I'mSorryI Can'tBePerfect

If Only You Could See That I'm Trying.
Sunday, 30 November 2008;5:14 am
Helo darlings.
5.14 am liao... Haahaa! my mum's gonna kill me! =X
I've been busy making a new blogskin,
with my beloved Kak Yaya...!
Gosh this is frustrating. Haha!
Anyway, I'll update as soon as we're done ok?
For now, my blog won't be updated. =)
[I think... Hahaha!]

I miss someone like TO THE MAX. =(
Saturday, 29 November 2008;10:32 pm
01. What have you been doing recently?
> Sneezing, Chatting, Dreaming.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
> Always, coz I'm always lazy to charge it. xD

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
> I was dreaming about David Archuleta. Sleeping la! xD

04. When did you last cry?
> Sunday[23.11.08]

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
> Yeah.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
> Mr F? LOL!!

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
> umbrella!

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
> My Blue Teddy Bear! I LOVE IT! xD

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
> This is embarassing...Junyuan track pants. xD

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
> Sorry hunns, my inbox is empty. xD

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
>Nehh...

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
> All mine.

13.What was the last movie you caught?
> High School Musical 3

14. What are you proud of?
> I've finished my O-Levels!! LoL!

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
> Deleted already! Haha!

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
> Air Mata Ibu by Siti Nurhaliza

17. Do you have any nicknames?
> ALOT! Margareen, Kirin, Syakirin, Reen

18. What does your last received text message say?
> Anyone wants to go out with me tomorrow?

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
> 1 million dollar question. 6.15 a.m.! ^^

20. Are you currently happy?
> NO! Coz I miss Mr F!

21. Who gives you best advice?
> My Girlfriends!

22. Do you eat whipped cream out of a can?
> Tried like ages ago? xD

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
>I hate to talk on the phone! xD

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
>Yes! My cat, Mehk Ehk is asking to be scratched! -.-

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
>Zulaiha! xD

26. Do you wear toe socks?
>Yes!

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
> Nobody called me! xD

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
> TALK ABOUT IT! Like recently? LOL.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
>Flirtatious and MEAN.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
>Was that even a question?? DUH! xD

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
>Everyday! HAHA! Just kidding. -.-

32. What is the colour of your room?
> Stripy pink!

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
>I'd be hang to death! Who wants?! -.-

34. Do you believe in the saying : talk is cheap?????
> No clue about it. xD

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
>I don't have a bed! Haha!

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
> my mum I think... LOL!

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
> Yea! A lot of em saw me kissing Fiqry! LoL! My nephew bodoh! -.-

38. Do you have a life?
> If I don't, I'm dead right now. =)

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
> No?

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
> I sing it for my dad! xD

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
> David Archuleta

42. Last time you smiled?
> Just a moment ago!

43. Have you changed this year?
>Hahas! ALOT.

44. What are you listening right now?
> The sound of the keyboard. xD

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
> Only chatting online.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
> closed. Like DUH. O.O

47. Is there a quote you live by?
> Yes! Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder! xD

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
> Such as Justin Timberlake? If so, then yes. xD

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
> Yeap!

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
> Ermm...Slit my wrist? I DIDN'T DO IT THOUGH! xD

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
>Chatting I think.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
> Haha err...it's one-sided. I'm still single hunny. xD

53. What song best describe your love life?
> Come Home Soon..."I Think I'm FALLING IN LOVE!" xD

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
> I think so...HOPEFULLY!! ^^ haha!

55. Who always make you laugh?
> My mother! xD

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
> Malay!

57. Favourite website(s)?
> http://www.blogger.com/!! OH! http://www.torn-apart-in-silence.blogspot.com/

58. What's your middle name?
> Binti? LoL! Nur Assyakirin Binti Mohamed Salleh. Yeap that's middle alright. xD

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
> Day-dream, sleep, sing

60. What do you think you are like?
> An owl. Coz I sleep late! LoL!

61. Who will you choose to die with?
> My dignity! ^^

62. Where have you been today?
> Tampines Interchange

63. What game do you play often?
> SIMS Life Stories

64. Who are you missing right now?
> Muhd F!!! xD

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
> family! Haha friends la...!

66. What are you doing right now?
> Eating and doing this lame survey.

67. Which primary school are you from?
> East View Primary School (EVPS)

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
> Black, Pink & Orange

69. What emotion you like to show?
> Happy & emo

70. What is your life to you?
> EVERYTHING! ^^

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
> BLOG about it! ^^

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
> Zulaiha... ^^

73. Who do you admire most??
> Siti Nurhaliza!! ^^

74. Which month are you born in?
> October

75. How are you feeling right now?
> Happy..^^

76. What is the time now?
>11:12 PM

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
> Funny, crazy and...MONEY MINDED! xD

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
> I SO won't dye my hair!

79. Why are you doing this test?
> That Shi Chang's fault lah! Haha! I'm doing it coz he's my BESTFRIEND!

80. What do you do when you're moody?
> Throw tantrums easily. xD And also cry

81. At which age you wish to get married?
> Hopefully at 27

82. Who is more important to you?
> Family & Friends

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
> Beg for forgiveness from everyone that I know.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
> Nobody.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
> Yeap!

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
> To be with Mr F as a married couple in PARIS
and me as a fashion designer!! xD

87. What is your goal for this year?
> Breeze Through O-Levels

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
> Nehh... xD

89. What feeling do you love most?
> In love coz it leads to happiness!

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
> Was that even a question? DUHHH~! xD

91. What feeling do you hate most?
> Whenever I have PMS, and I become sensitive.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
> Yeap!

93. Do you believe in God?
> Allah Almighty! ^^

94. Who cares for you most?
> Family and friends!

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
> Family and friends!

96. What will you bring when you fight?
> A dagger! Haha! Joking la! Only my fist! xD

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
> Putting aside my religion.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
> Depressed like TOOTS.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
> Been there, done that. I did the same shit to him. xD And BROKE UP.

100. How do you feel now?
> COLD. I'm sitting so close to the air-con! xD

Hmm aiya I only tag Aiha la... Hahas! Lazy uh wanna tag people... xD
;5:33 pm
Guess what? I slept at 6.30 am today.
After I prayed, then I slept.
The next thing I know, it was already 2.45 pm... xD
I was half alive. I dreamt about... David Archuleta? Haha!
He was cute la but..since when I even listen to his song? xD
Ok, whatever with David Archuleta. xD
My head is spinning around. X_x
Not enough sleep? LoL!
Before I sleep, I watch Siti's video...
She made the song 'Cahaya Cinta' just for her
beloved Dato' K. -.-...Haha!
So...When I woke up,
I suddenly had this song in my head...
My song uh... For my beloved Mr F? LOL! LOL! LOL!
Hahahaha! It's a love song...It's lovely actually.
No kidding. Not self praise la..
I say the song nice, not my voice. Haha!
No music, since I can't play any music. [Pathetic siot! LoL!]
The name of the song is "Rinduku Buat Kekasihku"
Ceyhhhh~! Hahaha! If ONLY...
I can let him hear... Hehe...
He will be the 1st person, I make a song for! =)
He'd be so touched right??? LOL!
Damn itttt I miss himmm! Haha!
The song will NOT be uploaded. Hehe!
Coz it's only for my sweetheart's ears. =P
Maybe later I'll blog again?
I'm going out to meet Aiha now! BYE!!! ^^

