These Days Are Dead Again...
It's Empty From The Start...
And It Drives me Crazy...

Listen to the lyrics of this song... Totally describes my feelings right now... Hahas! First and foremost, I just want to thank my God for the retribution that I've received... Hahas! It hurts, but I know there must be a reason behind it... And I deserve it for being so sinful my whole life... And I've repent... To Allah...I give in all my hopes... =)

I don't know eh...I'm just losing it one by one... The people whom I really want to be friends with...Gone one by one... And I won't question my fate here... And I'm still ignored by the person whom I want that person to be more than just a friend to me... Well he should just continue doing that... Carry on... It doesn't hurt as much as my heartbreak in 2006 anyway... Hahas! So ea, not so bad... He should forget me just as school ends... Banish me from his mind... I doubt that I'm even in the heart... Haha! He don't deserve me...He deserves someone better... I don't deserve him... I guess I deserve a heart breaker like my ex huh? Hahas! And I totally deserve that heartbreak...! That's why I don't hate him anymore...

And that other guy, whom I said had the brains, the discipline and the looks...I think he's gone forever from my sight... Like I asked myself before...'He's so clever! Why does he need tuition??' I guess he stopped attending tuition already? Or financial problems? Or change session? Or he's just absent for one day? Hahas! Whatever it is I was happy...! You know why? Coz I prayed once, I wish there's something that can happen to help me to ONLY like my crush and nobody else... And that somebody is GONE! ^^...Prayers answered! Gosh... Am I really meant for my crush or something? Haha! Oh whatever Me... I know it's like IMPOSSIBLE...Me and HIM? Hahahas! People would be gasping... And I would probably embarrass him... Oh my God! You're with HER?? O.O...Are you BLIND or something? Hahas... Oh well... Whatever la... Some things are just not meant to be I suppose...

Ok my day was really DEAD today... Emo much? Hahas! After school, asked Mr Ang how to do my A-maths remedial question... About Kinematics uh...He drew the distance and displacement line...And when he wanted to explain to me how the particle moved, he made funny and weird noises... Haha! And he asked me where I was going after secondary.. Like of coz TPJC... Obviously I wasn't interested in the TP Engineering School talk... GOSH... I was DEAD BORED... Not only I don't want to go poly, I also don't want to take engineering course if I go Poly! Never explain about School of Design seyh... Whatever... And Why On Earth TPJC don't have talks or whatsoever?? Haiyoh...

Then go home, cooked fish curry and squid sambal... Sooner or later I'll have to cook everyday...! Haha! Oh well, I love to cook anyway... And my grandmother was so proud that I knew how to cook already and she said my curry was delicious and I can get married already... Hahs! Give me a break... NOT INTERESTED! LoL! There was Physics tests and I was SO not prepared...Finished 15 minutes early...So I wrote some craps on my foolscap... Haha! Nothing better to do and I was in no moo to sleep like the rest... There was also Malay TA2...Quite easy uh... But cannot say TOO easy... So yea... I guess that's all...Now I'm gonna type that crap that I wrote on my foolscap paper out here... Hehe! On a new post yea... So yea.. Bubbyes! Oh yea... 4E3 classmates...remember to study for tomorrow's A-maths mock test... All the best yea peepz! Hehe!

Ya Allah, kepadaMu aku berserah...