...], Baby Number 2[Mehk Ehk's son who ran away from home], Comot & Comel[Neng & Enot's son and daughter], Mini Mehk Ehk & Mini Neng [Mehk Ehk's sons who looks like him and Neng..SUPER CUTE! Stupid Jabbar! We gave him those kittens and he abandoned them! Go and die lar lu! Grrrr.!] I've WARNED my mum not to give him! But she GAVE him those kiteens to him! Seriously felt like strangling him to death! Sheesh!...Well so far that's all the cat names I can remember...Haha! If you want to remember all...That's kinda impossible since my family have looked after more than 20 cats since the day I was born? Haha!

But among all of the above...I SAYANG MY MEHK EHK AND BABY[NUMBER 3]...!!!! Especially Baby uh...Since Mehk Ehk is like so fierce except when he wants me to scratch him then he will lick my hand...Hypocrite! Hahaha! I love all felines la! Can I adopt a lion's cub? Hahas! I know...Stop being lame Kirin...XD

I guess that's all...I'm so random right? Haha! Well not all the time...^^...But crazy is ALL THE TIME uh... Hehe! Ok la! Gotta go and finish up my homework! Oh bother...Holidays seem to pass by so quickly! I HATE GOING TO SCHOOL!!! Ok wait...School starts early, it means, it will end AGAIN very quickly too...Which happens to be END OF SECONDARY SCHOOL!!! OMG OMG OMG!! I SO cannot WAIT to get out of my school! Yay! Alamak...Like that out of tuition also...Allaaaaa....!!! I'm gonna miss those funny times during tuition, I'm gonna miss Mr Tok!! Why should I tell you more about what I'm gonna miss? Hahas! Some things are meant to be kept as a secret you know? XD

Hey hey! I know...How many post do I want in a day? Well for today, 3 uh... Can't you count?? Hahas! I was browing through some of these avatars[that's what they call at that website..] and I found this...

Hahas! So cute like that! Haha! Who am I refering to? Hahas! No need to say"i love you" then cancel... Haha! I can be like "hello"...Cancel...5 minutes later..."hello"...leave the page as it is...10 minutes later ENTER... Hahaha! Paiseh? Haha! Dunno uh... LoL! And like I can say hello to anybody else so normally except when I'm chatting with him...-.-...I'll type like a retard... XD

AND THIS IS SO TRUE! Hahas! Talk about negative thinker...-.-




OH YA! I like forgot to say what Diyana told me just now...Eee I feel so sorry for him...Well I think he deserves it too uh for being rude... But c'mon...Parents if wanna hit their children also...Don't until they bleed uh...I felt so sad just by HEARING about it! o.o... I mean you tell me about other people, confirm I'm like...Ish...Poor thing. But I actually don't really care. Haha! I don't know why I was so sad...-.-... LoL! And so KPO? I didn't even asked...She told me...So not Kpo uh... Haha!

Hey! Ok like wassup with the song? Hahas! Dedicate to my father? Hahas! Oh well...I guess? Well here's the lyrics...This song is kinda old...So yea, maybe some of you who are like me, might have forgetten the lyrics! I freakin' love this song sia!!! ^^

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me.
Did I grow up according To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me

(chorus)
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright

[repeat chorus]

Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

[repeat chorus 2X]

Oh ya! By the way, today's blog edit is that freakin' irritating hearts at the background! Nice right?? Ok...I just said it's irritating! Haha! Still cool what... Haha!

And you see that "YOU will be the answer when someone asks me what I'm thinking about" is simply cute! Hahas! Like I simply LOVE the caption... LoL! I mean... Since when have I stop thinking about him? Haha! As if he reads my blog...-.-... But if he does...Good uh! Hahah! XD
And if you really do read my blog..Then this picture is for you larh! Hahas! Giler sak Kirin...XD

Hello...Wassup with the title? You know what? I also don't know. Haha! Coz I'm listening to the song now and I don't know what title to put... Huhu! Ok fine whatever... Hmm...Today I seriously didn't eat much... So what did I eat...Paper thosai at around 9.45 am... And dried mushroom at around 6 pm? Haha! Pathetic sia dried mushoom... LoL! Noooo...I'm not on a diet... Me?? Diet?? Haha! The only time you can see "Kirin" and "Diets" is when you put a "doesn't do" in between them! Ok I know..Wrong sentence structure... Get it STRAIGHT...My English sucks...So yea what the heck... You get what I mean la seyh...