And now is 9.25 pm...I'm blogging again.
Went out with Aiha already...
For a while only luh...
I bought another gift for Nadia...
Sheesh girl, I feel so guilty for buying you only 2 gifts! xD
Anyway, now we're fair! Your birthday card is on it's way! ^^
Your beloved Taufik is coming to East Point on the 14 of December!
So far one...At least,
HADY IS COMING ON THE 13 of DECEMBER!!
At TAMPINES!! ^^ I am SO going! Haha!
IF I'm free on that day luhh...
Should be free since I'm not working...
Aiha was like sarcastic sia today... Haha!
We went to look for her blouse...
Got it. It was pink. My choice! Haha!
Hrmms... No mood to blog long2 luh today.
Today I mistook 4 people for him...
Ahhh! I really miss him!! -.-


Now almost everyone has dyed hair.
To be frank, I hate people with dyed hair. -.-
Typical siaa.... -.-
I like people with natural hair colours. Hehe!
Who said you can't look good with your own hair colour?
Mr F still looks hot with black hair! xD
Not sure about now though...Maybe it's coloured too? xD
;4:29 am
It's 4.29 a.m. and I'm blogging. Blog freak. LOL!
Urmm I did this scrapblog.
So why not put it at my blog huh? ^^
CHEERS! Good err...Night? Morning?
Up to you lah... xD


Friday, 28 November 2008;11:08 pm
FREAKIN' pissed off~!!!!!
AAAAAAAARRGGHHHHH~!!!! ^*(%#^&#!
I went to the STUPID sewing course, JUST to be sent HOME.
F*** la bodohhhhh...!!!!
Imagine, SHE told me to only draw the F***ING SKIRT.
In the end, I was SCOLDED because
I didn't draw the sleeve and the blouse!
And SHE put the f***ing blame on ME! WTF DID I DO?
I WAS JUST FOLLOWING YOUR DUMB ASS INSTRUCTIONS!
And the next thing I know, I didn't bring enough fabric! ARGH!
And they told me to buy so many fuckin' shits.
Which cost WAY more than it is outside!
CON MY MONEY BODOHHHH~!
SHE didn't tell me to bring those stuffs before this,
AND she BLAMES ME for not BRINGING these shits! F*** OFF LA! -.-

My mood was SO destroyed la sak!....-.-
At home, watch Spongebob Squarepantis Atlantis.
After praying, went to Geylang.
Those bitches close their shops so early! -.-
Mum bought me purple satin...
And she also bought this blue flowery fabric.
She wants me to sew Baju Kurung for her later...
Owhh cool. But not now though.
I had fun going out with JUST my mum. =)
We joked alot! Mum bought me this GORGEOUS white long skirt.
Thanks mum! ^^
Then saw Aiha in the bus with her mum & ?Aisyah?
I dunno how to spell her younger sister's name. xD
That CUTTTTEEE chubby girl! Haha!
WITH THAT ADORABLE VOICE! ^^
Anyway, I don't wanna be a singer already.
I'll just waste my parents' money lahh...

Can't live by singing in Singapore...
I'd rather be a designer. =)
So yeah...Nothing else to be said. That's all.
Oh I saw Bobo too just now!
I thought she didn't see me! Hehe!
And I think I saw someone I didn't wanna see... He's in red? LoL.
Like, who cares... -.-

And last night, I have a beautiful dream with F. Hehe.
We were like at the beach...
Like awww....! Hahaha! I MISS HIM! =(
;7:24 pm
As promised, here's my recordings.
Nothing special leh...
If don't like then, just shut up la... Hehe!
Coz it's actually for my parents... Not for all of you. =P
They love it, so I don't care if you peepz out there hate it aites? =)
I'll blog again tonight! BYE!


Airmata Ibu (Cover) - Nur Assyakirin

Kesetiaan (Cover) - Nur Assyakirin
Thursday, 27 November 2008;8:51 pm
Today, went out with my sis, Maizurah!
Well it was like SO fun.
So long never see each other!
Miss you la sis!! Hehe!
Went to Pasir Ris, White Sands.
Took neoprints! Both of us wore black scarf!
We look so decent and of coz...PRETTY uh. Haha!
We had fun la...Ate at KFC.
Saw Joyce in MRT. Then wasted time at Tampines.
Went home around 7.15 p.m....
Pictures will be uploaded when I feel like it ok?
Now, I must complete a lame survey,
coz I'm tagged by someone called... ZULAIHA. -.-
THANKS AIHA. not.


1. Do you have secrets?
Obviously la kan? -.-

2. Would you fall in love with someone younger than you?
I'd rather remain single! xD

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
Gossip, joke, perform, err anything apart from studying/learning. ^^

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
SHOPPING, donate, use the money to meet Siti Nurhaliza!!
And also, give 1/4 to my beloved parents! =)
OH YA! GO PARIS!!! ^^

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
My bestfriend? OMG! I'd be a lesbian! xD
Sorry hunns, I got no guy bestfriend! =P

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
obviously being loved! =P

7. Who do you idolise?
Siti Nurhaliza Bt Tarudin Bin Ismail!! =))
I SAYANG SITI BANYAK2!!!

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
First I cry, then I move on luh... He's not like the last guy on earth... -.-

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yeap! When I found out what Mr F said about me! ^^!!! [HEAVEN Oii! xD]

10. Do you have any regrets?
Yeap.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Engaged and a successful business woman. ^^

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family, and friends. And Siti Nurhaliza. =P

13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?
AIHA. Irritating coz she tagged me. xD
Apart from that she's caring and very fun to be with! ^^
Oh ya very sarcastic too. =P

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor...Maybe my kids can help me when they grow up? =P

15. What is your favourite colour?
Black and pink and orange.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Like no way seyhh...xD

17. What would you do if someone whom you hate ask for your forgiveness?
Forgive that person. =)

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Forgive..but how to forget seyh?

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Being single! For now uh...Hehehe.

20. 6 people I have tagged:
Don't wanna force...Put name also you sure won't do one...-.-

It's almost a month since I last saw you...
But it feels like a year...
My heartbreak was cured by just looking at your picture...=)
I wish I can see you again soon...
Your smile is breath-taking. =)
;1:17 am
So as promised, here's my music video! Haha!
Kesetiaan, by Nur Assyakirin. xD
NOT Siti Sarah yea? =)
And that IS my voice...-.-
Sorry la I couldn't really sing that well as...
It is a malay song. xD
ADIOS!! Enjoy the video darlings! =)
And comment/rate it uhh if you're free...PLEASE! xD


Wednesday, 26 November 2008;10:23 pm
Helo wassup?! ^^
I was thinking about cutting my hair just now...
To think again...NAHH~!
I love my not so long, not so short hair! Hehe!
Anyway, didn't do much today apart from slacking.
Slept at 5.15 a.m....Woke up at 1.15 p.m....
In other words, I'm like an owl. xD
I actually got a homework to do from sewing course...
But nehh I guess I'll do it tomorrow,
and go to the class on Friday instead.
So just now, I gave myself a makeover...
Then I made my own MUSIC VIDEO!! Hehe!
On Kesetiaan.... Like not that AWESOME uh...
It's cool coz I made the video all by myself!
Without any help! ^^
I'll put it online soon aites?
Well now, I need to go and have some fun in Singapore! Haha!
BYE2! Maybe I'll go online around 12 a.m...? Or maybe not?
Who knows? Who cares? BYE!!
Might have a 'meeting' with Maizurah tomorrow. HEHE. xD
;3:04 am
Oh my gawdddd!!!
I tried to on my recording and listen to imeem at the same time.
I listen to Air Mata Ibu by Siti Nurhaliza...
It's like, WE'RE SINGING TOGETHER!! ^^
Awww...I love you Kak Siti!! =))
Though some parts I TOTALLY sing my own way.
Hehe I can't reach some of the high notes.
I mean...COME ON.
Who can challenge DATO' SITI NURHALIZA??! xD
I really hope to sing with her one day... Hehe!
Because of THIS dream...
I must try to be a singer...
But becoming a singer in Malaysia is so...Wha..? xD
I'm SO not good at singing Malay songs laa... -.-
Nobody would even BUY my album... Haha!
Malay songs are WAY tougher than English songs...
So many ups and downs... Easily out of breath! -.-
Even the uncle said I ate too much cheese.
In other words, I have this slang... Like so English type. xD

