So I was thinking, should I start blogging again?

Hi everyone...! It has been so long since I last blogged here ever since Facebook exists amd I pour out my rants there. Believe it or not as I am typing this post, I'm already 23 years old. Many things have changed, especially me. I'm not who I used to be in my teenage years anymore. I am trying to learn more about Islam and bring myself closer to Allah now. It has been a year and three months since I started donning the hijab. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

I am at that age now where I should start worrying about getting married already. But part of me is reluctant to do so... I personally love my boyfriend of 7 years with all my heart. I have done and would do anything for him. But his lack of trust for me is becoming a big issue for both of us.

It's like he practically doesn't trust me at all. He can even assume I am cheating on him just because my old friend when I was 9 years old liked my photo on instagram. I mean, how ridiculous can he get? I do not have that guy's number, and the last time I ever talked to him face to face was when I was 9?? That is like 14 years ago? And best part is he is attached. Why would I go after an attached guy? It's 4 AM right now and I can't sleep coz of this. My mind is flooded with thoughts. I love him, but I fear that this insecurities and jealosy over things that don't even exist will just kill our relationship. Of coz for now a breakup isn't a bug deal. But what if we got married and have kids? I do not support divorce, so I have to suffer my whole life as a prisoner of his insecurities?

Is it still worth for me to stay? Or is it better if I just leave for good this time round? Who knows maybe... Just maybe.. I would find the right guy who knows how much I love him and can see for himself how faithful I am, coz I don't even speak to any guys who wishes to be my friends. I just prefer girl friends. What if staying will only damage me further, whereas leaving would make me a happier person? I don't know. I'm at lost. Until then, I'll just perform salah istikharah, maybe Allah can help me decide on my soul mate (jodoh).

I have moved. I'll come back when I feel like it.

http://sealedwith-asmile.blogspot.com/

I'm so sorry.
I'm so stupid... VERY.
I broke a promise I made to myself.
I hate myself...
Argh shit....! Haiz...
I'm moving on...!
But I'll visit some time uh...
I think? haha!
The thing is, I have a new blog.
http://sealedwith-asmile.blogspot.com
Do visit yea! And relink mua!
Sorry ah all my links emo2... Hehe

I missed school againnnnn...!

But with a valid MC! Haha!

My stomach hurts and I don't know why...

I dreamt someone else got stomach ache

and I gave that person a massage...

End up I have stomach ache in reality... o.o...



My fever is gone.. Yessa!

But still got slight headache..

Just now I blow my nose then come out some blood..

Eeeyerrr... I am afraid of the sight of blood! EEK! =X

Luckily I didn't go to school...

I have to catch up with my friends lah...

Shasha also didn't go to school today...

Get well soon babe!



I don't know why my mum like

couldn't be bothered to talk to me... O.o...

Oh wells, anyway, tomorrow is dad's birthday

and I still haven't buy him any present! =X

Okay what else?... OH YA!

Micheal Jackson passed away yesterday...

And I didn't even know that. =X

May his soul rest in peace...

He's a Muslim right? That's a good thing.. Hehe!



My boyfriend is away in KL...

But I don't feel so lonely ah...

When I'm sick, I couldn't be bothered about anything..

Even if the whole world is against me...

Whatever. I don't care. Haha!

And Ain, thank you so much for your concern! Haha!

So far you are the most concern friend

after knowing that I'm not feeling well! Hehe!

Okay lah I'll end here...

Waiting for this Dreamweaver trial to download

so bloody slow... I need to redo my CSA web page project... -.-

OMG It's gonna rain! YAY! xD

I think the rain was the one who caused me to have a fever...

Coz I walked in the rain when I was in school, on the way home...

Alaa only drizzling what that time...

How I know can cause fever... xD

Okay lah! BUBBYE!


3:43 PM update...
I'm sorry and shall just keep quiet then.

OMG!! I'M INFECTED WITH INFLUENZA!!

Without the A at the back..

So yea... I only got flu without the SWINE at the front.

I missed RA1 today...

Woke up and my head was super heavy...

I felt so humid like that...

So I went back to bed, thinking that

I will just attend APEL and Marketing...



While waiting for my mum to get ready...

I realised, it was 12:30 PM...

Clinics closed for lunch. -.-....

Okay I got very pissed off there...

So yea, I just went to school

even though I was very ill...

Coz I know I'm just gonna sulk if i stay at home...

Hot weather, hot temper, hot temperature...

So yea, reached school my temperature was around 37.9 degrees.

I followed the crowd when I reached school...

I know if I took my temperature,

I might be sent home... Hahah!

Like waste time sia like that!

I found a sticker and just pasted it on my shirt. LOL!



APEL was fun ah... It was Hui Xian's birthday...

But they bought a non-halal cake,

so yea... whatever, me and Shasha didn't eat...

The two besties got high fever. Best. xD

So yea we didn't have the appetite to eat...

Then I found out my Retail Accounting result...

I got a B!! Omg! Haha! I got 36/50...