What did I do today? Practically nothing good... HAHA! Iwent out at 9 am...To go to school...Waste my time la! Just to hand in a sheet of paper....-.-... Now I'm a combined science student...Alaaaa until 'O' Levels only mah...As if JC got combined science! Hahas! So I'll be a pure science student again next year... Then went to have breakfast with Diy...Then waste time with her until 6...Tch3....! Ok that's the final one! I promise you! No more lepak-ingz! Haha! She gave me this blouse...I am SO not wearing it outside my house! Hahas! So tight! o.o... I mean it's absolutely normal for minahs but for me...No thanks, I'll just wear it at home... Hahas! But thanks anyways Diy! And for the long sleeve too! I gave it to my mum already! Hahas! And Diy told me that she's gonna prank me one day? Hahs! It won't happen Diy... It's a dare whee I don't feel challenged... Hahas! Coz I don't think it will work...With these 2 'heck care' people..We will certainly just go home after we realise that we've been pranked... Hahas! Me? Talk to him? Are you serious?? Haha! MSN can uh...Don't even hope la seyh in reality...-.-...

I guess I'm done to my last cry...

Gosh...I'm starting to hate Wednesday coz of tuition...Not coz of the dread to go to tuition... That oh-im-a-smart-ass-what-the-fuck boy is in the Wednesday class already! He was from the Thursday class, which I was in, and went OUT coz of HIM...So noisy and NEVER gives others a chance to answer! Teacher ask...So Kirin, what's the answer? [Before I could answer HE answered it! OI I KNOW LA BUTO!]...So Sharon, what's the answer? [HE ANSWERED AGAIN! Fuck off la sia!] Oi If yu so clever, then no need tuition ar! Bloody hell...Think what?! Only you pay is it?? So good then go get private tutor la! Freakin' Pain In The Arse! Eh the class was so peaceful without him sia...Seriously I despise these kind of people! They are the second group of bos I hate apart fom flirts! Ass hole sia... Never let people answer...Act good...Just watch out, next week I see his fucking face again, I'll get ready a complain letter I tell you...Grrr...! Why can't he be like Ali and Fikril? Haha! So quiet...Eyh don't get any ideas eh.... I was just saying...! -.-...

Today like first time I sit at the secod row, which urmm is for people who are slightly cleverer? Hahaha! Give me a break...-.-... Haha! Ok it was COLD and my vision was BLUR! And Fikril was tall so I cannot see... Hahas! And so paiseh sit beside a person who is like the cleverest among all of us, which is Ali uh... Hahas! I don't know how to do alot of questions and he's like so relaxed doing the questions...-.-....Jealous seyh! Haha! Ok I know, Shut up...Why do I keep on talking about this guy everytime I go to tuition? Haha! Partly coz he's clever and his face like super decent! Haha! Just saying... No big deal right? Haha! Don't worry la...I only like one guy and that's it...! Huhu... Eh faithful ok? Hahaha! Ok shut up Kirin...^^

Afte tuition I went to buy bubble tea, that stallholder which is like very friendly to me, actually knew what I want! Haha! Cool? LoL! Regular customer la... Her first guess was wrong though...Mixed me up with Diyana... I hate Watermelon Ice Blend sia... Haha! Then talked with her whle the other stallholder is making my Caramel Choc Ice Blend... Then go home! Ok uh that's all! No mood to go online tonight coz I feel....STUPID! So I want to study ok? Haha! I hate to feel stupid...All thanks to that fuckig jerk from the Thursday class! Sheesh! Get a life la seyh! -.-...