I remember 2 years ago...
I record songs using my MP3, and let him hear...
One day I said I was recording...He thought I went for recording.
Then he found out I wasn't and he was like... -.-...
And now, I really went for recording. Hahas!
We're just acquaintances now... I'm WAY over him la oii...-.-
That was SO sec 2...! But I'm still wondering...
Did he really cried upon hearing the song I serenade to him?
Very hard to believe coz I got PUNKED by him,
but can be believed coz he was freakin' emo laa seyh. xD

When they see our picture...All they see is a perfect couple...
When I see our picture...All I know is we'll never be together...
And I'm so tempted to let you hear my Kesetiaan recording...
It's like...For you? xD
Achhh forget it. -.-
;12:03 am
Today is the BEST day of my life.
[I realised I always say that... But today IS the day! xD]
My dreams turned into reality all thanks to my beloved parents! =)
In the day, went to my sewing course around 3 pm...
Like cool or what?! I HAD FUN! Hehe!
Okay luh if you have interest then it would be fun uh...
No interest, I bet you'll be asleep halfway through! Haha!
The room was freezing! xD
I was actually ignored at first, the teachers were too busy.
First lesson was about measurements and drawing.
For the first time, so many people envied my body! -.-
When Auntie Betsy[the teacher] took my body measurement,
she told Auntie Ati[2nd teacher] about it.
She was like 'wahh so sexy seyh body figure!' HAHAHA! xD
Then this student quite big sized also liked my body! LOL!
Like...Uh-huh... O.o... Haha!
Around 5.30 pm had to get out of that place A.S.A.P!
Kinda late for my recording session at the studio.
My dad said it starts at 6 pm... Hehe.

Went with my parents and Fiqry.
COOL! I wasn't late! Haha! xD
The place was secluded in the factory area in Eunos.
Scary place. xD
Then got 'attacked' by a swarm of flies! OMG! I was like AHHHHHH~! xD
Seriously, I hate flying things in a group!
Like a flock of bird, a swarm of bees[who's not scared of that??! xD], etc.
BUT for butterfly/moth, just one tiny fluttering stuff,
can make me scream my lungs out! HAHA! [The secret's out. xD]

The studio was err...Messy. HAHA!
The toilet was eerie! =X
Then I saw the place... NICEEEE...
Haha a lot of buttons and weird devices and musical instruments.
A LOT of guitars. xD
I was kinda nervous as I didn't memorise the lyrics. xD
My dad was seriously controlling his patience. HAHA!
Coz I was told earlier to memorise my lyrics. xD
At least that uncle didn't scold me.
He's Razzi M, one of the band members of Black Dog Bone.
My uncle's band. So yea...DISCOUNT. xD
And he's close to my dad...So, lucky me! xD
Y0u know what's his nickname? Izzar.
Haha he simply just turned his name the other way around. xD
He was so funny and sooooo patient! ^^
I sang Kesetiaan by Siti Sarah, dedicated to my mother.
She requested for that.
And also Air Mata Ibu by Siti Nurhaliza, dedicated to my father.
Ironically. HAHA! My dad realllyyyy wanted me to sing that.
Well at least I can make him happy right? =)
My dad took lots of pictures of me.
But I didn't look good! Gahhh! -.-
Well not to my expectations uh. Hehe.

I said he's patient coz...
One part of Air Mata Ibu..."untuk dewasakan ku"...
I took like 1/2 hour or even MORE to get it perfect? xD
He told me to go down...I still go up. HAHA.
IT WAS SO DIFFICULT! -.-...
That's the FIRST time I say singing is difficult.
I got a little frustrated, but I think HE was more frustrated. So I shut up. xD
He was so fed up that he went in that sound proof room,
and took the guitar to help me with that part.
I could sing, but when there's song, I couldn't. LOL.
After I heard Siti sing that part for like 3 times, then I got it.
I think at that point, I seriously made his day. xD
We totally re-recorded that part again and AGAIN,
for like err...11-13 times? Or more? LOL!
I was like... TIRED of that part of the song already. xD
But end result was superb. =)
Thanks to my 'vocal trainer'... HAHA!
One word to describe this man. PERFECTIONIST. xD

I sang Kesetiaan with all my heart.
Coz it kinda suits my situation right now...Hehs.
Very sad song laa... I'll upload it soon.
I need to change the format to MP3 first.
I have no time for that now. =)
The whole thing took me around 3 and half hours?
And cost my parents $50. Awww thanks! =)
And that uncle wanted to offer me something...
He wants me to be part of his band...
Sing during marriage ceremony. Get very little pay though.
He didn't tell me. He told my dad.
My dad strongly rejects that idea. Hahaha!
He said it was low class... LOL.

That uncle also offered me to have vocal lessons with him.
I think got discount also... Hahas.
Isn't it cool? Vocal class and sewing course.
What I've always wanted. Haha!
My parents are asking me about this vocal lesson.
They agree if I join any singing competition after hearing my voice.
The uncle said I was very good at pitching! COOL~! Haha!
Heyy not that easy okaayy...? Haha!
But I'm still thinking about it...
I'm not sure about making singing my career.
If I don't end up being a singer, I'll just waste my parents' money.
I'm VERY sure about my designing career.
That's why I REALLY want that $330 sewing course!
And also a sewing machine! ^^ But haven't got yet. xD
So let me think about it...
People WANT me to be a singer...
But do I really want to be one?
It WAS my aspiration when I COULDN'T sing.
Now, when I can sing, I have doubts about it. xD
Ok la...Pictures and songs will be uploaded other times aites?
Toodles! And Aiha is the first friend who got to listen to my recording! ^^

My 2 fans are in Genting uhh... Ain & Diy! Hehe! xD
Monday, 24 November 2008;11:53 pm
Wheeee~! I had fun shopping at JB today.
Ate at Kota Raya food court...
Hmm that place has some serious renovations. Hahs.
So full la eat there! Haha! *burp*
Hehe! I suddenly gain back my appetite.
Due to the GREAT news I found out in the morning, around 2 a.m.
For me to know, for you NOT to find out. Hehe!
Wanted to buy Far Away perfume at AVON.
The BEST smelling perfume. ^^
But no money lah that moment... Pathetic. -.-
Mum bought me this gorgeous blouse from First Lady.
RM 29.95... Thanks mumzies! Hehe! It's so pretty. Hehe!
When I wear scarf, she tends to buy me these Muslimah's clothings.
Haha! That's the BEST part. xD
Then went to City Square...
bought lots of stuff...Lazy want to tell. xD
Mum bought me Kenny Rogers Coleslaw! YUMMY! =P
Well kinda pissed off with my dad. [As usual]
He's so irritating la kan... -.-
Well my plans are brought to tomorrow.
So tomorrow, there's recording and sewing course!
So need to sleep now!
ADIOS AMIGOS! Ouh I bought a 'Ray Ban' shades.... HOT! xD
Sunday, 23 November 2008;9:11 pm
It's so not fair!!
When Siti launched her new album, she wasn't in Singapore!!
When are you coming back here??!
I don't care, the next concert she has here,
I'm gonna dig out my bank and all,
spend ALL my money, JUST to see my idol!
Hehe! Coz I suddenly miss seeing her on TV.
And her songs blows me away suddenly!
She's MY angel! Haha!
To tell you the truth, actually I'm only her fan uh...
I'm not interested in any other singers actually.
JUST Siti Nurhaliza! Hehe!
And my only wish now...
Is to meet her... ONLY that.
Damn it she cancelled her website. I need updates!! -.-
If anybody knows her new website or anything... TELL ME! xD
Ok la..randomness... And Bobo seriously shcoked me
by sending THAT picture. Haha! Of all pictures babe... xD

