I think today must have been the worst day for this month... Ughh... Hmm... My hand hurts... And my heart just hurts thinking of yesterday... Whatever about that... Hahas... I mean... What's not meant to be is not meant to be huh? And... I think all of these things in my head are nothing more than just a dream that won't come true...Heh... Going to JC and then to SMU? Who am I kidding? Even a simple Chem Spa I can't pass! -.-Ugh I feel like giving up hope to go to JC... And the H2 maths is like 3 tyms more tougher than A-maths like what Mr Tok said? Hahs no thanks... I'll end up to be a JC drop-out student! Sheesh! Oh well second thoughts for that! Arghh... Stupid SPA! Grrr...!

And I asked myself again...Why am I even hoping to be with someone so popular...so fun... so cheerful? I'm just another loser niwaes... Who am I to hope...? Ack... Whatever... One day I'll meet that someone who simply loves me for who I am... Coz seriously... Serious...Study freak... IS SO NOT ME!

I like to make people laugh...But who..?

I like to be happy...But things around me just makes me cry...

I want to have fun...But it's 'O' Level year!

I don't like to be alone... Do I have a choice? I don't... Hmm...

I want to trust people...But too many people betrayed my friendship...

I want to be in love... But my past just haunts my day...

Everytime I think how shattered I was when I found out he was just fooling around with me all the time when I was with him... I feel so scared...What if he's doing the same thing too? Gosh I simply don't trust anyone else in this world apart from my parents... And like Oh My Gawd... I'm totally scared of falling in love? How long will I stay like this...? I may have forgotten him... But I can never forget how he broke my heart... Someone who meant everything in your life... Simply thinks you don't mean a thing in his life... Haiz...Everytime I think of him I feel like crying...

I know it's over... Time to move on! I've moved on! But I feel like a freaking loser! >.<...
Eh even though I feel like a loser... I never think that I'm ugly before seyh! Hehehe! It's bad for my health! Haha! It's called Vain... Not Ego... Haha! Man...Something's wrong with my emotion system... I'm already smiling again... For one second I'm sad, the next second I'm happy... Hehe... Please la... I'm Miss Sunshine! Hehe! I can't stay sad for long... Unless err...My heart is broken...hehe like last year... I even forgot which week I did not cry... Every single week I cried! Haha! And when I was sec 1...Gosh that family problem freaks me out! Never cried that hard! Yea and sec 2...Supposed to be happy with him... But he's SO FREAKING SELFISH...Only thinks about his sadness and his another girlfriend... Whatever la @#$&^*... As long as you happy... Go on and break more hearts... Hehe! Congrats for breaking mine! -.-...

Ahhh!! I pray like everyday this guy I like won't turn out to be like that jerk! Eeesshhh!! I swear I'll strangle him!! Haha! Actually now I mainly pray to be strong in my heart... I cry too easily... At almost everything.. Haha! Too emotional... So yea...I wanna be a stronger woman inside! Speaking of which... To look on the bright side of life la eh... I go JC, mix with clever people...I can become clever also... Go poly...Mix with those fashion students... I'll become some fashion freak! Haha... And also... If I'm so scared of losing this guy coz I feel like I'm so not popular...Why should I be? I mean...If he loves me...He would love me for who I am right? Hehe! Well always look on the bright side of life! Hehe! Gtg and pray now! BYE!

Gosh ToM! You seriously got nothing better to do apart from disturbing me right?? Takde keje seyh ToM!! >.<

Oh by the way... OMG...Like some people just don't learn anything from assembly yesterday do they? Excuse me? I was like almost late for school... And this idiot...From the same school as me... Was like flirting?? You think I'll turn around and say bye to you? In your dreams sucka! I hate flirts.. They should DIE! XD