Hey!!! You know what? I've made my own song! Wheee~! Haha! Nah not to publish...To listen for fun...Haha! Yea I was just dead bored and not sleepy so why not make a song huh? Huhu...Sorry mum, dad, coz I noisy! Hahah! The song is a love song uh...So far only Diyana has heard of it since I send it to her... Hahas! I don't know uh...If I were to actually WRITE down songs...I would have more than 10 by now...Haha! Coz actually, everytime when I'm sad, some song that I've never heard of before in my life appears in my head... Hahas! Last time when I was a small girl, I used to make love songs and some weird songs while playing with my Barbie dolls! Hahas! Nahh...Now no more Barbie! Haha! Got uh, but do you think I still play with them? O.o... And NO I don't wanna be a song writer NOR a singer... No way I'll go into music industry!

And ya! Just now I saw Mr Yazid at BHG! Mr Yazid from EVPS, the very friendly and funny teacher! OMG! He remembered me! I just LOOKED at him, but he SMILED and NODDED at me! Haha! I was like...OMG MUM! HE RECOGNISES ME! Hahaha! OK whatever I know... Hahas! Gotta go now! BYE!

Whhheeeee~! FINALLY watched Kung Fu Panda! OMG! Po is SO cute! Wheeheee~! Hahas! The show was HILARIOUS I TELL YOU! Those who haven't watch...GO AND WATCH LA! You don't know what you're missing out on! Sheesh! LoL! I watched the 9.20 pm show at CS with my mum just now...We had our dinner first...Just shared one plate of fried seafood noodles... Then we talked uh...

Urmm...My mum told me about that piece of crap...Huhu! Well she told me he was furious with ME since I scolded him so much vulgarities 3 years back...Still can ask WHY I scold him all those vulgarities??? HAHAHA! Hey bastard! See what you have done la! You almost wrecked my family you freakin' arse! Go eat shit la! And you know what? He freakin' gave his friend my house phone number...Just to ask his friend to scold vulgarities back at me! HAHAHA! And I remembered seyh...That guy was like...Sial...Chibai...Blablabla all he old-school vulgarities... Haha! I was like errmmm who's this mother fucker? Haha! He didn't even said FUCK... Haha! Pathetic old crap! Haha! Of coz I won the battle, after spewing a bucket of vulgarities at him, I screamed for my dad, AYAH!!! There's a crazy person on the phone!! Then he put down the phone! HAHA! No balls la! Only dare to scold a little girl! Huhu! Hey call me again and see what I'll say to you now 'dearest'...Huhu! Why don't you give your bloody son's number, so that I can break his bloody heart like you broke my mother's heart once! Since my mum FORGAVE YOU which I DON'T understand WHY...Maybe your fucking son would forgive me too huh? Sheesh I shouldn't even try since I think your son would try to break mine too coz he sees his FATHER as a FREAKIN' ROLE MODEL! Eh fucker...I'm not scared of you...Get that straight. =)

So yea...apart from that, my mum told me I'm the rudest child among all my siblings towards my dad...-.-....Is that even NEW? O.o... Haha! I know... I suck. Haha! So yea... Just now I just TRIED to be on the 'happy' side... So why not tell my dad about the movie experience huh? "Ayah, the movie just now was funny you know!"...And WHAT did he reply..."Hmmm..."...With that no smile face. o.o.... I've tried ok? I'VE TRIED! I don't know what I must do to make those wonderful times I had with you when I was younger... Until now, I just have to cry if I remember what you said to me a few years back... I guess I am unwanted huh? Haiz... But I know...I must be strong...I mean that's in the past...Even if that saying scarred me for a lifetime... It's just something to make me weak... I'm sick of being that girl who cries about her life everyday... But at times, I can't stop these tears from falling... But now, Tears Don't Fall, They Crash Around Me... Hehe! I sayang Bullet For My Valentine! Oh well my tears just fell a moment ago... Hahas! Oh well, after hugging my Baby Taz, I'm ok already... Toodles! ^^