My mood states...OVERJOYED.
Okay2 now, I shall not blog too personal stuffs,
especially about my new crush! HAHAHA! xD
[OMG! He accepted my friend request!] Haha!
I'm so happy! Haha! Don't get any wrong idea though...
I have no plans about getting a boyfriend here...! Haha!
You should know this person...
Coz he's SO HOT. [Dude I swear I love your eyes and your smile! xD]
Oh yea, he knows that I think he's hot. HAHA!
And I'm so proud to let him know that! xD
That's all you should know about him!

Ugh...4th day, still lots of it...
Not enough nutrition.
Blackout.
Had to eat Panadol Menstrual. SUCKS. -.-
Blackout, frequent heartburn and one major heartburn.
What's next?
Speak of the devil... One headache coming RIGHT UP! -.-
;6:32 pm
Yes it's me again.
Expect me to blog like everytime when I'm sad. Haha!
Why must I keep on being sad about him huh?
Hahas! Okay I just found out something!
Not all French people speaks French!! Haha!
Eh cool ar like that! Haha!
The MORE I wanna stay single...! xD
I think French people are hottt..! Haha!
and OF COURSE. Romantic...! ^^
I got 3 dream guys in my head...

Like OBVIOUSLY I won't get...They are...
Michael Buble, Justin Timberlake and Brad Pitt.
Let's take their characteristics that I like yea...
Micheal Buble, OMG! If ONLY I can find a guy with that SEXY voice.
I SO love that low tone voice la...! Seriously makes me go coo-koo! XD
So we'll be a perfect singing duet! haha!
Haha I want a guy who can sing la...Especially Jazz songs. [Melts!] xD
But if you can't sing it's ok... Too bad for me then. haha!
Justin Timberlake...THOSE MOVES! haha!
So hot! He's sizzlin'! LoL!
and I love that cute voice and looks and HOT body. xD
Brad Pitt, need I say more, he's HOT in general! haha!

Overall, I'm more into performing people,
then sporty people. One reason I do not agree
with my friends about hot soccer players. Euh... xD
Don't care you perform in whatever uh...
Even if you play the instrument to entertain people,
that's like IMPRESSIVE!
That's why I like to sing. I like to entertain people that way.
It's passion and interest. =)

Sometimes I question myself...
I dislike Malays so much...
Since like...FOREVER...
Can I get someone who's not a Malay as a husband one day?
But a Muslim of course... MUST be.
And in your eyes... Is it wrong for me to NOT mix with Malay,
when in fact, I'm one of them.
And am I called a racist, because I dislike my own race?
Will I be charged for it? haha!
It's difficult to influence a person to convert into a Muslim.
So I have to think twice about disliking Malays THAT much. xD
I'll end up being single all my life. HAHA!

OH YES! The number 1 thing I like about anyone and SO ENVY bout it!
BIG EYES!! Don't care boy or girl la...
My eyes are small!!! Haha!
That's the reason why I'm always mistaken for a chinese. xD
A tanned chinese or what? xD
And fair skin is SUPER envied.
Because I'm actually fair! But I grow up to be dark!!
Sheeeeesh! xD
Those LUCKY girls to be fair! haha!

And I also wonder...Is this insomnia really coz of my heartbreak...?
I think not... I think I might be too happy.
Haha! Coz of someone else la... =)
How cool is this... At first,
I do not believe in Love at First Sight...
Now it's happening to me. Haha!
It's called...MOVING ON. Haha!
Don't worry, Mr I knows about it. I told him myself. Haha!
Coz I think he'll be happier if he knows,
I do not have a crush on him anymore. =)
I used to believe that Hatred Can Change Into Love.
It happens to me twice. And both ends with hatred in the end.
So that 'believe' is striked off my mind.
I don't care if people think I blog too long...
Coz I didn't create this blog for people to read.
I created it so I can let my feelings out.
If people wanna read and complain,
I suggest you leave my blog, and read the newspaper.
It's more interesting. [I think.. I don't read. Haha!]

Oh ya! My sewing course is like for a while only seyh.
Should I work after that??
I REALLY wanna be a model for malay traditional clothes.
Either that or some jobs that allow me to speak to public.
NOT Food & Beverages. IT SUCKS.
I wanna be more outspoken. But still shy. Haha!
Hey! I served people quite well when I worked at Polar okay?
See? I know when I should and shouldn't be shy! ^^
ESPECIALLY DURING SALES!! Wohoo~!
You SO have to ask the salesgirls TONNES of things!
Is this 3 for $10?! OMG, YOU SERIOUS OR SOMETHING?! xD
Hahahas! Typical Kirin. LOL! I become a maniac during sales.
Asking for prices is NEVER a problem. xD
[not in wet market though... Euh! So smelly! xP]
The summary is..I DO NOT need social courses!
And for saying that to me, that is SO mean. -.-
Eh shouldn't there be another Great Singapore Sale for the end of year?
THE HAS TO BE!!! OH! Christmas Sale!!! I SO must go for that!!
Haha! Shopping at Orchard sucks like *toots* though... xD
;5:22 pm
These songs in my blog...Simply stab me in the heart.
I think during prom,
it wasn't the food that sucks...
I simply had no appetite.
Until yesterday...Hahas.
I know my friends were so concern about me not eating.
It's not diet la... Come on la seh. Haha!
And they really forced me to eat the other day! xD
But I just don't feel like eating.
And when I eat, I'll feel nausea for no reason.
And to add on to that, now I have insomnia. -.-
I try to sleep earlier than usual now,
which is around 1-2...Before this it was 4-5. Hehe!
And I can take almost an hour, just to sleep.
Too much trouble in my mind and heart. I mean it.
Symptoms of a broken heart? Hahas!
Well whatever it is, it better stop soon.
Coz it doesn't do me any good!
I WANT to eat and I WANT to sleep.
I just CAN'T! -.-
I wish time can be reversed.
I wish it wouldn't have ended this way...

to all my friends... Thank you so much for your concern...
Even from those whom I don't expect... =)
Thanks for those posts you guys made for me...
Thanks to you people, I feel needed in this world. =)
Saturday, 22 November 2008;7:15 pm
Shy is a personality that makes me who I am.
Shy is a personality I like in every person.
Shy also leads to modesty.
Most of us are born shy.
Some of us grow out of it.
While some, choose to live with it.
Some people, like me,
knows when to be shy, and when to be outspoken.
But if I'm looking for someone I should love.
I hope that person is shy too.
At least I shall not worry about getting timed AGAIN.
And thank you for showing me, that you're not that person...
And you do not like shy people like me. =)
And dearest, I will NOT change and be an outspoken person coz of you. =)
And here's a WONDERFUL reason why I prefer to be shy.
Important bits are in BOLD and underlined by me. hehe.
Thanks Aiha! =)
adapted from... http://www.missionislam.com/knowledge/Haya.htm

"Haya itself is derived from the word hayat which means life. This term covers a wide number of concepts. In English, it may be translated as modesty, shyness, self-respect, bashfulness, shame, honour, humility, etc. The original meaning of Haya according to a believer's nature, refers to a bad and uneasy feeling accompanied by embarrassment, caused by one's fear of being exposed or censured for some unworthy or indecent conduct. Islamically Haya is an attribute which pushes the believer to avoid anything distasteful or abominable. It keeps him/her from being neglectful in giving everyone what is due upon them, and if for any reason he/she is not able to keep up with his/her commitment then they will feel extremely uncomfortable and ashamed about this. The reason being that he/she will have displeased Allah by breaking a commitment.

