I had the most wonderful dream last night....And I woke up from it and I just HAVE TO say...SHIT! It was JUST a dream... Not again... These dreams are so wonderful...They seem like the wishes my heart makes... But I know it's impossible for these dreams to come true... And today... I'm just that bloody negative thinker again... I thought I've stopped thinking negative but I just did moments ago... Though I've shed no tears... Hehe at least SLIGHTLY better uh... I used to cry like a baby when I think negative stuffs about my life...Hehes... I hate to be all emo and nonsense... -.-... Coz if it's THAT bad...I'll seriously have suicidal thoughts... Gosh...I suck... Hahas! But that was like last year... It can come back if hear anything from my family like they regret having me in the family or something...Seriously, I see no point living when they say like that... The ONLY group of people you trust SAY that to you... I'd rather die... But so far I hear no more of these bullshits...Except for in January or February...I couldn't remember... Well that's the past...And I'm sick of crying... NO MORE! I'll only cry when someone dies! Hmph! Haha!

Today did nothing much... Just went out with my mum and Fiqry... To the neighbourhood shops... Supposed to go somewhere with Nadia on Thurday... But the plan had to be cancel since I'm going out with my sis and mum on that day...We're going to Vivo and the following day I'll be going to Vivo with Diyana... Kirin Kirin... Everyday go out! Hahas! Oi I still spare some time to study ok? Haha! Shit! I have dark circles!! Eeeyerr! Ok so now...I'm gonna be online till like 9.30 pm... And Bubbyes! hahas! I want to do my A-maths tuition homework, then I'll read a storybook and bore myself to sleep! Hahaha! I was supposed to go cycling with my bro just now... But plan cancelled to...Since it was 7 pm already... He's working... -.-... OH! My mum bought me this Orange Pastilles Gummy Candies...Got a picture of Baby Taz!! OMG! SOOOO CUTE!!! My mum loves Baby Taz too! Hahas! Baby Tweety is cute too but not as cute as Baby Taz! Hahas! Only $1.05!! My family members loved it! Hahas! Especially my bro... I'm gonna buy AGAIN!!! Wheee~! Hahas! Then mum bought me bubble tea at Blue Sea, then I saw this small girl running across the road WITHOUT supervision from ANY adult... NEARLY got hit by a BIG truck...Well compared to HER size...That truck is HUGE!...How can the grandparents be SO CARELESS!? -.-... I think the truck hit her hand...Coz I saw the grandfather rubbing her hand...And she was crying...So naughty! Don't know how to discipline small kids ar these people! -.-....

Went home and watched Jungle Book? Hahas! My mum asked me like twice...Has the show ended??....Hahas! Coz I switched it off half-way through the show...It bores me! Ok the show was funny...But it's on TV...I DON'T watch TV... Hahas! Then I switched it on again...Then I see like nobody's watching.... So I switched it off and won't on it again 'till now... Waste electricity only... Hahas! Until now still haven't eat dinner... And my breakfast was pathetic...And I'm not even HUNGRY! Hahas! Oh well I guess I'll stop here! Bubbyes! ^^

The word 'miss' isn't strong enough to describe how I feel after so long I haven't see your smile....
I guess my plan is not meant to be? Oh well...