Damn it! My eyes feels so dry now after crying! Sheesh! Hehe! Well I've prayed that I'll be strong in the heart...I hope My prayers will be answered sooner or later coz I hate crying but I cry too easily...-.-...Especially when it comes to family matters and negative thoughts about that crush I'm having... Hahas! I mean, anyone can say that I'm crazy... But if my parents says I'm crazy, I think I really am crazy... =)
Just like last year...That's when I start thinking...Hmm, I guess I am crazy huh? [I will be if I keep on thinking negative like this...Sheesh...!]

Hellloooooo~! Eyh! I'm gonna watch Kung Fu Panda today!!! Whhheeeee~! Hahas! Yar like SO happy? Hahas! Whatever la... I don't know why but I just feel happy today... And I have that feeling that I still like him seyh... Hehe... Well he did nothing extraordinary to make me feel that way... He didn't do anything at all...! Hahas! I was sitting and listening to love songs on MTV... And I suddenly thought about the first time I spoke to him? Haha! I do't know what made me think about it...But it just appeared in my head! Haha! And I found myself smiling after that...-.-... Oh well at least I'm not planning to ignore that crush I have on him like I did last week...Haha! I don't know what came up to me! OMG! Tomorrow there's tuition! Shit! I hope that last week's feelings and dilemma won't come back! Eeek! I don't want!!! >.<... hahas! It sucks ok? Ok la...Gotta go now! ADIOS! ^^

Btw, today's blogskin edit...Borders at the post area...Nice not? Hahas! I loikeee.... Haha! ^^

OMG! Hahas! I just talked to my mum just now...You know WHAT?! My dad got some serious lecture from her! HAHA! He totally pissed my 2nd bro off this morning... So yea my mum say uh...No wonder your children don't like you...You always Nag! Do you like it when people nag at you when you were a youngster...And yada yada yadas.... And she said if he continues like that... None of his childrean wants to be at home if HE'S at home! Hahahaha! She shoots, and she STRIKES...GOAL! Hahas! Seriously when my father's home, we tend to find last minute plans to get out of the house.. Haha! I wasn't like that until he always make me blow up...So to prevent myself from creating sins by being angry with him... I get out of the house and ENJOY! Haha! At least I'm not 'disturbing' him...Sheesh...

But I also got a lecture? Haha! Yea my mum said uh I must try to understand him also... He actually loves his daughters more than sons since he thinks we bring luck in his life? I was like 'As if...-.-'... Haha! But somehow my mother managed to convince me... Ish... Hahas! But I don't keep that 'hate' in me uh...Angry with him today, the next day okay already... Except for that time when he LAUGHED at my beloved hamster's death! Ish cruel much...! I didn't talk to him for almost a week I think... Oh well nowadays I don't keep hatred towards anyone already... Especially after I heard BOTH guys who broke my heart got their 'retribution' already! Whee heee~! haha! So yea, let them be la...As long as they happy...I don't give a shit about them. Haha! Well I'm trying to manage my anger so I can actually like control my anger towards my dad's irritating character? Hahs! Ok ok...Bubbyes!

Juz a few more days before school reopens...Somehow or rather...These freakin' A-maths Tuition questions on Integration ARE SO TOUGH! What the freakin' hell sia... -.-... And my brain is like..SHOOT! Jammed for a while, so why not take a break huh? HAHA! Kirin...Kirin... LOL! Haiz...I can't really concentrate with this uneasy feeling in my heart...Hmm... You what? Somehow or rather...I feel unwanted and not needed by him in his life...Well these are negative thoughts...I don't know whether he's shy with me or whatever... But if he really want to ignore my existence...Then I see no need of me to carry on hoping... Well for now, only God knows huh? Hehe! So why no just keep on praying? Well I've been doing that...But I'm just sick of all these wonderful dreams I have every night coz I know it can never happen... Build up hopes and watch it crashing into rubbles when a disaster strikes? Tch... I don't know la eh... Since he's not ready for anyhing, and couldn't be bothered to know me well like what HE 'PLANNED'...I don't see why I need to take the first steps to get to know him...Well I have...Hahas! But not much...