Haya plays a huge role in the lives of Muslims because it is a very important part of our Iman (faith/belief). If we do not have any form of haya within us then it is most likely that our Iman is very weak. For as it states in the following hadith:


Narrated by Abu Huraira (ra): The Prophet said, "Faith (Belief) consists of more than sixty branches (i.e. parts). And Haya is a part of faith." (Bukhari)

We also learn from the Prophet (saws) the importance of having haya and how it is not something to be ashamed of, but instead, one should be concerned and ashamed if they do not possess it within their character. Narrated Abdullah ibn Umar (ra): The Prophet (saws) passed by a man who was admonishing his brother regarding Haya and was saying, "You are very shy, and I am afraid that might harm you." On that, Allah's Apostle said, "Leave him, for Haya is (a part) of Faith." (Bukhari)

Now the above hadith is also a form of proof that "shyness" is not just something regarding women but also an attribute that believing men should have, for it is an indication if their fear of Allah and an indication of the value of their Deen.

If these natural instincts of shyness and shame are taken by the smart parent and nurtured, it will develop and affect their entire character and also most importantly lead to a conscious responsible Muslim who prioritise their life towards submission to Allah (swt)."
[AND I thank my parents for bringing me up this way and grow up to be a shy girl!]

[AND READ THESE... I DO NOT need SOCIAL COURSE Mr I! -.-] Because...
"We often find that shyness, humility and bashfulness is frowned upon by our society as a weakness or a lack of confidence when, Infact these are quality of a dignified upright human being, who is conscious of their actions and their responsibilities in life.

Modesty (haya) and maintaining one's honour and dignity are of primary importance in preserving the moral fibre of any society. This is why modesty has been called the ornament of a woman, which protects her from many sins and which prevents ill-intentioned men from daring to have bad thoughts about her. This haya has been made a part of her nature to safeguard her from being abused by immoral men."

Firstly Allah loves Haya. We know this by the following hadith: " Surely Allah (is One who) has haya and is the Protector. He loves haya and people who cover each others faults."(Bukhari)

Secondly, Haya itself is a Greatness of Islam as our Prophet indicated: "Every way of life has a innate character. The character of Islam is haya." Or "Every Deen has an innate character. The character of Islam is modesty (haya)." (Abu Dawood)

Thirdly, Haya only brings good and nothing else. Our Prophet (saw) said: "Haya does not bring anything except good." (Bukhari)

Fourthly, Haya is a very clear indication of our Iman. As the Prophet (saw) had mentioned to the Ansar who was condemning his brother about being shy: "Leave him, for Haya is (a part) of Faith." (Bukhari)

Fifthly, last but not least, Haya leads us to PARADISE. As the Prophet saws) told us: "Haya comes from Iman; Iman leads to Paradise. Obscenity comes from antipathy; and antipathy leads to the fire." (Bukhari)

ALL PRAISE BE TO ALLAH, AND MAY HIS PEACE AND BLESSINGS BE UPON MUHAMMAD (S.A.W.), HIS FAMILY, HIS COMPANIONS AND HIS TRUE FOLLOWERS UNTIL THE DAY OF JUDGEMENT.

I'm SOOO Proud that I'm a Muslim. And I am going to tell all of you something...
I'm very left behind in the education of Islam. But I'm not shy to tell all of you this because I wanna change. I wanna learn. And you can tease me for being so out-dated. I regret for not going to religious class in the past...I'm gonna attend in December anyway... Hehe. It's never too late to change and be a better person. If Mr I doesn't give me a chance to love him, it's alright. Because I know, and I believe that Allah(S.W.T.) will give me a chance to change into a better person. And that when the time comes, Allah(S.W.T) will show me who my true love really is. Insya'allah. Amin. =)
;5:21 pm
You know what peepz?
Now, I don't even feel like having boyfriend at all.
Why should I care about fitting in?
All my bestfriends are single! Huhu! xD
It's called crestfallen hunny...
Oh well...I think I've had enough experience.
When I lost him yesterday...
I thought I've lost everything in my life.
For a sec, my life seems...Meaningless.
As usual, the next moment, I become emo.
Haha! Shit la... Oh well, I'm all better now. =)
I almost slit, but to think again, not worth it.
He's not worth a drop of my blood. =)

Anyway..! Went out with Nadia today!
OMG I miss you sayanggg!! Hahas!
She's my bestfriend forever since primary 5!
The friend I quarrel with the LEAST.
She's the BEST! Hehehe!
We rarely meet, but we're still besties! ^^
She's still single! Yay same! Haha!
And of coz...Still pretty as always! Hehe!
All my bestfriends are pretty! HAHA! =P
Just now, we quarreled about almost everything! Haha!
For fun la... xD
She said I have no taste! EXCUSE ME?! xD
Are you like SERIOUS?! xD
Hahas! I like diamonds and such...
She likes sporty stuffs...
Different taste yea... It's not that I have NO TASTE. xD
Nadia jahat seyh! =P
We saw alot of our ex-classmate? Haha! Cool.
I saw alot of my current schoolmates also.
She might be going to TP Business School!
SAME AS ME!! YAYYYY~! OMG!!
Nadia I can't wait to see you!! Haha!
IF she go TP la...She might go RP or SP.
She came to my house... Saw my prom picts & class pict.
We agreed on one comment of one picture. HAHA!
I won't tell you what it is. Haha!
It's a girl thing! xD
Like OMG! She bought me 4 presents?!
She gave me this cute candy machine, 2 springy bracelet,
a letter 'K' handphone keychain and a card!
I gave her a letter 'N' keychain! Aww...
We read each other's minds! Hehe!
I also gave her a handphone pouch. =)
I forgot to give her my card for her!! Sorry Nadia!!
She had to go home early...
Ish...I thought MY parents were strict. haha!
And this NAUGHTY girl eh...
From just now quarrel with me about Taufik and Hady!
She thinks Taufik is better! LIKE NOOOO...! Hahah!
Hady is better la seyh!
Hady is Asian Idol...Taufik is only Singapore Idol la...!
Give up la Nadia... I win already... Haha!
SERIOUSLY! I MISS HER!!! =(
I had a great time with you babe!
Hope to meet you again soon! Hehe!
And I thought I was naughty... She's naughtier! =P
And yes, this post is dedicated to her! Haha!
And to my dearest Nadia, don't worry...I won't slit kay?
I promise! Hehe! =P
That's all! BYE2! =)


Oh ya! By the way..!
OMG I have sewing course on Monday! So excited!
And I also have my recording session on Monday!
COOL~! I feel like a STAR! Haha!
And my mum might bring me for a makeover!
YAYYYYY~! Haha!
And I might be joining Tampines Idol next year.
Teenage Icon, I'm joining with Sammie as Sweet Serenade. =)
Good news to my so-called fans? Haha!
Wait. Teenage Icon or Singapore Idol? Haha! Dunno uh. xD
;1:56 am
So I guess all shy people should kill themselves now.
Random post here...
One of my friend told me...
I can chat with him on MSN, but not talk to him in real life.
And that this doesn't make any sense at all.
And guess what? He barely knows me.
I think he just know my name. -.-
So he said there's a saying...
If you wanna live and be shy, it's better to die.
Ok I'm shy. Should I kill myself now? -.-
AND he gave me this website... http://www.suicide.com/
Hey thanks dude! At least now I know how to kill myself! -.-
When they question YOU...Of all people why I like YOU...
It's not because you're hot... OMG EXCUSE ME~~! -.-
It's because I didn't KNOW you are like THIS.
I guess your friend is right.
If I had known you better, I won't even like you!

