One of my prayers is like gone...Since like yea... I don't think anything will happen between me and him EVER... Hahas! So some other prayers were, I want to be strong in the heart and I want to stay happy...! So yea...Allah answered my prayers... Hehe! First of all, I just cried for one night over that matter...Stopped crying for 30 minutes, then cry again...And again...and again... Haha! And I went to school the next day with swollen eyes... Like EEEUU... -.-... So yea no more crying from me...Gosh I was emo in school yesterday...And when I'm emo...Seriously I have attitude problems... Hahas! And school was a DREAD for me! Sheesh...

Today, everything was the other way around! Hehe! I'm sooo in love with this Wednesday... Except for the part where I had a freakin' long day wearing my school uniform...Sheesh...Almost 12 hours...-.-... So what else happened...? Joked a lot with my friends today...So one thing for sure, we're still bestfriends! Hehes! Maybe I was just too emo that monday...So yea...Waddya expect? I think negative ALL THE WAY! Hahas! Oh and thanks Ain for even asking me whether I was alright or not yesterday...I didn't expect that from you...Hehes! Guess I've misjudged you huh? And I guess we should let our dark past stay in the past! Hehe... And thanks to Diyana too! You cheered me up somehow... Hahas! Though it didn't turn up really well coz...I took the other course which was to start 'afresh'... Hahaha!

Ok so back to today's event... During mother tongue, I actually enjoyed practicing oral with Maizurah... Haha! I was so not serious? Haha! Ok la some part I was... Then got Physics! Yay! Sit at the back! Haha! I sit at the same place where I sit during Mother Tongue class... So I have an advantage yea... So my permanent seat is beside Sarita... There was Physics test...SURPRISE! -.-... I think I did that worksheet before last year... Fail also I don't give a shit... Haha! Then there was assembly...Oh my god! Someon fart or shit in their skirt or pants sia in the hall just now! The stench was undescribable! It STINKS! And then someone sprayed perfume uh..So it was gone... Then it came back...! Eeeyer! Hahas! And I kept on asking Maizurah "is the smell gone?"... Hahas! She actualy sniffed! Hahas! Eee I wouldn't dare to put my hands away from my face! Haha! Thanks Maizurah for smelling it for me! Haha! But I don't think she know why I laughed... Partly coz of her and partly coz of what the people who smelled it said and the expression on their faces! Hahas! I just had to laugh... Hahas! The assembly was kinda fun...I mean the debate uh... Mdm Saleha very funny! Hahas! And Mdm Fauziah said a mare is a female prostitute? Did I get it wrong? I mean yes it's a female horse...But who says it's a female whore? Haha! Aiya don't get it la... Hahas!

Then at 3 there was Sub Chemistry Mock Exam... Gosh...The paper 1 was kinda easy uh...But the paper 2 was LIKE PURE! -.-... And exothermic and endothermic reaction did not come out??! Ass sia! I studied that for what??! -.-... Ok confirm I won't get distinction! Haha! Then this guy from 4e4...From China one, quite tall...I don't know the name! Haha! He called m uh..."Girl.."..I think I heard him saying I look like a nice girl or something like that...HAHS! LoL! I know his purpose of saying that though...He wanted to ask me a qustion that I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW! Haha! I said uh I don't know...Then he ask me...What I got for my pure chem mock exam...I got A1 or not...Come on la...If I get A1, would I collapse to combined? -.-... Then he ask me you pass or not...I don't know what he say uh then he say he want to discuss about something...I was like err...Right. Haha! Then his friend said 'chi bai' to him... Haha! LoL? Then he kept quiet... Like hello, we were in the middle of an exam? Haha! I was like saying in my heart..."Oh no...I'm late for tuition...Hmm...Maybe I should go tomorrow's class...NO WAY! I won't be able to see someone! I must finish this paper A.S.A.P"... Hahas! You don't have to know who's that someone...! Like wasted uh if go tomorrow's night class.

Finished like 10 minutes early... Then I went outside uh...Then got that boy again...o.o... He was repeatedly saying,"Girl you pretty uh"...I was like...Ok he's not talking to you Kirin...Just ignore him! Hahah!... Then I left for tuition...While walking, I said in my heart,"confirm sit 3rd row...Haiz...Too bad then...".. Hahas! BUT...When I arrived at around 5 pm, they just started Mr Tok said...Whee~! Lucky Rin! Haha! [lucKY RIN...Eh my name! Haha! Ok I know...Lame... Haha!] And then right... I get to sit 2nd row! Yay! Haha! Which means I've been upgraded to a kinda clever person...And I sit beside a very clever person! Hahaha! I'm having that feeling I've felt a year ago with that someone... But I know uh I don't have a crush on this guy...I just like to see that so-the-handsome-innocent-looking face and the so-the-neat hair! Haha! Ok for those who are in the same tuition as me, and reads my blog...Just shut up. Haha! With that looks, confirm attached! Haha! He viewed my friendster! Hahaha! Shut up Kirin...LoL! But somehow or rather, even though every week sit beside him during tuition... [Huhu! LoL!] I CAN resist looking at him...! Haha!

But until now, I can't resist looking at my crush... Haix...It feels so difficult to let it go just like that...Come on la seyh! Almost 1 year and 3 months...I still have that feelings for him! How can I forget it like that!?? No way... I may not be puting any more hopes...And I'm also trying my best to look away coz everytime I look...I don't know...I feel so sad... I remembered that joke... And straight away I can imagine in my head that he's gonna be happy with that girl...And I'm not even suitable for him...I know who I am...So don't you try to say.."No la...where can think like that...."...ok? Coz it ain't gonna work... I'm just happy again coz I'm much stronger in the heart now... But I'll never stop waiting, though I've stopped hoping... And I'm sorry if nowadays I seems so arrogant when I see you...

Hahas! Ok my 5th and 6th paragraph...Is like talking about 2 different people? Haha! So yea, 1st to 4th para...Happy2! Haha! Only 6th paragraph... I've stopped hoping also coz I think I hoped too high... I mean nothing's happening now, but what if something serious happens later? Commit suicide? Haha! No way! I don't even dare to slit my wrist! Haha! Most probably depression...Serious depression... LoL! Ok la I guess I'll stop here... I love my blog song...Coz it's like my song...I had my one last cry on Monday! Haha! So yea...I gotta go now...Bye...=)

I'll only let go of you, if you tell me I'm not needed in your life...I won't give up, and I'll always love you...Only you and no one else...=)
And even though I've stopped hoping, I'll never stop praying for you...=)