Nahh...I'm not feeling down or disappointed at the moment...Surprisingly, this 'crush' topic no longer makes me sad or whatever, coz that hope isn't so high anymore...And I still have plenty more friends that can make me laugh...Hehe! Friends that are simply as crazy as me! Hahas! But nobody else can make me laugh the way that person does uh...Haha! Somehow or rather it feels different...LoL! Oh my god! I spent so much time blogging already! Hehe! Though I feel all better now! Whheeee~! So yea...LET'S GET BACK TO A-MATHS! ^^

Helooo...! Eyh like my blogskin or not? Hahas! How I wish the background is not just plain black..Sheesh... Niwaes...I've just added the border at the side! Wheeee~! It looks so much better now! Haha! Experimented with the codes but all fail! Haha! Except for the border thingy... That's it for today's blogskin editing! Tomorrow I'll try again! You know what? After doing this blogskin...It makes me eel like...I can do it in JC... Haha! I mean...Something so tedious...Without any guidance, I do research, try and try again to make my blogskin look super good, I finally have my OWN blogskin, which has always been my dream to create a blgskin of my own...

See if we put it in life...If I study hard and do my best to make things better for me, I CAN manage my time and all in JC and I CAN do well in eveyrthing I do! Hehe! Determination is a MUST in this case... Oh look at the time, it's already 4.30 pm... I must get going soon and start revising my work... So let's BLOG!

Last night, I had a weeiiirrrdddddd dream! I befriended Kathleen? Hahah! Ok We went out with Maizurah...I was somewhat close to her more than to Maizurah...I jus know that Maizurah got jealous and ran off like SUPER FAST! And you know how slow I run... Haha! So yea she was gone...I messaged Aiha and asked her is her sis crying or what... Haha! She didn't reply though... Then I dunno what happen I was suddenly chatting and using the webcam with my 2nd br's ex...O.o...What the...? HAhah! Weird la seyh...Meaningless dream! Haha! Oh well I guess that's all...There's like some guess in my house right now, but I'm in the room...Waddya expect? I go and chat with grannies? Haha! No thanks...-.-... Oh well...I gotta go now! Adios amigos! XD

OH! And I've just changed the cursor! You have GOT to admit that's cute! Hehe! PINK!!! XD

OH MY GOSH! DREAM COME TRUE!!! I've just completed making my own blogskin!! Wheee~! I'm 1.5 hour overschedule now! Haha! Gosh! I'm SO HAPPY!! I know it's kinda plain and boring and black. Haha! Bear with it! It just my first one...I'll do better ones AFTER 'O' Levels Examinations aites? Hahas! This is just a trial! Wheee~! I'm SO SO SO happy right now! Haha! I didn't even ask anyone for help! I just read from a website and do myself! Hahas! Independent babe! Haha! Oh well...Gotta wake up at 10 a.m. tomorrow...o.o...And I'm still awake... Hahas! Gosh I LOVE MY BLOG!!! Hehes...

Kirin...!! You're sooo flicker-minded! Hahas! I want to go JC can? Hahas! I asked my "professor's" opinion about going JC or Poly...Oh by the way, he's my 1st bro... Hahas! Got a good 'motivation lecture' that i ASKED FOR from him... He used to bore me with those and now I'm ASKING FOR them... Hahas! I wasn't matured enough to understand. LOL! He told me to go JC...You know what? Since like forever...Deep in my heart I REALLY WANT to go JC... Hehe.. I just don't have that confidence in myself...But after what my bro told me..."Nobody is born smart, but we must work hard to be smart"... It made me realise...I've been a PIG all these while! Hahaha! So yea...I'll be going JC...And work EXTRA hard...No fooling around... Hmms...

'Berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian' like the pribahasa says...