Shy is a characteristic.
All girls are SOOOO open to guys nowadays.
And typical guys simply love these kind of typical Malay girls.
Sorry yea, but I'm with my friends.
We DO NOT like to mingle with Malay guys.
People might see us as, 'stuck in old age'...
Where the young girls just sit at home and never speaks to guys.
At least that will keep us away from trouble!
Coz we think most problems arouse from guys. I'm sorry to say that.
*Ding Dong*!! Not everyone is OPEN here...
And I'm sure that there are the NON-typical guys,
who like girls who don't mix with guys!
Coz at least they are reassured that we won't two-time them in a relationship.

The problem about those untrue facts,
and the problem why I don't talk to you,
simply has no link you know.
Isn't it obvious? You're just finding reasons to hate me.
NEVER in my life, I got scolded, coz I'm SHY. -.-
And if this problem arouse coz of the other day.
I'm sorry I didn't mix with you peepz downstairs.
It's because I'm having fun with my friends upstairs.
I wasn't trying to be anti-social...
I mean come on...
I wouldn't wanna miss all those laughter with my buddies! -.-
I sensed this day would come. It's finally here.
My prayers have been answered. Goodbye.

I didn't judge a book by its cover...
For this case, I didn't read the book until the ending.
I fell in love with the middle part of the story and I kept the book in a box.
So I didn't know the full story.
Get it? =)
Friday, 21 November 2008;5:37 pm
What the hell?! Poly starts in April?
Alaaaa.....!!! THAT'S MONTHS TO COME!
Like... THAT IS SO LONG!!!
And I freakin' miss someone la!! =(
Already got a plan with Maizurah on TP Open House Next Year.
Haha! We're gonna visit ALL the schools.
Including those we are SO not interested in. xD
You SO don't know our purpose there! Hahaha! xD
Oh wait. I'm not gonna visit Engineering school for sure. =)
SO not interested la seh...
Talked on the phone with Ain just now...
There was much to talk about.
Forget about it uh.
YAY! Another dream come true!
I got over that Mr I.
It's not that I hate him...
Let's not talk about him k?
And to 'vy', I don't go TP coz of guys hunny...
I joke alot in my blog...
You know something? I don't even have any Malay guy friends in reality.
And apart from that, I don't even like to mix with Malays.
So do you still think I wanna find guys there?
I think not sayang... =)
My mum already enrole me in the sewing course just now...
Blardy expensive bodoh! xD
I promised mum to study hard during the course.
And I might join fashion design in TP.
And to make her proud, I might even study well to get into a university overseas.
At least there's no Malay there.
Coz all I see in Malay friends are...Fights, quarrels, havoc.
It's in my blood...
My brother and sister also like that...
We like chinese more...We follow our mother.
Obviously most of my friends in TP will be...CHINESE! ^^
That's all!
To Diy, I'm sorry I trusted HIM more than you...
I'm such a bad friend... Sorry yea hunns?
I won't do it again coz I don't even like him anymore! =)
;12:17 am
Compared to this year's class outing...
I prefer last year's...
This year, I don't have my bestfriends with me.
Yes. You simply know how boring it was for me. -.-
That was the starting uh.
I felt awkward coz I didn't have my bestfriends with me... =(
Kinda quarreled with Diy...
Sheesh seriously bad mood. -.-
Thanks Aiha, Ain and Maizurah for giving me company!
And Ken thought I was on the phone with my boyfriend...-.-
Dude! I'm single la dey... Haha!
Then super pissed off, I went upstairs to join my chinese friends.
Summary: I feel more comfortable when I mingle with chinese. Not with Malays.
Weird part: I like chinese more than malay when it comes to friends,
Which explains why the number of Malay friends I have,
is less than 40! Hahaha! xD

Ok I interrupt the chalet part for a while kay...
Like Oh My GOD!!! ^^
Me friend told me that, Mr F talk to his friends about me! =D
And you know what? He told his friend about our chat at YouTube.
Hahaha alalala cute nyer dierrr... =P
And then he told his friend...
He likes my voice and that...I'm pretty! AWWWW...!!
Dude you totally shot the arrow through my heart Mr HANDSOME! xD
I'll never call him cute.
Coz it means adorable and ugly...Mr F? UGLY?? Like NO WAY! xD
There are other secrets that are too personal for my friend's friend
to tell her... Coz Mr F trusts him not to tell anyone.
OMG if the news is...He has a crush on me...
CALL THE AMBULANCE!!!
COZ I THINK I'M GONNA HAVE A HEART ATTACK! xD
Kwang3~! Haha! YEAHHH!! I'm SO going TP la kan... LOL!
See you next year prince charming! =P
My friend is kinda helping me out on this.
Thanks babe! It would be a heaven if this one works out...
Unlike the previous one with Mr I...
If anything is gonna happen between me & Mr I, better be fast...
Coz I'm not gonna be head over heels for one guy
WHO WANTS TO REMAIN SINGLE
for the rest of my life! -.-
Oh my goodness...I'm smiling with just the THOUGHT of Mr F! xD
Ok2 enough of him. He's not even my friend.
Haha! But my wish is he WILL be my friend next year! ^^
Ok back to Chalet story!

I'm sick throughout the day actually.
But I still chose to go. Kinda regret it at first. -.-
I only had fun after I entered the room! Haha! [sounds wrong..xD]
But then as I sat on the bed,
The area near my heart suddenly hurts. I was worried already.
Then I tried to breathe normally...
It hurts like *toots*... I was super stressed.
I couldn't breathe for about 30 seconds or so...
Shu Jun told Sammie about it.
Then she called Diy.
They all told me to lie down...Sheesh it hurts! >.<
Diy massaged my back and Steph & Fong ee laughed when they heard Diy burp. xD
Then Sam Chua and Shu Jun came back up with food & drink for me.
Alamak Shu Jun! You brought me so much food! O.O Haha!
Steph and Fong Ee told me to finish up everything.
Including the plate. HAHA!
Then Diy came up with a lot of otahs? O.O
I was like...Hmm should be for everyone in the room.
Then she said, only for me! MAK OI! O.O
Someone bbq-ed it for me and told me to finish it up. O.O
I was like, who the heck is this someone??! -.-
Oh before I tell you who the person is...
GOSH! Thank you Diyana, Sammie, Steph, Fong Ee, Shu Jun
FOR BEING SUPERB NURSES! Haha! I LOVE YOU GIRLS! =))
Izzat was the one who did that for me!
Awww...That was so caring & sweet of you...! =)
Is that like the SWEETEST thing any guy has ever done for me so far? xD
[Oh my gosh almost the whole class knows about it already?! O.o]
I was kinda disappointed that he made Diy cried... Hmm...
I didn't scold him uh...Just gave an advice...He said DAMN to me. -.-
And I don't hate him coz of that. I mean COME ON.
Hate coz of small stuffs? I'm no 6 year old kid. -.-
And I'm sorry I couldn't sing just now...
I can't sing, I'm sick. =)
Eh people...Please la eh...Don't only ask him why he don't want me.
Ask ME first. Do I even want him in the first place! -.-
You peepz are too late already la...

