I just have to... I must forget him... I'm not strong enough but this is fate... I'm crying in my heart... But I won't let these tears flow out of my eyes... I wish I had not known you... And how I wish I had just continue to hate you... Why must that feeling of hatred turns into love... I'm sick of the word love... I've had it! What good has it done apart from giving me heartbreaks and bring me to tears! And what destroyed my life for a whole damn year?? LOVE! That's it... I won't even HOPE anymore... I won't even CARE anymore... I'm just so sick about it! It ends before it starts... The heart bleeds before it breaks... And here I am once again on an empty lane... With a torn and tattered soul... I pray that I can forget you as soon as possible... Coz it's for the best... In less than a year I'll be starting my life afresh... I don't give a shit if my current friends think I'm arrogant or whatsoever... I just wanna forget everyone and everything that I've been through these years... That includes my bestfriends... I'm sorry... I just don't wanna be who I am anymore... This weak and pathetic girl... I'm sick of it! I'm not being who I am in school! Why can't I be who I am??? Haiz... Whatever... I'd better go shopping soon... I'm just too tensed up right now...And I definitely don't want to ruin my future coz of him...

So long and goodbye hopeless love....Never to return again...