In English, "Take a raft ('berakit-rakit') upstream ('ke hulu'), then swim ('berenang-renang') dowstream ('ke tepian'), the struggling / pain ('bersakit-sakit')comes first (dahulu), the comfort ('bersenang-senang') comes later ('kemudian')"...

The meaning is 'To reach comfort, you have to first struggle'. A similar imagery would be 'first, paddle uphill, then feel the breeze downhill'... Ceyh ber-speaking sia! Hahaha!

So yea...I guess it won't harm if I don't go online to chat starting from like NOW...Monday luh that is... Just blog once a week, and get out of here! And I have like about 4 months before 'O' Levels? Eeek! Ok set, tomorrow, study A-maths and do A-maths tuition homework... Tuesday, and the subsequent days, I'll be studying chemistry since I have Sub Chem mock exam when school reopens... Don't miss me friends! Hahas! Anything just tag my blog la...I sure visit my blog one...! Hehe! I MUST GET A DEGREE and SHOW my dad that I can strive in life! Hehe! Thanks Abang Pil for your support! I'll stick to JC! Hahas! But promise me the Science tuition bro! Hahas! I don't care you married or single...I STILL NEED TUITION FOR SCIENCE!! And as I told you, I don't want last minute tuition kays? Hahas! Ok la...Gotta leh..I'm making a blogskin! Whee~! Learn myself uh! Sheesh this is like never ending much? Hahas! Ok la! Good night! I must sleep by 1.30 am and also complete the blogskin! Eeks! Ok la! BYE!

Hmmms....Should I go to Poly or JC? Hahas Still stuck with the bloody decision... Oh forget about following friends... I don't bother following any of them...I know how much they are NOT interested in Fashion Designing...! Hahas! I was talking with my sis last night and I asked her whether I should go Poly or JC...By the way she talked to me...I really really really want to go Poly!!! Hahas! She told me...

[Choosing Future Job Based On Interest]
I should go Poly...Since I have passion for Fashion...I shall strive in it. I'll have fun while earning money...Though maybe I can't earn much...But I'll love working and work willingly. Furthermore, I'm working towards my dream. If I study hard or in this case...DRAW HARD.. Hahas! Sounds wrong...Hahas! So I can actuall go for further studies in design and get a degree! Whee~! Hahas! Since I love doing it... I'll breeze through my school years... Hopefully... Hahas! And she said I can work as this dunno what uh...Go overseas, look at fashion show and see which fashion is suitable fo Singaporeans to wear...COOL~!! I WANT! Hahas! So gerek la seyh!

[Choosing Future Job Based On Earnings]
Want big bucks? Go JC and go University easily... Find jobs easily but I have no freakin' interest in them. Once they say 'Oops sorry, there will be a decline in your bonus this month'...You will be like...FUCK! All those hard work and overtime! NO BONUS??!! -.-.... Everytime you go home...CONFIRM NOT SMILING [except for pay day! Wohoo! Haha!]... And you'll be stuck with that job until the day you retire as a mum! Eeeiishh don't want! >.<...

So yea..I'm undecided! Tsk... But my sis warned me, don't overdress like the fashion design students... Hahas! Hopefully I won't... Huhu. I mean...Influenced by them? Hahas! If I join this school..confirm I will be that 'lady-like girl'... Hahas! See la...even the guy designers are...soft? hahas! Who said I wanted a designer husband??? O.o... But I know they are friendly! Hahas! And if I were to go JC...Waste my parents' money, need tuition for my science and most probably my maths to...And I'd have NO LIFE! >.<... I have no interest, so don't even hope I'll do well in JC...-.-...

And talk about designing..I DESIGNED SOMETHING AT 2.30 a.m. last night...Hahas! I was watching Hindustan, then I had an inspiration...OMG! It's my best design so far! Wheee~! I LOVE IT! I must sew it one day! Sorry...I can't post the picture online...I may not be an art student, but I can seriously draw some good fashions! Hahas! Not trying to boast or anything... Hahas! But I scared uh some people happen to take my designs, and sell them...Sheesh...I'll smack their arses! Hahas! So yea, I'll keep it to myself for now... Bubbye!