Anyway, I went back upstairs after washing my hand.
Damn horny sia Steph, Fong Ee and Sam! Haha!
Might as well join them. HAHA!
Boys were SO not allowed in there! LOL.
We talked about super horny shits.
They imagined stuffs when I ate the otahs! O.O
NAUGHTY GIRLS!! xD
Then after talking crap, Fong Ee explained a game to me.
Horny game uh... Hahaha! But we wore clothes while playing that! xD
First I was afraid to try, then I tried...
AND IT WAS FUN! Hahahaha!
We simply lie down on top of each other...
SQUASHED! xD
And Hui Peng and Diy joined us.
And we were bickering on some sizes! Haha! Guys shouldn't know! xD
Super hilarious sia! LoL!
Around 10 those 3 went home already... Aww... =(
I had to go home too...But Diy chose to stay until 10.30...
And she ends up being teased. -.-
See? I say go home, you don't want... -.-
Freaking shit an uninvited guest also came! OF ALL PEOPLE. -.-
Lucky it was so dark, wasn't wearing specs, so couldn't see. xD
Who even searched for him? xD
I'd rather search for a pontianak in the trees. HAHA!

Then went home, mum saw the time.
It's 11.30 pm. I promised..11 pm.
Shoots. Sorry mumzies! =(
Now I must find a perfect day to ask mumzies...
"Mum...Can I have a boyfriend?? Not saying that I have one...CAN I??!" xD
In case I get either one of these guys. Haha!
I am SO not rejecting la kan... xD
Unless whoever asks me second uh. You'll be rejected! xD
OR... I lose interest on both of them.
Then I'll find a husband in Paris! =P
Since I will try my best to make my dream come true and school there! ^^
[Hmm...Kinda unfair for Mr F...! Ok give chance until my next birthday! xD]
Ok lah that's all! Bye!

Kirin & Steph! Super pervertic Steph! Hahaha!


The perverts! Steph, Sammie, Fong Ee. xD

Kirin, Sammie & Hui Peng. SAM EXTRA!! Haha!


The second round. 3 people on me! SHOOTS! Heavy siot! xD
Sam, Fong Ee, Steph, Kirin. [Top to bottom]
Steph faint already. HAHA! Heavy sia those 3 above me! xD
Shu Jun innocent at the back! Hahas! xD
Sam, Diy, Hui Peng, Kirin, Fong Ee, Steph. [Top to bottom]
Thursday, 20 November 2008;1:32 am
When marimba rythms starts to play...
Dance with me...Make me sway...
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore...
Hold me close, sway me more...
Other dancers may be on the floor...
Dear, but my eyes will see only you...
Only you have that magic technique...
When you sway I go weak...!

Yo wassup hunnies! =)
OH MY GAWD!!! Prom was HEAVEN!
I mean...Dreams come true there! Haha!
And Mr Alsagoff & Mdm Yang were SUPER funny!
Oh my goodness they seriously made me laugh! Haha!
GREAT MCs! =))
Before that, it was HELL.

Late for makeover, so cancelled.
Fine.
That's one thing. Mum did my hair for me.
She accidentally dropped the iron hair curler...
ON MY BACK! *YEOCH!*
Ok I really scream out loud! Almost cried! Haha!
Super painful! Went to prom with plaster on my back...-.-
Until now still painful.
Imagine hot iron rod on your back! Sheesh can still feel it...-.-
Oh my gosh my sister is a GREAT makeup artist!
I looked gorgeous all thanks to her!
Adik sayannggggg Along! Hehe!
I bought new fake lashes for $10.90...
Btw, THE MEETING WAS BORING!
I mean, COME ON. I'm SO not interested.
So I chose to be just a member of Performing Arts Comittee.
Rather be a leader in my future school! Hehe!
But I don't mind performing in school for my juniors though! xD

At home, I taught Mai how to use to make up for dinner.
She looked great thanks to...ME, My sister & my mum! xD
I taught her how to wear make up, sis drew her eyebrow, mum did her hair.
Aren't we meant to be bestfriends? Haha! Why?
COZ WE'RE GORGEOUS! Hahaha!
[Don't be jealous uh... Hahaha!]
We thought we were late.
Rushed and Rushed and Rushed.
We were on time. And lost. HAHA!
Pathetic Singaporeans. LOL!
We found our way in the end...
Super hot la seyh! We were sweating! EWWWW!!! -.-
Sorry yea, but I really hate SWEATING when wearing makeup! -.-

The place was GORGEOUS! ^^
And every guy looked dashingly handsome! =)
And every girl looked gorgeously pretty! =)
Seriously la! Alamak aii... Couldn't even recognise some of them! LOL.
[I suddenly wish I have my own PCD group...How cool.] [Random.]
OH! And I should be like Nicole...Oooh HOT STUFF! Haha! xD
Been dancing like them anyway at home... HAHA! [Bocor rahsia aku...LoL.]
Ok back to my story...
The place was GRAND! Haha! Cool I felt rich for a sec. LOL!
In the hotel also can get lost. -.-
Didn't know which floor to go. Genius. xD
When we reached there...
There was a pool! Niceee... Haha! 2.9 metres deep.
I'd so drown in there. Hahaha!
Almost twice my height! -.-

Had to queue up outside the hotel.
I was already trembling. Why?
COZ I HAD TO PERFORM ALONE.
Then Miss Zaleha dragged me in.
CUT QUEUE!! hahas! Wasn't too happy about it though. -.-
Miss Zaleha heard me sing first. She liked it. Shoots. xD
Then Sammie came along!
OMG sis you came back for me!!
I LOVEEEE YOU!!!! =D
I was like SO happy I don't have to sing solo!
Coz my voice started to suck again.
Runny nose & slight sore throat. Thanks.
Sam had a sight sore throat too.
2 not so nice voice = 1 very nice voice! hehe!
SWEET SERENADE!! Hehe!
I hugged her twice to thank her! Hehe!
And one is on stage! Hehe!
I think we did well! Hahas!
My voice didn't go off tune! Whee~!
Hahas! Well the people love it.
That's all I wanna know! Haha! No boos! YAY! xD
Could have done better without sore throat though... -.-

The food. OH MY GOD.
IT SUCKS TO THE CORE! -.-
I just ate the veggies in the end.
I ate something sour and suddenly I felt nausea...
I knew if I eat one more bite, I'll puke all of it back out! -.-
So I went there to drink plain water. Like...THANKS. -.-
OF ALL DRINKS. COKE.
The MAJOR voice destroyer! -.- For me uh.
And my dear friend, Maizurah drank like 3-4 glasses of it?! O.O
In the end she was kinda drunk! HAHAHA! Funny. xD
There was FRUIT cake.
Shoots I hate fruits to the core! -.-
In the end, I just ate 3 spoonful of rice...
No appetite. Hehs. My friends understands. =)
I won't elaborate on that. Let's move along now. Hehe.

