Well that is what people say when I get disappointed about that person... Well for your information, for now, he is everything to me...
But yea you know what...I just wanna apologise if I'm not perfect in any of your eyes... I've tried, though not my best to make him realise how much I care for him...I've realised, I hoped too much... So now, I don't think I want to even hope anymore... I mean...Why am I hoping? All I want is for him to be happy even if it means, I have to let him go... At least she's making a move...Unlike me... I know who I am... And my life has been painful since like I was primary 4... I've been emotionally weakened since then... And like I always ask myself...Who am I to even hope? Aren't there like enough mirrors in my house to actually make me realise who I am to even HOPE?? I know I don't deserve him...But these few months...I've been changing myself to be a better person... Well I guess...That's why Allah made me fall for him...Just to make me realise my mistakes in life and change into a better person...Until I'll realise he's not meant for me but I'll stay as that better person... If I lose hope, doesn't mean he should too... I mean if he's hoping on anyone...Just carry on... Don't bother if he thinks he has broken my heart or anything... I'm already a broken soul anyway... Who says I'm fully recovered from my 2006 broken heart? Hahas...
So from tomorrow onwards, it's nothing new if I don't try to say anything to him...I mean, it is the best way for him to ignore me even more. Don't worry...I may have stop hoping...But I'm sure the hope won't be totally gone...And I'll always wait. Until I know the answer from him... And I know it is time to move on... I'll leave, knowing that he'll be happy...
Tears shed, dreams sacrificed, hopes collapsing...Am I losing you..? Haixx..