Like someone told me, it's not good to keep on changing your decisions...It's better to work towards your dreams... Hehes...I didn't expect that from him...But that is so motivating and sweet! Hahas! Since when I don't see him being sooo sweet? Oh got uh once...Oops! Hahas! One day only mah...XD

Hellooooz everyone! Happy fathers' day? Tch...I guess not. I'm like PISSED OFF by my father just a moment ago... Sheesh...Can he EVER make me smile?? Oh don't even HOPE he can make me LAUGH! -.-... Like what sia...I was talking to my brother...Not even to HIM... And he was like interruping the convo...My bro didn't mind at all by the way we speak to each other...It's like SO normal between us...I mean...like all these years seyh! And he's there to just RUIN the convo, and scold me without prior reason! What?! ARGH! So angry right now! THANK GOD HE HEARD WHAT I TOLD MY MUM JUST NOW! SHEESH! I told my mum I had no mood to even WISH him a 'Happy Fathers' Day'... But he he heard I didn't want to celebrate Fathers' Day with him...If I don't even wanna WISH...Do you think I even WANT to celebrate? -.-... Then he was like sying I talk like those UNdisciplined kids always loitering around and making such a nuisance in public... Nonsense sia...-.-... I mean it was just a casual way I speak with my bro seyh... I mean, What's With Him?? -.-... Well look on the bright side...At least this UNDISCIPLINED child of yours happens to be in the freakin' first class in her bloody school, she happens to pray every single day and hoping and trying her very BEST to be more religious, she has a bloody talent YOU NEVER APPRECIATE and she's your FREAKIN' DAUGHTER! And you know what??? I felt really hurt when you said I lok like that grandma in the show 'Congkak' just coz she had facial hair! DO YOU THINK I ASKED FOR IT?! Do you!? Huh...I thought YOU'D understand better as my FATHER and not mock me about it! You know? Without mum, I'd NEVER think I'm beautiful, ESPECIALLY if YOU are around. That's not the first time you insult my looks. Why can't you be more like mum? I' ve tried my best to show you that I love you, but you keep on pissing me off... Haiz...I don't know Ayah... I'm just tired of crying because of you... I know my siblings read my blog... Memang adik tak pernah kene pukul... But don't think he has never demoralise me before... He's so proud of Abang Pil when he sew something... And when I sew something and sewing happens to be PART OF MY PASSION AND DREAMS...He just said...Tch! Your brother can sew better!...FINE. Sickening sia I'm crying again...Haiz... I'll show you Ayah, with Mama by my side guiding me through life, I'll show you how important it is to be religious, I'll show you I'll be a fashion designer one day and I'll prove to you that I'LL BE THAT CHILD OF YOURS TO MAKE YOU PROUD WITH THE STINKIN' DEGREE IN MY HANDS! And I'm sorry Ayah for being the most rebellious among all of your children... I guess I must control my anger if I don't wanna end up to be like you... And I'm sorry I don't like to be part of the music industry when I grow up coz I HATE to be a singer like you want me to be.

Oh well, I guess that's all....Hmmm blogging always bring a smile back to my face! Hehes! I feel all better now. I don't expect any freakin' lectures from anyone ok? Hahas! I just needed to let my feelings free...Since I hate to share these kind of problems with family members...I'll end up getting scolded. Actually I hate to share any kind of problems with my family members coz I'll either end up getting lectured or pissed off. So yea, I'd rather blog! Wheee~! hahas! Ok la! Bubbyes! ^^

OH! And bubbyes Abang Pil!! I'll miss you when you go for your reservice! ^^ Huhu macam paham tak menjadi? Hahas!