Prom Queen was Hanis! Aww..She was so cute! Hahas!
Prom King...Some 4T guy, I don't bother finding out what's the name. -.-
I think it would be better to see Hanis and her boyfriend! Haha!
Jia Hao & Sam Wong looked soooooo cute on stage!
Damn! Jia Hao was romantic! Haha!
Took like ALOT of pictures.
Even some...Surprising pictures. HAHA.
Talk about SURPRISING... Naughty Miss Yi Ling..!
I was ermm...Speechless? Haha! [Enough info yea. xD]
Oh ya! FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!
I won a lucky draw! 12th prize!
And 12th is my birthday and also my FAVOURITE NUMBER!!!
I won a box of Van Houten chocolates!! OMG!
I so want that! Hahaha! THANK YOU JUNYUAN! LoL!
And when I took the price, Mr Alsagoff said I was a bride. -.-
Haha yea right...! 10 years to come la seyh... Haha
Around 11.15 p.m. after taking soooo many pictures with Ain & Maizurah,
We crossed the road and took a cab home! ^^
at RP Hotel, there doesn't seem to be any cabs!
It costs us $13.6o...Not THAT expensive uh...
We're too tired for the MRT. Haha!
Orchard was GORGEOUS! Hehe!
In the cab, Hate That I Love You was on the radio...-.-
Of all song, they play the song that reminds me of Mr I! Grr! Haha!

Then went home. ALONG BOUGHT ME NEW SHIRT FROM I.P. ZONE! ^^
Oh gosh! So happy! I love it sis! Haha!
Camwhored like ALOT! Haha! Around 30 pictures of me? Haha!
When can I look as gorgeous again? Haha!
On my wedding day I guess? Haha!
That is SO LONG! -.-
After washing my face and blablablahz...
Went online. Hahas!
Another surprise. O.O...
Talk about expect the UNEXPECTED. Haha!
You're too sweet to be true la hunny... xD
And soooo funny and caring! Hehe!
Wei don't get wrong ideas...This person is not my boyfriend!
And WHY should I tell you who he is? Haha!
Wheeeeeeeeeee~! Long post...!
Anyway, I won't sleep until my video at YouTube finish uploading.
I'll be going for class chalet tomorrow... Maybe. Haha!
If I have that cramps then I won't go...
I'll be crippling on my bed! Haha!
That's all! Pictures will be uploaded soon! ALL OF THEM!
Even that picture that people seemed to be more excited to see than I am. Haha.
Bubbyes! Good night! Sweet dreams! =)

And that song I sang was meant for you...
I just didn't have the courage to look at you.
I'll end up forgetting my lyrics! HAHA! =)
You looked great. =)
It's true...I Never Had A Dream Come True 'Till The Day That I Found You. ♥
Too bad it isn't the same for you. Hehs.



Here's my video by the way...
Gosh! I'm SO sorry my voice sucks...
I was sick!! >.<...
Tuesday, 18 November 2008;10:52 pm
Today, I went for my FIRST express manicure!
My sis paid for it! Thanks Along! ^^
Now I'm typing like a retard! Haha!
I got glittery nails! Haha!
Won't be long...After a week,
I'll wash it off...=)
Err..I have bad news...
I can't perform tomorrow, I think.
This sore throat is seriously not helping!! -.-
See first la eh...Haha!
Coz I can't sing that song well enough... =)
And I can't practice since it makes thing worse for me.
You know what?
I just return from manicure just now,
I spoiled one of my nail already. -.-
My bro sent me to that shop again.
REPAIRED! Hehe!
THAT'S ALL! See you tomorrow! =)
;3:45 pm
OH MY GOSH!!!
Is Kirin dumb? Or Stupid? -.-
You know what? I thought prom was on Thursday!
And I still have a sore throat!
I sing like a toad! I CROAK!
And I have to sing SOLO tomorrow?!
DIEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<
I MUST get better A.S.A.P!
All of this is just too sudden! TOO SUDDEN!
And I'm dumbfounded right now. Oh shit.
And to make it a COMPLETE DISASTER,
there's no REHEARSALS! -.-
TO ALL MY FRIENDS....
PRAY FOR ME THAT I'LL DO WELL TOMORROW!! >.<
Or else...IT'S OVER!! Haha! [So dramatic seyh...xD]

Anyway, went to Johor yesterday.
Had fun! ^^
Imagine buying a gorgeous pair of shes for RM 11.90!??
It's supposed to be RM 39.90...There was 70% off...
Convert he money to SG$...It would be around $5.50!! *faints*
I felt like buying the whole shop! Hahaha!
The shoe is pink and black! HOW GORGEOUS!
Head down to Johor Bahru City Square if you want them. ^^
I don't know how long the sale lasts though.
I also bought a pink watch since I broke mine.
And I bought hair clips with diamonds on them for tomorrow! =)
How pretty! Hehe! =D
Then went to my granduncle's house...
It's that granduncle with a damn handsome son! Hahah!
His son is working at Pasir Gudang...
Age? Hmm around 23? Hahas!
But DAMN IT! HE'S MY UNCLE! -.-
Oh my gosh he drives!!! And such a filial son!
Too bad we're related...! Gah...! -.-... Haha!
And his parents are SUPER friendly and funny! Haha!
Nek Long going to Haji soon! [English-spoken grandma there! haha!]

I'm REALLY looking forward for tomorrow, EXCEPT...
My performance.
I hope I'm not late for my meeting tomorrow.
Stupid meeting...-.-
I'm just coming coz I wanna see how the teacher's meeting room looks like! xD
Apart from that, I'm just wasting my time. =)
So yea...That's all uh! Bubbyes!
Look gorgeous and handsome tomorrow JYSS graduates! =)
Sunday, 16 November 2008;8:36 pm
I'm so happy that my parents returned home safely.
And they feed me as though I haven't eat for a month. HAHA!
Super DUPER full. -.-
Mum bought me 2 box of Fair & Lovely.
One of them is like HUGE.
Can't find in Singapore unfortunately...
She also bought me a BIG bottle of bedak sejuk.
Like cool la seyh! All beauty products! ^^
And she also bought be a shawl for me.
Pink & Black. For prom.
OH MY GOODNESS! ^^
Reen SAYAANNGGGG Mama banyak2! hehe!
She's gonna help me out with my 'cardigan' too.
Makeover appointment at 4.30 pm on the 19th.
Most probably meeting my friends there around 5.30 pm.
Ex-co meeting in school at 12 pm.
So busy! Hahas ok well gotta go...! CHIAO! =)

Good news to all my friends!
[Especially those two at the tag board! xD]
I'm gonna sing!! Hehe!
I'm singing with Samantha Chua.
It's called Sweet Serenade.
I don't go solo you see...Hehe!
And Miss Zaleha has agreed with it...!
If I miss this oppotunity,
When else can I sing in a hotel?? Hehe!
To Sam, thanks for singing with me again sis! YOU ROCK! =)
Oh by the way, as I mentioned, [
we're singing Never Had A Dream Come True! =)
Saturday, 15 November 2008;2:07 pm
As promised, I've made the slide show for Graduation night. Editing pictures took me from 1 a.m. to 5 a.m.... Gosh I have a migraine right now... No proper rest. Haha! Oh anyway, Miss Zaleha texted me just now and was like desperately wants me to perform on Prom Nite. OMG. Are you like serious? It has been ice blend all the way and 2 big gulps a week! What song shall I sing? It would be SUPER SCARY to sing solo!!! I'll be trembling like toots la!!! I DON'T WANT!!! Haha! But I've never seen a teacher asking me to sing until like that! How can I disappoint her? She's one of my favourite teachers too! HELP ME!!! TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!??? Oh by the way, my voice sounds like shit right now... Slight sore throat.... -.-




Hmm..I've thought about it. Maybe I will sing... Never Had A Dream Come True by S Club 7... The song is so meaningful... But I seriously must get my voice back! -.-
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