Surprising coz I thought I'd fail the thing,

but so far, that's my best result! LOL!

APEL was okay lah...As usual, fun!

Dr Tan said he rarely hears my voice and Shasha's voice... LOL.

Yea right... Hahaha!
Then everytime I speak, people like cannot hear me...

Irritating sia... -.-



Then went for Marketing...

A little too early for class... haha!

Mr Sam knew I had fever...

Then was like asking my temperature in front of the class....

Everyone was like gasping...

People... I don't have swine flu la dey! xD

Then he gave out the marketing mid-sem test paper..

I GOT 31/50!! OMG!! I got a C! Hahaha! xD

I'm so happy! Hehehe!

Since I have confidence in my Econs...

I should be able to pass all my subjects seh! YAY!!!

Hehehehe! I'm so happy! Hahas!

And again. Whatever. It's just Mid-sem test...


Then has consultations for the paper...

He just told me to manage time and all...

Then went through the paper...

And then school ended.

Thanks Flare for checking my RA1 paper for me! =)



Then went to clinic.

So expensive sia! It costs my mum $28! -.-

Then went for a drink at the coffee shop...

Bought porridge...

Then went home...

Ate medicine, slept, woke up...



Ate medicine again... Now sleepy.. Haha!

Okay lah I'll end here! I blogged so slow sia..

Now is 10:57 already... Haha!

I have 2 days MC...

If tomorrow still sick like today then I don't go school lor...

Hahas! 98% chance, sick also I go school. xD

Kiasu sak Kirin... xD

OMG! I'm so sick... Hiish..
I woke up at 8:35 AM today...
I usually finish showering around that time...
So yea... PANIC!!!! xD
I reached school around 9:10 AM..
Oh well, at least I'm only marked as late and not absent.

The first thing Mr Choo did was release the
Excel results and the Mid-sem test result...
First name called... Nur Azri....
I was wondering... Is that me? Haha!
But I just kept quiet ah...
Then he called out Sharifah...
OBVIOUSLY that was me...
AZRI??! So far off sia! -.-
And that's a guy's name! Sheesh...
That was the Excel test ah....
The one that I counted the marks and was like... I FAILED!
BUTTTTT....
I PASSED! OH MY GAWD!!!! YIPEEE!!! ^^
Hahas! I got 8/15... AT LEAST MORE THAN HALF! xD
Then he showed us our theory exam result...
So yea... He said less than 10% passed...
Something like that lah... Hahas...
I was like... LOL obviously I'm one of them who failed...
BUTTTTTTT....
OH MY ALLAH! Hahaha! I PASSED!
And I didn't JUST pass...
I got 30.5/50! Ehh happy nyer aku!!! WHEEEE~! xD
And I told my mum about it ah...
She was like so proud of me! Hehehe!
Shasha came after CSA...
So I had to wait for all alone... Kinda bored there...
Just ate bread...
When she came, we went to the lab
and I taught her how to use Dreamweaver...
I love that Dreamweaver thingy lah seh! Hehe!

Then went for the MF meeting...
Thanks for the chocolate Hui Min... xD
Okay then just talked with Shasha until it was 3 PM,
we went off for Econs...
And she teased me with someone... URGH...! -.-
I so don't like him seh! o.o...
I couldn't concentrate well ah coz I was sick...
Like boring also ah coz it wasn't Nee Tat...
Then went home around 4:30 PM...

Dear fetched me coz he was worried for me coz I'm sick...
He bought me this Kumkuat thingy...
BLEARGH! SO SOUR! >.<
FIRST AND LAST I TELL YA! Ewww...!
He said it would made my sore throat go away... YA RIGHT. xD
We'll see about that ah...
Then he sent me to my sister's house...
He went home, I went up...
To have my dinner...
Then went home... My sis gave me this huge monkey plushie! CUTE! xD
Then we went home...

Hmm... I think I wanna tell my mum that
this religious class isn't helping...
I mean, they are not teaching what I wanna learn...
It's far too advance... So yea...
I think I'll find a new place to learn religious stuffs...
Okay lah I'll end here! BYE!
[OMG TOMORROW RA1!! What will my result be like?! xP]

HELLLOOOO~!
Wahhhh today very tiring sehhh!
After school straight away go dating...
Luckily no Econs tutorial...
Around 12:45 PM or so, met my guy...


We went to SINGAPORE FLYERS!! Whheee~!
Haha! $10 only... Barely anyone there... xD
Not fair sia this couple got a whole capsule to themselves!
In my capsule was multiracial...
Got 4 couples... But 1 got a son ah...
Eurasian, Malay, Chinese and Indian... Haha! Cool shit!
The scenery was great ah...
Compared to my first trip there...
So dark... -.-


Okay we just walk here walk there...
Then went home... Damn tired siol...
Had to take the bus home coz too tired to walk.. LOL.
Went home, nobody home. Sad...
Nevermind! I need to go already! Hahaha!
Bubbyes! Ngantok.. Sleepy... Tired...
Tomorrow school at 9... Mampos. -.-