To think that I could actually trust a guy's word! Oh gosh...How could I be so stupid...Nah it has nothing to do with me la... Hahas! I totally got 2 different stories from this couple... I wasn't on ANYBODY'S SIDE! -.-... Why should I be? None of my business seyh...I HAVE MY OWN BLARDY BUSINESS! Haha! But just now, I really found out who's the one with this freaking HIGH ego... And toying with the other party's feelings! Why blame each other and furthermore...MAKE UP STORIES to ME?? As if I give a damn hell about it....-.-... It's YOUR relationship...Not mine... So yea...Ermmm...I don't care? -.-.... Only cowards blame girls for everything! And talks like a hero behind her back you know? I'm so disappointed in you...Sheesh...-.-...

When there is no trust, it is better not to love at all. When there is no compromising between the couple, it is better to just end it all.
Why bother to even lie to the people around you about who's the cause of the downfall right? It's over. So...The more you don't care...The MORE the people around you don't care. Hahaha!

And me, I will try my best to keep this love I have for him strong, until the day he tells me, we're just not meant to be. I don't mind if he breaks my heart. But I'll have a guilt 'till the day I die if I break his heart. I know that coz...I bought him this so-the-not-nice tasting chocolates [OMG I'M SOOO SORRY coz i was broke that time!! >.<] for his birthday which was...2 MONTHS AGO...And I'm still feeling guilty about it! OMG! Yea so the plan is, after 'O' Levels, I'll buy him a box of original Ferrero Roche....OMG I don't know how much longer I can tahan this guilt la seyh... Hahas! But I won't pass to him personally...DUH~! Haha! I'll pass to my friend ferst of coz! Haha! Ok la that's all... This song is dedicated to him by the way... Hehe! XD

By the way... I've JUST REALISED that I have 303 posts! Wheee~! Hahas! So many posts la seyh! So happy! Blogger Queen Reen! Hahas!

Like Mother. Like Daughter? Hahas!


Ermmm....Emo much? Haha! Pose je...
Like a crazy girl also can seyh... Haha!


Fiqry is SO cute!


Keep on Smiling! ^^

Ok here's the freakin' plan for today...Since I like to study starting from the evening...I KNOW I can't study now...Coz my mind will be all over the place...So I've decided to start going online in the DAY when I know all my friends are only online at NIGHT, so I can resist chatting with them! Hehe! So now I'll just go online to blog and edit some pictures and I'll go off soon to study... Hehes! Kirin study? Wow whee..Hahah! Shut up. XD

Like OMG...I slept like around almost 5 am last night...Giler much? Haha! I woke up around 1.30 p.m... Straight away go and take a shower...Then I used my Neutrogena Whitening Mask that my sis bought for me at Vivo the other day... I think it has slightly reduced my dark circles! Yay! Hahas! Suddenly today my eyelids are SO thick! -.-... Not enough sleep much? Hahas! I was having fun editing pictures la... No big deal what...I WAS chatting with my siblings... Hahas! My second bro and my sis... My second bro didn't even sleep...-.-... OMG! Baby Taz is soooo cuddly when you sleep with it! Hehe! But so round uh...Abit irritating... Hahah! My blue teddy still the best! Hahas! So far what have I done? I asked Khairin how to make a blogskin...Too bad I don't have that Macromedia Fireworks... I'm seriously desperate to make a bloody freakin' blogskin la sia! Hahas! I have Adobe Photoshop, but Khairin doesn't know much about that software...But thanks niwaes Khairin! ^^


Oh and here are the pictures I edited VERY EARLY in the morning... Haha! At about 2.30-4 a.m... And I'm gonna edit MORE! Most probably around 5 before I go off? Hehes...Freak. LoL! Hobby mah...What to do... And I seriously have no inspirations to design fashions right now... Haha! So... Toodles! Lets just say...Be right back? Hahas! Coz I'll be posting the edited pictures very soon...! ^^ Thanks Diy for recommending this website to me! Whee~! I love it!! Hahas!





I Edited This One For My Sis...


Kirin is SO giler... XD


My Best Editing So Far...I LOVE IT! XD


Edited for Diyana...


I was just getting used to that editing website...
So, nothing special here.