I am NOT unpredictable... I explained in the post before this... I force myself to forget him coz I don't wanna disappoint my mum... And there's so much chaos when he just got to know about it! And if any of you think I'm unpredictable coz I was like so angry yesterday... I've already mention... Shut up if you don't know my problem! It's like the whole day that dark past I had when I was in sec 1 haunted my mind! I don't want my family to break apart... Especially THIS year... I'm having my 'O' Levels for God's sake!

And to that fucker...If I fail MY 'O' Levels coz of THIS fucking problem... I swear you are going to pay for it! Hey ass... For your info... my voice sounds like my mum's...And I have your number...Huahaha! So here's the plan... I will call you to meet up... Let say when I'm already in JC with my gang... And let say we'll beat the hell out of you! Can? Ok2 give you face... We'll spare your FUCKING LIFE... But too bad you'll end up as a fucking retard! And THEN you'll stay away from my mum! If I catch you again... I guess I WON'T spare you your life! ARGGHHH! YOU ARE SO LUCKY I'M A MUSLIM! I won't create any more sins coz of you starting from today... Coz if I create the sin...You will get all the goodness from me! And in other words...I'm helping you! While you should go to hell for disturbing people's wife! So yea...WHy not pray that your life will be shortened huh? So that you won't be able to disturb my family any longer! Or what about...pray that you become a gay? -.-... I'm so fuckin' pissed right now! I wish like kicking him in his face! Your name stands for Peace... RIGHHHTTT... More to SHIT! You stinkin' jerk! If I see MY FATHER crying... I will pray and pray and pray sooooo hard that you'll get your retribution soooo soooo so soon! And I'll ask my siblings to pray along too! So the power is greater! The only way my mum can forget you is when you DIE! SO DIE EARLY FUCK ASS!

PHEW~! That was a relief... Haiz... Today in class I tried so many things to make me laugh... But even when I laugh... That problem just arouse in my head... I've never cried so hysterically like in 2005 when my parents were about to go their separate ways...I was even begging on my knees and pull my dad's leg to stop him from leaving the house... Thank God nothing happened... And we're still one family! ^^ Everytime I think of this betrayal...I feel so sad for my dad... And these tears will automatically well up in my eyes... Like now... Hmm... To add to that... Exams are drawing near... Stressed about that too... And apart from that... I'm so disappointed that he know about my feelings towards him so early... I mean, before this, he can actually speak to me...Now I guess he's too shy already... Oh what the fuck... I'm sick of the term 'stress'... I think I'm out of that already... I'm like depressed already...Since I can't even make out what feeling am I feeling all the time... I guess I'm going crazy... Like my parents said once when they saw me crying... I didn't get sympathy from them... They just said I was crazy... And if I share my problems with them... I'll just end up being blame and the talk will end as a quarrel...And leave me crying too... I have no shoulder to cry on... I never had any... When I was in sec 2...I thought HE was my shoulder to cry on... But to think again...I don't know...All I remember is...There is no single month that we never quarrel and leave me crying and broken-hearted.... Oh well that's all in the past... I think the boundary between me and happiness is just me... and that FUCKING SON OF A BITCH...! I wonder is it so FUN to ruin people's family? Fuck him to hell la... So yea now I'll just continue to think positive... And live life as usual... Though lonely... I'll try my best to be happy...I still have my siblings to make me smile! ^^

Went to interchange just now... With my big bro... Then we ate at McDonald's... My bro was like sitting on this wall...Then I say uh like Humpty Dumpty... Haha! And he shows his middle finger to me...-.-... So much for setting good examples! So I was reciting the nursery rhymes in my head... Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall... Humpty Dumpty had a great fall... Hahas! Then he came back...A few minutes later... An NEA officer came to us... My bro was fined $200 for throwing a cigarette butt in the drain... Like what the hell? If it's affecting public health... I wonder why Chinese are not fined when they burn the inscence paper on the ground during Hungry Ghost Festival? And it's affecting public's health and ALSO polluting the land AND air... And what have these NEA officers gotta say about that?! They told my bro we didn't call them so yea... What the hell? Eh every where you go also can see one.. I feel angry for my bro... First time offender mah... Not being racist or whatever uh... But this is too much...They close both eyes if they see this happening... And after we left... More Malays were caught littering! This is such a DISCRIMINATION towards the Malay society! And the 2 officers were Malays! Go change race la! We don't want Malays like you! Still can say to my bro..."You are lucky enough I'm the one who saw you...If other officers how?" Other officers how?...Still get fined what... Go and die la... And I guess Humpty Dumpty did had a great fall...! Hahas! No offence Abang Pil! Haha! Well it's a lesson for him to learn.. AND for the rest of us too... NO LITTERING! That includes spitting! It'll cost you $150! Eeek! Where to find that sum of money?! They don't care about your age ok? Haha! Before all of this happened... I was carrying my meal uh at McD... Then this kid behind me was soooo close to me... her head hit my iced lemon tea... To avoid the drink from spilling on her... I turned and the drink fell...Stupid kid...! Lucky get a new one... Why can't some parents educate their children better?

I guess that's all for today... I'm going to revise for my Physics test now... I am SO failing my geography test! Sheesh...Pathetic... But I won't get zero uh... Hahas! And like YAY the geog mock exam only include 1 chapter! Hip hip horray! Haha! Kk... Wish my 4e3 classmates good luck for tomorrow's test! That's all!