I've gone bonkers for a while just now...
I seriously meant by crazy MENTALLY ILL.
Coz I deliberately hurt myself with an object.
I shouldn't have done it.
But I did it. Stupid. I'm an emokid.
But for a while only...Not anymore though!
I told ya' my depression wave was over...
So yea...I choose to forget what has happened just now.
Thanks to the encouragements from my friends and mum and brother.

Don't talk about favouritism anymore laa...
I love all my siblings equally,
and more than any outsiders...
If I'm seen as 'materialistic' for choosing
my favourite sibling... Hey I would have chosen my sister.
Unfortunately, I don't want that.
I never love anyone because of money EXCUSE ME.
MATERIALISM is SO not my characteristic.
If it IS, I wonder why I didn't ask for a new phone.
I'm grateful with any cheap stuffs I have.
At least I'm lucky enough to have them.
Even if you give me a $2 watch, I'll love it.
Don't have to give me Rolex to make me love you.

And I couldn't see that 'love' when I was depressed.
Could you at least understand? -.-
Well, I can see my family understands...
And I think they know I'm back to my normal self now.
I've deleted those posts...
Coz I know they still care about me.
And ok, true what my mum said,
I was being too emotional,
maybe coz I worry too much about my health,
and I didn't expect that 'joke' to come from him.
And I couldn't laugh at it coz I was sick.
Fine if I've hurt him, I'll apologise soon.
Will he apologise after what he said to me
that day? I doubt so.
No point to even hope that will happen.
Or would he say...
"Sorry about what I said the other day...
I didn't know you were really sick. Want
me to follow you to the doctor?"...
I doubt so.
It's ok. I can go with my mother to the doctor.

What I did to my skin today was STUPID.
Why should I hurt myself coz of these craps?
I'll never do it again. I swear.
Eee now my hand ugly seyh...
Tak cool nyer! =X
Should be gone soon enough... I think.
HOPEFULLY! >.<
[My cat did it! Hehe...]

Let's see... I felt better after praying.
And also watched some funny videos.
Haha thanks for the recommendation Faris!
And thanks for all those encouragements!
Apart from that I was touched by Aiha's post for me,
so I was laughing... LOL.
I'm weird when I'm touched. I laugh instead of cry. x)
Thanks la Aiha...! That was very nice of you!
And I'm sorry I broke my promise not to do it babe. =(
From that sucky-wucky emo Kirin...
Suddenly I became this crazy Kirin,
who kept on laughing and smiling... LOL.
Well yea, I'm happy, waddya' expect? xD
Ok lah...I'm straining my tired eyes
for an hour already...I'd better sleep now.

No more quarrels la people...
Small matter also wanna have a war... -.-
We're Muslims for God's sakes...
Just give in and forgive each other...
Anyway, I don't bother about what happened tonight anymore.
It makes me angry... -.-
So I'd rather think of what happened
AFTER that 'event'...
It makes me smile allllll the way! Haha! ^^
Ok lah! Bye2! =)

And thanks for err...Encouraging me to have a boyfriend.
At least now I know,
you don't think I'm a lesbian anymore.
Since you already know I'm not a lesbian,
I guess I don't really need one right now.
Coz I wanted to prove to you that I wasn't a lesbian,
by having a boyfriend.
I don't see the need for that now huh? =)